Thursday, November 30, 2006

BORED BORED BORED WELL NOT REALLY











Well its time for another post, but first happy belated thanksgiving(and all that crap). So things are fine with me and Im just hanging out and enjoying the new found attention. To those who read my blog daily understand that HITCH AND FOLSOM FILTH are already out there and gaining in speed of arrive and even quicker with their departure from the shelves LOL. To those new readers just seeing this blog for the first time, IM DOING PORN AND THIS IS MY BLOG OR JOURNAL OF MY ADVENTURES(PORN ONLY!!) Thanks for all the emails wishing me well in this new venture. So what else is new????Pretty much still working(yes I have a real job) still part time my other job, and Im just having fun. I finally realize what it must be to be a actor. We have our favorite actors, and when we dont see them, we think "Oh they must have fallen off the radar, Or they are working on a new projects, Or just hanging out waiting for scripts" In my case Im in heavy training for Las Vegas hitting up the gym seriously and really working hard at my craft. As far as projects goes, Cop Shack the part two of Cop Shack101 is in the can, and Boiler was my last project to date. I have nothing set for the rest of the year and the only thing on my mind is Las Vegas. This pretty much sounds like the last blog I wrote but when people ask ya the same questions(in emails) I feel im writing about the same shit.
Okay we are going in another direction right now!!! One fan mail I recieved a few weeks ago had asked a simple question that nobody asks. "We know that u do porn and what got ya into porn from reading ur posts, But the question I wanted to know what got ya into S/M play??????"
So I will give an honest answer, most people think Diesel is the guy that came from nowhere and just picked all this up and threw on some leather growl some and act mean and thats it. Oh on the contrary folks I was home grown. I naturally have a aggressive side to me, but that doesnt mean that I go around smacking people cause Im big and hit hard and know how to fight. It wasnt the leather, it wasnt about the money, or that I was this Sex Demi God. ITS ABOUT CONTROL!!!! Having the knowledge of making guys/boys submit is such a turn on. Wheter My Height, or Body size has anything to do with it, I like the fact that its more mental then physical for me. Seeing someone submit to ya, is very exciting and knowing that u have this persons life in ur hands is such a major high for me. Some people put on leather and then believe that they are a Master or Daddy. Which is fine, everybody wants to play dress up but how many of them can tie knots, flog, spank, tickle torture, breathe control etc etc etc. My Folsom movie only displayed the Power(of me fucking) water sports, cocky verbal behavoir. Diesel is more lethal in his attacks behind closed doors, I use the boy's mind and twist his emotions and use them against him. I could go on and on about tactics, being aware of ur subject limits. But this is more complex, then putting on some leather and fucking in a sling thats easy. Keeping Control through media outlets when the person is not around is much harder, U have to be attention to detail all the time when dealing with Boys/Men/Slaves under ur control. Dealing with one timers is easy but keeping a boy 24/7 much more difficult, but that is another story(I just might blog about that in future)
Besides Control, TRUST big factor in any relationship(wheter S/M, or Personal relationship) The person is trusting ya with their body and mind to use for ur pleasure(also theirs) But the Slave/Master, Daddy/Son relationship are very complex and varies with each couple(group)or how ever many people in ur stable that u have. Simple answer to explain the S/M community LOOK IT UP!!!! Everybody has a opinion or website about S/M. Myself I wanted to learn how to be the Best Leatherman I could be. So I trained with the Old Guard of Leathermen. MASTER LOU is his name, hes about 60plus years old. This man has so much equipment that it requires rooms of space. Being curious, I brought slaves wanting to submit to me striaght to Master Lou(such a good trade off I brought him young slaves and boys and he taught me ways of a Leatherman) and he taught me step by step, knotting, roping, breathe control, and fisting all hands on, the best way to learn. I branched out and created my own stable of boys. Yeah I know I left out alot but geez people I cant write every thought down about my past I could write a book about it all. So that what get me into the Leather play. But I think Im good at alot of things sexually S/M, Romantic side(still hasnt came to film yet but it will)Kinky, Fetish and Wild side. People remember Diesel Washington is my alter ego, I write about only one side of me. I have put emotion in some of my other posting but the other side who is not Diesel will remain private. Privacy is one of the main things u lose in this business. People see ya naked, fucking, pissing, fisting people. I think I can hold off about talking about some things to remain sane. People always ask "Is Diesel ur real name"of course its not come on people. Visual, its all about a visual image people have of ya. They see pics, and all these thoughts come to mind. "I wonder what hes really like???" "He seems to be mean can he be gentle at all??" "When I look into ur eyes can I tell ur really sweet and nice and put on this front, like ur all hard but probably a teddy bear". BAH BAH BAH This might come off wrong but U DONT KNOW ME!! SOME OF YA WILL NEVER MEET ME, AND IF U DO MEET ME I NEVER LET DOWN MY GUARD. Sometimes I think I have 5 different personalities(sounds nuts I know) On screen I have the personality of Diesel Washington(for shows, appearances, porn industry) With my mom, I have another personality(everybody does). When in a relationship I have that relationship personality(cause u have to compromise when dealing with another person)At work(yes i have a job I have to keep saying that most dont think I do)I have another personality and when I have to work with other people its very effective. And then I have that last personality when in danger, or threatened or feel threatened which hasnt came to the surface in years(THAT PERSON IS DANGEROUS)and I never want to be around that person ever again. I sound nuts but I think there are many people like me around. I dont want to call it putting on a front for different people, but its almost like a "personality emerging" every time the situation changes and I have to fit the role. Almost like acting, but this is real time, WHAT IF????? The day will come when... I will be with my partner at my moms house who is throwing a party and a person that i work with will come over to my moms house and threaten her(making this up)then what will happen????? Which personality would emerge to handle the situtation??? Who knows Im just talking crazy now. I know I know this sounds so so so FIGHT CLUB LIKE!! But its the truth!!
Now Im just talking and talking. But I will end this posting with business. Titan has some really good movies coming out lately(Im in none of them except Hitch, Folsom) But check out CopShack 101 my buddy Damien in that one(shout out to Darius!!). Breathless(co star Alex, Damien, Sagat all buddies of mine.) Spy Quest3( I was suppose to be in that one long story about it) Sidetracked, and a ManPlay series. All good movies!!!! No telling what Titan has planned for me, sequel to Cop Shack I know wont be out for awhile. And my Boiler project wont be ready until the middle of next year. My thoughts about my progress???? I think this is a good move for me. I will have only two movies out so far Hitch(which i only have one scene in) and then Folsom Filth(my break out movie). I think that Titan is playing their hand very well. Im glad to see my brothers(Titan models) get their shine as well. Of course, the attention getting side of me, is like "What about me where is my glory????" But I want to be forgotten about, u make a splash coming out of the gate, retreat for a couple of months so people forget and then come back stronger than ever. Mean while on ur down time u hit the gym harder get stronger, grab some new ink and keep looking good until the spotlight makes its way right back to ya. This is business, if I was in a movie coming out every two months people would get tired of me quick. U come out hard(which I did) and is still coming out strong as more people buy the dvds. As quick as u came out u disappear(let the people get thirsty, wonder about ya)and then u hit them again with the banger. Its clever to me, its well timed and well planned. Im not complaining at all on the sidelines. So stop with the emails saying I was flash in the pan. I didnt retire. Titan is still my company. And yes I have no projects coming out very soon. I prefer this way, U cant get tired of me if u dont see me much. So everytime u see me it makes the wait that much sweeter. Cause Im coming back bigger, wiser and more hungry to make a good project. SUCK ON THAT BITCH

Sunday, November 12, 2006

MONEY HUNGRY DOGS!!!!

I know how gay guys are, gays guys are visual creatures so I have to start with pics of hot guys first and then I can go into my venting process. This is a pic of Damien Crosse(hell of a guy) We at the Titan Family are a close bunch of guys. Out of all the models Me and Damien have spent the most time together. And I really dig this guy(not in a sexual way either)hes funny down to earth and like myself up for anything. I never give credit to another model so I will start doing so by starting with Damien first. We are both tops so us working together is a tricky thing(Im cool with just being his friend)



So to answer ur questions before U even ask them. No we havent slept together. No we havent done a scene together. No we are not dating. I dont want to have sex with him. Nor does he want sex with me. Geez so thats that. We get along great, and he plans to move to New York(so get ready for him)
Now next subject, venting time. Im in Fort Lauderdale and someone sends my a copy of a Dvd that im performing in by another company. And u guys have also brought to my attention that this East Coast Porn Producer has me streaming on his site. Well kids, M.L. the producer of my "Audition Tape", is a money hungry dog. Not only did I film this scene almost two years ago I wasnt in top physical condition, I was only given 5mins prior to the shot to be introduced to my scene partner. Needless to say, the work is low quality, Me and other model didnt have any time to bulid any chemistry, and it was poorly produced. This is a nasty business, and for someone to put out poor quality work to ride the money wave is showing how greedy a person is. Now this might burn a bridge with this company but I really dont give a shit. I hear both sides of the story, I was paided for my work and he has all the rights to use it, granted this is true. But why wait almost two years to put out the scene. In that time, he has put out 7 or 8 audition tapes already. And I guess he has gotten word that i signed with a better company than his by far!!!! And is hoping to get his pockets alittle heavier by riding my wave(sounds conceited I know). I wont give the satisfaction by naming him or the dvd that is out. If u people buy the dvd, its not supporting me or my cause. He had his chance to sign me and waited too long and didnt believe in me as a performer. Im very happy and proud that I work for Titanmedia, and I will continue to push the limits on good porn and making my work shine bright. The nerve of some people in this business. AND ON THE RECORD I knew this guy was an asshole cause he brought me in his office two days before the shoot to talk to me(I mean my dick was the microphone, and he had alot to say on the microphone while laying on his back on the floor of his office)casting couch special I guess. But thank god i didnt catch this dogs fleas. SUCK ON THAT BITCH OH I FORGOT HE ALREADY DID

Saturday, November 11, 2006

OKAY U FUCKERS

Okay Okay, U guys read way too much into my bloggings wow. In "ITS TIME TO OPEN UP" I vent about always being used for sex. And u guys, sent so many emails stating ur opinions about the subject, I have to clear up some things. PEOPLE PEOPLE I write this blog as "MY" means of venting about things that are important to me. Some of u guys say I should be happy that Im blessed with certain things and should just live life and enjoy. And then some of ya really get involved in my business about wanting to find happiness. Again these are my opinions, fuck u to the guys that just want to see my pics and never read the blogs. I know I know some of my blogs are pretty boring and tame. But never forget, Im human, porn aside and industry aside I have feelings and dreams so writing a blog lets me open up and gives some insight. Finding friends has been difficult, since im getting more involved in the business, people are starting to notice me and its hard shaking the feeling that ur being watched alot on the street. Stalkings are nothing new to me but U guys are really starting to get annoying now!!! I wont come at u guys with attutide if u give me alittle breathing room. Following me down the street, or in the club gets old. Staring at me with nothing to say is fucking rude. Although I do porn(and have alot of fun doing it)I WILL NOT I REPEAT WILL NOT PULL MY COCK OUT AT THE CLUB JUST CAUSE U ASKED TO SEE IT!!! Grabbing at my cock or ass might get ya punched in the face. Im no thug or homeboy Im a man simply that.
Sometimes I dont want to write this blog anymore, I reached my goals that I set out for already. The main goal of the blog was to use it to see my climb to the top(Im not even close to my peak yet)Im getting there quickly so the use of this blog has almost reached its ending. Its hard to believe that I have been writing this blog for almost a year now wow. But for those who read all the bloggings U should notice that I started writing this blog from the perspective of not knowing the business and lacking direction and wanting to start my porno thing. Things have came full circle now. Its funny I went from working the Hustlaball as a go go dancer and watching the real porno stars interact with the crowd. To going to Las Vegas as a porn star myself, being behind the Titan booth interacting with the crowd and getting my chance to shine. Im finding it harder and harder to come up with stuff to write about. Im still fresh in this business although I have done 4 movies so far this year. I had my taste of traveling and hitting the club circuit by hitting up Fort Lauderdale. U people can expect me to do alot of traveling next year to promote myself as a dancer/porn star. But to finish this blog, U guys know by now I love the attention Im getting lately although can be a pain the ass sometimes I love it. I will continue to write this blog when I have something interesting to say or more pics to share with u guys. So just read the blog, look at the pics for now and wait for more things to come in the future. 2007 is set to be a big year for me, I still will have movies coming out and doing more traveling. I will announce more things as they come available to me. Just remember, Im a only child no brothers or sisters so im used to being alone. As much as I want to make friends, I can live alone, do things bymyself, and still have a good time. In reality, true friends are hard to find anyway, we all have assoicates(people who we party with, hangout with)but I have tons of those. Some one who I can trust, doesnt have an agenda, or who doesnt judge me, is the hardest thing to find. I just had to clear up some things SUCK ON THAT DICK BITCH

Thursday, November 09, 2006

FORT LAUDERDALE YUMMY!!!

These pics are from Private Halloween Party in South Beach. The party was set in this huge estate in South Beach(We talking this house was huge) Famous people running around everywhere thanks to Howard www.fabscout.com Gio www.belowthebeltwithgio.com For being so nice and inviting me to this party. I had so much fun and met so many people there. My costume was a jester hat securing the manhood (LOL). To the left, Jai Rodriguez and me. Below Jay Armstrong , Myself, Manuel Torres.(Great bunch of guys)





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This is me onstage at Cupids performing(alot of nasty stuff happened there thank god they locked the door). I had such a great time, funny the more naked I get the more fun I have interesting......... . The pics below are pics at Steel (a hot night club in Fort Lauderdale) Thanks to Misty(dragqueen) pictured below for inviting me to the club I was treated so nice everybody was so very cool to me.













These pics are from Boardwalk(GO GO BAR) for the release party of HITCH I jumped on stage with Damien Crosse(we buddies)and had to represent Titan in the Flesh. Thanks also to Jim(club owner) for putting us in VIP he kept the drinks coming and was so nice to us I almost didnt want to leave!!!!







I really need to give a shoutout to Gio, Howard(and his Team) for all the things they helped me with when I was down there. I had to extend my trip cause these guys were just showing me such a great time I had to stay longer. Shout out to Damien Crosse Tuesday night he had me laughing so hard. Also had to thank him for Sunday night at JackHammers where he bartends, he kept the drinks coming and kept my wallet closed. Oh I forgot Big shoutout to Eric www.poplifedesigns.com we hung out at the Voodo Lounge thanks for putting up with me and letting me hangout with ya. So to put it all together I had a blast in Fort Lauderdale and so many people showed me love out there. Big shoutout to Boardwalk, Steel, Voodo Lounge, Elements, Jackhammer, and Cupids(much Love to ya A.J Cross for letting me be a star on ur stage and dance my clothes off). Big shout to A.G www.showguys.com for putting up with me(People Im a pain in the ass sometimes) He was so very nice in letting me crash at his place for my trip. A.G if ur reading this, u better use everything I taught ya in the gym(u better look like the Hulk in 6 months after the training I put ya through LOL) Shout out to Tommy Blade much success in this business. Oh another shout out to CJ Knight(my costar of Boiler)for coming out for Boardwalk and also hanging out with me at the after party. Shoutout to Mark www.jumponmarkslist.com for being a sweetheart(noone's hands were as warm as ur hands were trying to get inside of my jesters hat for the South Beach party LOL). I know im leaving out people but I cant remember everybody's name(my bad if I did, fucking just email me if I did) Last bit of pics are from Folsom Filth these pics were recently made available to me so enjoy!!! This is part 1 I will write more tommorrow but for now enjoy this. Suck on that!!! And what is that???? My dick