Saturday, January 24, 2009
I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT!!!!
Here, I was to write a nice post about what is going on with things in Porn, and this happens!!! I dont know where to start??.....I will break the ideas into sections.
First, we are going to talk about this "Angry Black Man" thing. Im getting tired of hearing it over and over from people, its annoying me. Secondly we are going to talk about this Reverse Racism Shit!!! Im so tired of hearing it, I get it from both sides people!! And One of the Biggest Subjects : Me being a Sell Out????????!!! Ouch that one hurts!!! No better way to handle this but jump right in:
The "Angry Black Man" role........ I dont know what the fuck is up with people???? I do fucking Porn!!!!...... My sexuality belongs to me!!!But I share it through Vids, So I dont know what bugs people more???..... The Fact that I fuck hard as hell...and dont have a smile on my face, while Doing it???..... The Fact that in real Life and Porn, Im a Top and dont bottom?????.... Maybe I have to do more Love scenes????? When I came into the Industry, I wanted to make a Big Splash and be that Monster Fucker!! And maybe I played that character so well that people cant shake the idea... Diesel Washington is a character.... I didnt base it off a Stereotype!!!! The Big Bad Macho Black Fucker... Geez. I feel bad that People call me a Stereotype..when IM A TOP AND LIKE TO FUCK HARD!! Period!! Its not an act, its what I like to do in the Bedroom and on Film!! Only that!! To Me, I thought I was showing off for the camera and showing skills that people would say "Damn He knows How to Fuck!!" But I guess Im wrong!!! At this point, I dont give a fuck anymore....its not worth fighting....But there has to be something more to this "Angry Black Man" thing...??? To me, it sounds like People want me to smile more when Im fucking LOL.... But Hey Ur Still Watching Me!!! So keep on doing that!!
Now this Reverse Racism Shit!!! Wow!!! I wrote about this in another blog, but I will talk about it again... I get all this Hate email from people(who are not avid readers of my blog)saying I dont like my own Kind...Whiteboy crazy...Uncle Tom bah bah bah.... Ouch!!! You Guys Dont Know Me!! Never Met Me!! So FUCK OFF!! Seriously there are some Ignorant People out there!!! I was born Black, Im staying Black, and I will Die a Black Man!!! From my point of view, I get it from both sides... But since I play Low Key(on Race Issues) on my blog it seems that I have to be very Vocal now so u will understand!!! Some People in the Black Community say "Diesel doesnt like Black Guys" and this is based off what???????? U dont know me!!!
I was an Exclusive with TitanMen for 2 1/2 years, I had contracted work with one studio only(that is the choice I wanted to build the Diesel Brand)in that time.. I have worked with an Asian Model, four Latino models, one black model(Markus Ram)Models from France, Italy, Germany. I have worked with so many different kinds of models, its ignorant to say "Diesel doesnt Like Men of Color" do my Movie history... Fuck People!!! U act like Im the guy that does the Casting.... I cant believe Im explaining myself to the ignorant people(they are small minded they wont learn)who are making assumptions about my lifestyle offscreen like its their business!!!... U dont know me or ever will!!! I dont deal with Ignorant Fucks!!
Im a Strong,Proud and Confident Black Man... I wouldnt have it any other way!! I do get hurt when My own community turns on me!! Im equal opportunity when it comes to Sex, there are no color lines to me!!! Does that mean I Dont like my Own Race??? Fuck I dont get it? I like all Races!!! so let me repeat that... DIESEL WASHINGTON LIKES ALL RACES!!!But some people still wont understand, let me say it this way... DIESEL WASHINGTON LIKES BLACK GUYS. Its to be expected though, People only see the porns and base everything they see off a movie, but that is not real life.DUH!!!
So from the Blacks, I get "Im white boy crazy" "Im being fooled by whitey" "Im being brainwashed" "Im confused" "I have low self esteem" and "Dont love my own race kinda of crap"...I deal with it.......
From the Whites, I get "Ugly Monkey" "Nigger Nigger" "We dont like Niggers in Our Porn" " How did My Ugly Black Ass get to fuck this model or that model" Its insane as well, So I deal with that shit too..
People People, I do Gay Porn and fucking online!! Im glad I got so many people talking about me though.... But at the same time, some of the stuff makes no sense at all!!! But Gay guys can be caddy, so its to be expected(and U know thats the truth!!) I wont please everybody!!! But at least, I know what Im about and so do my Close friends, they know what Im doing or trying to achieve....The Rest of ya!!!Can Suck My Dick(if u pay me!!)..
Now the Most Important One....... The Sell Out Crap!!!! Wow, I read everything online about me.... and the Sell Out crap hurts the Most!!! Let me see the words Mandingo, "Angry Black Man" all I can say is WHAT THE FUCK!!!!????!!!
I came into this Industry, so Men of Color had a Platform... Someone Darkskinned that could come into Mainstream porn and be successful.... But in doing so, Some People in the Black Community said I lost my Blackness????? Are ya serious????
Wow, when I look into a mirror, I see I have Brown skin.....Hmmm? My Mother is Black and my Father is Black, doesn't that mean Im Black???Hmmmmm?? So How does One lose their Blackness???? Because I havent done any Thug Porn??? or worked for an All Exclusive Black company??? its 2009 and People still think that way???. I cant believe Im explaining myself once again to Stupid People(to the people who get me, I love ya!!)
Get it right!!! Im not a casting director.... Geez and I just thought Me doing Porn was THE FIGHT FOR DIVERSTY IN GAY PORN!!! I didnt sit on my Couch and say "Damn all these Big Companies are not using any Black Models" and didnt do anything about it!!! I got off my Ass and made the Industry take me serious!!! All U People are just Cry Babies and Bullshitters!!! U complain about this and that instead of making a difference. I know some Blacks that dont buy Falcon, Colt or Titan vids cause they say they are not enough black models.....but at the same time wont buy Flavaman or ThugPorn because they are using the "Thug Steretype"....Fuck so U do all this complaining and dont even buy porn...but u look at the pics, previews and trailers and dont spend a dime...and jerk off to it. Cheap Sluts!!!
And since U dont buy my porns... U dont see that they are movies with scripts and I play characters... I have been a Leather God, Business man, Cop, Pimp, all types. If U buy the movies then U would know that.... Secondly.... if u dont like what is going on in Gay porn then make a change.... I wanted change so I became a model...If u want to make a change(and cant do porn), email Ur favorite company and tell them what u want to see... Complain about seeing more Black models or more Men of Color...dont just sit there and complain that I play stereotypes... Most of ya, wouldnt even open ur mouths in public and talk about it...U just sit on online and make up names cause U cant speak openly about it and hide behind computers!!! All Talk and no Action!!!
Lastly I created the Diesel Character... Sexually Diesel Washington is a Top and onscreen he is aggressive and knows how to fuck his bottoms!! The man behind the character is a Top and knows how to fuck his bottoms... so there is no pretending to be someone else. Im not a Thug in real life and none of my movies has me pretending to be a Thug. I watch some Thug Porn myself....its characters(all respect due).... its suppose to be fantasy!!! I think me wearing a Do rag, and gold chain fucking some guy on a Project roof top is not the character I want to play. THAT WOULD BE ME PLAYING A STEREOTYPE!! Because I cant relate to being a Thug when Im not!!! This is not Rocket Science!!! All I wanted to do was make some Hot scenes!!! Show the Industry and Fans that Men of Color could be exciting onscreen therefore opening the doors to more models to leave their mark in this industry.....
I dont understand why People are not complaining about Gangsta/Thug Porn????? The old story of Gangsters and Homeboys in the hood fucking, that goes way back and they are using the same formula they used 20years ago(Baggy Jeans, Do Rags, Blunts, Hood Rules, and Selling drugs)I hate to tell U this.... To all the Black guys that only buy Black on Black gay porn......most of the companies that make Black on Black gay porn are owned by white guys!!! Sad but true!!! But most people dont know that!! Now u do!!! Dont get me wrong!!! The exclusive models have their say in the company..and direct, and come up with story lines......but at the end of the day.... those companies are owned by White guys. Not all Black on Black companies are owned by white guys......just most!!! So Rich Brothas invest in a Gay Porn company and lets make the movies that people want to see!!!! That sounds simple enough.
This Post is getting long so I will end it with a few notes:
It was brought to my attention that some People didnt like my Bound Gods scene on Kink.com!! Im glad.. that scene was meant to be shocking and have people talk about me... I knew what was going to happen playing that role. A Black Man tied up and all of that shit!!! It would bring back the thoughts of slavery and lynch mobs, all of that was in my mind the whole time filming....and u know what It worked!!! So many People are talking about that scene because of it... That was the Point!!! To the people complaining..... they probably didnt buy the shoot and are only making remarks because of the pictures. Buy the shoot, (I thought I was playing against character in it, people complained that I was just this "Angry Black Guy" who came in and fucked the boys hard !!) If it were two black guys playing in that scene, people would still complain....its too freaky, and Im not into that fetish shit bah bah bah....Too bad cause I am!!! I love Kink and Fetish play!!! Its my thing!!!
All these personal attacks and judgments on what I do on the screen or in my bedroom... This is for ya, If u dont like the action on the screen, U turn the channel...very simple!!! All U people spend so much time complaining and writing comments.... Why dont ya write ur Favorite company for more diversty...... Or find some way to change the industry!!!!
PEOPLE ATTACK ME....BUT I SEEM TO BE THE ONLY ONE WHO GOT TIRED OF SEEING BLONDE ALL AMERICAN BOYS IN PORN AND NO BLACK FACES......... BUT NOW THERE IS A BLACK FACE AND ITS ME........GUESS IM THE ONLY ONE WHO HAD THE GUTS TO STEP UP AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!! Nobody knows but I spoke at the Gay Summit 2008 about Race issues, the impact that Gay porn has in the Black Community, the Importance of Men of Color in porn, Racism in Porn..... alot of subjects. So Im out there in front of the Big Companies talking to People, Im well spoken and smart but People dont see that!!! People only look for the Bad in people which is sad...I worked hard for a reason and People dont see it...... Im working harder than any of U guys in changing the attitude or stereotype of Men of Color but whatever...... Even now, People are talking about the subject more and more.... so maybe Im doing some good..... But all u people just want to jerk off and not hear Ur Models doing things to make a change..... Or do ya????
To the Blatino Erotica Awards, its okay.... I still have Love for ya Guys!!! Maybe u guys thought I lost my Blackness as well...... I dont hate on U guys!!! Do I feel bad??? Yeah I do feel bad that the Blatino Erotica Awards didnt recogize me for my achievements in gay porn......
I never knew that my own community thought I was a Sell Out.. It hurts!!!!!
This is why I dont talk about Race issues its pointless..... If I was only to talk about the race issue I wouldnt get any work.... that is the "Real Angry Black Man"...one that cant over the past and look forward to the future.... I made my future, by getting off my Ass and making a change.....
And to answer some things..... yes I was inspired by Barack Obama.... for me he inspired me to make a change!!! Not just sit there and bitch and complain about nothing happening.....
And the whole Eric Rhodes thing...... Man that WAS a hard time for me..only because Eric and I are friends.... THE BLOG WAS SUPPOSE TO BRING ATTENTION TO THE MOVIE THAT WE BOTH ARE IN..... promoting promoting it seems to be working because everybody knows what I wrote in that blog.... and it spreads and spreads to everybody. It brought attention to the movie, attention to my blog.... so mission accomplished!!!
TO THE FANS THAT READ MY BLOG AND KNOW THAT THIS IS ALL ENTERTAINMENT!!! GOOD FOR YA!!! U GET IT!!!
Help the other people understand that this is entertainment..... Press is the name of the game!!! And it seems that I know How to use the weapon called Press!!
That "Editor" is one smart guy LOL
Oh thanks ROD for link!!!
Posted by Diesel Washington at 8:47 PM