LONG TIME HUH???

Yup I haven't posted forever.....


Lets jump right into......


I'm still doing the WhoreTour with Joey Boston(see previous posts)and traveling from state to state and making the people happy...

But I'm not happy right now, just so many things going on in my head and trying to sort out everything. I guess I would be having one of those bipolar moments again(yeah big surprise there) I'm going about my business in life and I keep getting stalled from achieving the main goal.

To start my own...

Now I do have some good news to share with the fans, but I have been sworn to not reveal until the time is right. So on that note people, stay tuned because I have some news that will make alot of people happy.


Back to starting my thing, I'm taking every precaution to make sure everything is right. I have some great ideas that I want to bounce off the fans and ALOT of hot ideas that will shake up the industry.

Ideas set

Themes set

Models set

Equipment set


Support system(besides fans and family)NOT THERE!! My mother will back any idea I have wheter stupid or smart(that is what moms do) As far as friends(close friends)they seem to break down into the following groups.

Either they are against the idea completely...

Don't care either way, Business or No business as long as I am happy, they are happy.

Or the worst part, they don't care to know about any business that I set up...just for the simple fact that IT IS MY BUSINESS. Basically its a caddy way of saying...I'm sure the business will be a success because....."YOUR THE ONE DOING IT" I should feel flattered that they have high hopes for Me..

But I don't feel those High hopes, I feel like I'm getting swarmed into something so big that I may crack under the pressure... So I'm 6'6 245lbs solid muscle, Bad ass from NYC who is not afraid of anybody...

But the truth is...sometimes I do get scared.


For the friends that are against the idea of starting own business(sex business), that is cool and I love them for it. The recession is kicking every bodies ass and people who thought they were untouchable are now feeling the pinch themselves. It is an eyeopener for everybody. So I understand their fears...but I will push on because it is my dream and my goal. I understand they are not coming from a "Hating Standpoint" merely they are coming from a "Reality Standpoint" that starting any kind of business right now is shaky. It's always about taking a risk in business to Me, stand up if you have the balls, back down if you want to be a follower. Sorry but I lead...


To the best of the bunch, the ones that don't care either way..
I know you want the best for Me, but pick a side. Saying you don't care either way is like playing the fence. I will be happy regardless if Rich or Poor, I want to know will you support my decision and try to help Me achieve my goal? That is the question...I don't want you to just sit on the side and watch it play out not knowing was you With Me in the beginning?? Or just wanted to watch the Crash and Burn?? Who knows?? Maybe I'm too sensitive....Whatever!!!

To the ones that don't even want to hear about my business....You guys are dicks!!
It's weird cause I have those ADD/Shallow/Pretentious/Self Absorbed friends, who could careless about anybody else but themselves(We all have those friends)and I GET IT!! I do...

But...

With those kind of friends it hurts sometimes when you express yourself with all the passion and gusto in world, and they haven't heard one sentence that you said. In fact what is coming out of your mouth about your life is actually boring them, I mean how rude can you be? I give them a pass because We have been friends for years and sometimes they have your back(Big time). And I guess they will be around for you when the timing is right(Their timing)but they are friends right? Got to love them..

Maybe its the bipolar thing, I should be happy that I have friends around Me that support Me either way...


Just sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to that is excited as I am when explaining the business side. It seems everybody wants to hear about the hot naked guys and see pics and sit around talking about all the money you will make doing your idea. You find fewer people willing to sit around and go over ideas for shoots and coming up with different kinds of concepts/themes and shooting locations. I know its all about porn and having hot guys but I have a greater appreciation for those that sit at the table coming up with idea after idea to put to film.

Yeah I do have to admit coming up with ideas over and over for shoots is not easy. I have books and books of ideas that I put down every night. Thinking up different camera angles and themes that I can set to film. I have some ideas that I think are brilliant, but maybe in reality its the worst idea ever and I need to polish the idea more. I can't talk about online cause the vultures will steal every idea you have(Been there and done that).

Anyway I came online to vent out my ideas and what I'm thinking about...


The last few posts have been nothing but filler:

Hot pics

Some Vids

Short essays


I haven't opened up to the fans in a while, sometimes I think people come here just for the dick shots(lack of)and the funny Vids. I guess some people come here just to read what is going on in my life. I forget I reached that Personality mark, so pretty much I have to be that entertaining guy that you read about on Twitter/Facebook. Or I have to be that Loud mouth that is causing Blog/Twitter Wars!

At the end of the day, I think most come to read my blog because its the story of a real Human being(Editor), sometimes fictional characters are added in for entertainment(Dexter Delarge, Big Boss bah bah). But for the most part, the blog is about a person playing a complex character called

DIESEL WASHINGTON


I may not have the best grammar, or English skills but I think people get the gist of what I'm saying...

Thanks for reading...