Okay Its Sundays relax time!!!

Im stoned, and sitting back in front of computer and for once im relaxed and not holding onto any stress, I have been working alot and i cant seem to really focus on major topics that needed to be addressed. I have been working on a website that has been on hold for really good pics of me and i have to really look into a camera man. I hate to take the glory"pics" with lights and props but hey im willing to give it a try. Me standing in front of the camera is a funny thing for me. I retreat into a comfortable space for me and then i seem to zone out and then really take things very seriously. Trusting people is an important thing to me, I expect people to honor their word, man/boy,pussyboy,whatever the case. But sitatutions happen, and action has to take place.
Enough said i have a nice week back in town, and the weather has been alittle better for now. Hmm i went to see HOSTEL past week and yes it did suck!!! I mean i was down for the concept of a different kind of movie with the nasty and grosss out scenes. We all knew the movie was going to be bad, but we wanted to see how bad the movie was. Im into that dark humor kind of a movie. Think about it the guy that set them up had them like damn those girls are hot. And the boys went all the way over there for pussy, Insane!! I dont want to give away the movie if u havent seen it but I think its worth a try just to go through the insane underground scene in the movie. Hmm what else??? Clients are the same. I tend not to write about what i do with clients in a blog. This is my space to say what the hell i want to say. I tend to be on the negative side of things but im having fun and i think this is a good way that fans can stay somewhat close.
Lets see for so far i started the year with a good party in Las Vegas. And now...... not a damn thing!!! (Just For Today)lol. But im traveling for a bit, leaving sometime next week and getting an overall feeling of what direction to go in. I havent picked a state, Florida is cool, but i could stop inBoston, but then stop in Washington, Or i can just go to Cali. Decisions Decisions, I mean i like to travel and the fans have been very nice to me. I have traveled overseas, Germany, England, Holland(my favorite) but life on the road is party to party and club to club. Im not sounding harsh, but i like to do that,... but having a home front to come home to is key. I have that emotional connection with a partner I have had it for the past 3yrs before i started escorting, and going into the sex industry thing.
Next topic, gym is going very well, i know it sounds funny but i like to talk about my work in the gym. I have been putting on alot of weight these past couple of weeks(good weight) and i think im getting to a nice size of 245lbs lean muscle mass. My head is telling me to go to 255lbs which will take about 6 months. For all those who dont know about bodybuliding. Yes u hear of guys in the gym gaining about 30-40 in 4 months time, cause those people are on steriods.. Yes i said it, steriods, i dont take that, I take supplements such as protein, amino acid, and mulitvitamins, and i drink alot of water so im somewhat natural. I consider steriods(putting a needle to ur vein)a mixed bag, yeah u get big from them but u have to pay a price. Maybe some acne hear and there, but then the nuts shrinking(hell no) anything that touches or affects my penis or nuts the wrong way I cant fuck with it. But the wieghts have been coming up and trimming down the waist even more now. Im going heavy and the sets have been more intense and explosive. In general, im in the best shape of my life but missing the fame, lights camera, action, Diesel. Just a dream of mine, this whole thing is a dream, Will I ever wake up???. Maybe im not ready for the dive yet? But there is no turning back now, and for once I think i like not knowing the unknown(or whatever that means). Hmm final thoughts, yeah i like to talk about all the porn stars that i met. All u guys are hot and i cant wait to fuck ya all out there. Strong words from a strong guy. Peace Kids daddy is tired.