Sunday, February 10, 2008
FUCK FUCK U DIRTY PEEPS
Ego Ego, I can admit it........ I can be a real asshole!!!! I never claimed to be an angel.... or that I dont have my own faults. Lately I have been walking around like my Shit dont stink...... and I see that I dont like the change as well...
I told myself when I get into business that I wouldnt let it get to my head and just enjoy the ride. Lately I have been thinking what about me???(As I should!!)but at the same time wondering about the industry instead of just being myself and loving the time while Im here. But alas... Im always striving to do better and push harder and harder to do better work.
Winter time is here so thats why Im acting alittle annoying lately.... Everybody knows how the winter goes....everybody scrambles to get into a relationship and just chill so I feel like Im gettin winter blues. Fucking screw it!!!! I have met alot of people in such a short time, its alittle confusing that finding someone cool can be so hard!!!
At this point of the journey, everybody has their own Agenda. Im head strong, and I lately I have been demanding that people drop everything to attend to me. Yeah alittle selfish, somewhat childish..........I dont know maybe lonely it aint easy being Pornstar......
U question: If people are more into the character?? Will people still be interested in the Real You?? Who can U really Trust?? Years down the road will my filming hurt me in the long run?? Bah Bah enough of Life's questions......
Things are good now and Im looking the best shape of my Life. I feel good and Im ready to work and party. San Fran here I come. I will be pretty busy during this stay. I will be taking photos of Folsom for the Next Folsom Fair poster so that should be good. Also I will be filiming my next upcoming scene(excited about that!!) I will also be speaking at the Gay Summit as a panelist, Im really excited by this one, Finally I get a chance to speak infront of my peers in the Industry.. I will speak very honestly about my time in porn and Def speak about how it is to be a Man of Color in this Industry.
What else?? I keep for getting about that post about People that I want to work with... Im working on it..... Its a long list I promise Next post...
Peace.
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10 comments:
I really like reading your posts. You have a lot of insight - into a lot of things. I think you are on the right track. Don't take the business or yourself too seriously. Do like you set out to do and enjoy the ride.
Big hug,
Jeff
Why don't you hook up with Erik Rhodes... on his blog he mentionned recently being attracted to black guys, I can very well imagine the two of you having sex together...
Damn, i thought "A Day of Training with Diesel Washington" was going to be about how to take that massive COCK of YOURS, SIR. YOU know, SIR, like how to stretch a hole to accomodate YOU? But the sparring vid was hot any! Boned me right up!
If you're feeling beyond blue go to
http://erikrhodes.blogspot.com/
After reading his post I was confessing my rape during my first year of college.
Dude, I gotta say when I first read about you and saw your work I was a bit dubious. Don't get it twisted you are "dat deal". But I didnt know what your angle was, being one of the few black guys in "mainstream" gay porn.
But after reading your blog and seeing what your trying to do in the industry I got a lot of respect for you. It's definitely hear from at least one black man in porn especially one who is on his grind trying to smash down all those barriers.
Keep doin what your doin, and I'll keep buying.
Cool blog bro! This is the first time that I've seen a blog by someone who is active in the adult entertainment industry. Keep up the good work yo!
http://strong11foru.blogspot.com/
Wait till you get older and don't have a husband nor children to help wipe your filthy ass...I'd love to be there to laugh in your face as your last waking moments fade away...wondering why you chose to be so selfish.
Diesel, a black brutha here, love u, love ur work, think ur one of the most beuaitiful men in all of porn, they broke da model after they made u, and i hope to see u fukking some latino and black men on screen too but dont bug cuz white racist muthafukkas try ta treat u like u less than. Cuz u aint brutha. U da best!
hi diesel, i just saw that preview for telescope and it looks soooooo hot. thanks for your great work, tom, houston
hey stud
why don't you come to Australia and work me already?? love your photos, and absolutely adore your blog.
don't be so hard on yourself... this world is crazy and we all just doing the best we can!!
hugs kisses and grope (all night??)
apollo apollo__79@hotmail.com
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