RESIGNED AND THE PORNO BIZ UP TO DATE

Okay It has been a crazy month so far. With the Award show, The Releasing of Crossing the Line Cop Shack 2. Now lets add one more piece to the puzzle. Boiler yes folks another movie out starring U know who. I loved filiming this movie it was my first one on one and I think I did a great Job, I had the pleasure to work with CJ Knight on this project and the scene was hot. When the reviews come in I will let u guys know the deal. As far as Porn is concerned I had some issues that I wanted to discuss about the Gayvn Awards. Now Mate Cole did deserve to Win Best Newcomer he had a stellar year and worked with every company out there. Francois Sagat def needed to Win Best Performer of the Year his work speaks for itsself. But Titan not wining Best Leather Movie, I was shocked and amazed. Titan did However Win Best Extreme Specialty Release. With Michele Lucas winning every award it was nominated for, caused me to think something was very fishy going on. Out of high place honors were Falcon who had a good year, Hot House, Raging Stallion, and Chanel 1. But lets be serious here Lucasentertainment wins Best Actor, Best Director, Best threesome, Best screenplay, Best Editing, Best Supporting Actor, Best Non Sexual Actor, etc etc. Are ya serious????? Out of all the companies working today there was no other talent around to compete with Lucas???? Thinking about the Awards now makes me alittle sick, I might be naive and new to the business, but I thought the awards were given out because of Talent, and busting ur ass to make a Project Great. I saw La Dolce Vita, and to be honest It was good and shot well. But lets be real, it took forever to get to the sex scenes. No offense to the models, but we are porn stars not actors so asking somebody who gets paided to fuck or get fucked and asking them to be Broadway stars is alittle crazy!!! Im Proud of Titan the Company I work for. We all knew what was going on but we kept our heads high and proud cause at least the fans knew what was going on. If u dont then Rent La Dolce Vita and Rent Folsom Filth rent all the movies that was nominated in each field and come up with the answer urself. It will leave ya sitting there going WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED??????? THAT MOVIE WON OVER THAT MOVIE???? If u dont believe me just take this one test Rent BlackNBlue(Hothouse) and Rent Folsom Filth and then u tell me which movie was the best Leather Movie of the Year!!! I have to go now, the more I write the more I think about the Awards and IM going to throw up now!!!!

GAYVN AWARD WEEKEND, IM STILL ALIVE!!!!

Okay Guys and Girls reading this, I had the most amazing time at the Gayvn awards. Its alittle hard writing this blog about the events cause everything is mostly a blur, so If I forgot about anybody Im sorry it was a crazy weekend and somethings I just cant remember but I have help from friends who remember more than I do. Well I might as well get started with the stories ur dieing to hear about. So many parties, so many people to talk about, lets start with Kink. com's party, then the Preparty that Rentboy.com threw, The Hotel craziness,, Preparty for Gayvn Award show, Gayvn Award show, then the Afterparty for the Gayvn Awards. Geez It was a fun weekend and it went by so fast it was crazy!!!.
Now "We" landed in San Fran and made our way to the hotel and started to unpack and get settled in. Now U maybe asking who is "WE". Diesel is a character that I created for the Porn and Escort business. Being Diesel allows me to have my own private time just being the real me with the person that I love. Outside of being Diesel, I have been in a 4year relationship with an amazing person. Before I came into the whole Sex Industry, I made them a "Promise" that I wouldnt talk about "Them" in my blog, or interviews or anythng in the same field, so many people were shocked that I had a special someone all this time. As fans reading this ur probably shocked as well that I have been with someone for 4years!!! I wanted to respect"Their" privacy, they dont do porn, or escort, or has anything to do the industry at all. The only reason why Im talking about "Them" now is. Everybody was so nice to us at the parties and I could tell that people thought "They" were adorable. While "They" still want nothing to do with the spotlight, "they" are getting more comfortable with being in the background.
Enough about the mystery person!!!(Love Ya to Death Baby!!!!) Now the Hotel, that itself is a whole blog worth writing about. Some details I cant give away for security reasons(the stalkers out there) The Hotel was insane, just walking through the doors, I run into the Falcon boys they are staying at the same Hotel as the Titan men., to top that off also staying at the same Hotel was Fabscouts boys. So U can already guess the craziness in the hotel. The more I thought about it the more I was saying to myself this weekend is going to be crazy!!!. Long story short, my next door neighbors were Howard from Fabscout(check out his new site www.fabscout.com its new and improved, love the new look Howard) Mister Sagat(Congrats on Best Performer win!!! so much deserved). Damien Crosse and Evan(We love u guys) Trevor Knight and his guest, so many others. Literally U could climb from my window to other peoples room. So u can guess the madness going on in that Hotel. I will speak of one story that happened inside of that hotel. In the morning, waking up after Kink.com's party and Rentboy.com's Pre Party. A little guy named Cole Ryan comes knocking on my window. Now U guessed it, I was pissed off about having my sleep disturbed. But....... this was different, U all know that I have Major Crush on Cole Ryan(I have always wanted to work with him on some project)so when I pulled back the curtain and saw that it was Cole Ryan knocking on my window. I made an exception, even better when he climbed through my window he had two sets of boxing gloves with him. Now I never back down from a fight ever!!!! Its even more rewarding when the person ur fighting ur sexually attracted to. So basically it was on!!!! I asked my partner if it was cool to "Play" with Cole Ryan. Everything was cool so I cleared off the bed, put the boxing gloves on, and we sparred. I have spoken to Cole about our Interests in Martial Arts, UFC, Kickboxing. So I guess he was interested in Experiencing first hand action. To be honest, its hard wrestling someone who u want to fuck!!! He has a great headlock, but I just liked the fact that I was rubbing my hardon between his legs and at the same time picking him up in the air and slamming him on his back on bed a few times just to loosen him up abit. What I always find funny about wrestling people who I like. I go about 60% of full force when play wrestling, but the little guys that like to wrestling with me, they go all out, no holds barred and they dont hold back(LOVE IT!!!)I dont have fun unless I know that I made them sweat, and gave them a couple of bruises along the way. Such a great wake up call Thanks Cole.
Kink. com's party, very nice set up they have over there. Kink.com has bought some real prime space for shooting films wheter porn or regular films. It started out as a tour of the property with a great open bar(yeah the drinks were flowing that night)and four floors of fun to walk through, and to be honest every room spoke to me as a scene in a movie that I would like to do and I was glad that Titan put me on the list for such a great tour. Speaking of which BIG SHOUTOUT TO TITAN U GUYS SPOIL ME TOO MUCH!!!! After getting all sauced up at Kink.com party we headed back to hotel for a change of clothes and then it was time to head to Rentboy.com Pre party.
Rentboy.com Pre party, sorry I dont have much to say about that party, truth be known, I was so drunk that I only stayed 30mins and had to leave before people had to hold me up or lean me against a wall or something. But I think I had a good time the 30mins I stayed anyway. We headed back to hotel and slept till afternoon, that is when I got the Cole Ryan wake up call.
The next day was spent shopping and walking around the city, then the PreParty for the Gayvn award show
PreParty of the Gayvn Award show, geez this was a Whos Who of the Porn Industry. I ran into every porn star that I watched recently and from the past and it was totally awesome. At these events I get star struck and have to really absorb everything around me or I will go nuts. One low point of the night Erik Rhodes(Love ya to Death buddy)had on the same sweater vest that I had on(u can see in pics above)its all good we joked about it and had a good laugh. I ran into CJ Knight(scene partner for Boiler)great seeing ya again and looking hotter than ever. Vinnie D'Angelo(HotHouseMan) love talking to ya man. Francesco D'Macho(the man is even hotter in person, pics dont give him enough credit)was great seeing him there as well. Also seen were Nick Horn, Marcus Iron, Roman Heart, Ashton Starr, Robert Van Damme, Carlo Masi, Chad Hunt, Barrett Long, Collin O'Neal, etc etc etc the list was crazy. After some drinks and partying it was time for the show. We made our way to the red carpet for the start of the show. Upstairs there was an open bar(like most of the places where we went)and the drinks were flowing again. We made our way to our seats, Titan secured Front row seats for the Show(So cool)Seating, there was a major pain in the ass in our seating area.
Now get this, we get to our seats and some guy refused to leave our seats that we had reserved for the night. We asked him kindly to remove himself from our seats and he refused repeatly stating that he paided 1,000 to see this show, he didnt have a Vip wrist band and was just being an asshole and refusing to leave. Now I already had a few drinks in me and the THUG CAME OUT I was so enraged I just wanted to grab this guy and throw him outta our seats. The Great and ever so smart Brian Mills told me something I will never forget" Diesel we hired ya cause U are Beautiful Black Man, we didnt hire a Thug, so relax this will be taken care of" In all the crazy things that were happening I lost sight that I was there to have fun and Represnt Titan to the best of my ability. Finally the guy was removed and we took our seats. So on Record Brian Mills, "U have taught me so much in these few months about the business I will always be loyal to ya and the Titan Family". Okay moving on........
Diesel is never nervous about hitting the stage but since Im not Diesel and he is only a character. I was nervous as hell and needed some Liquid courage. I left my seat to go and get a couple of drinks before I hit the stage. When I retured I was suppose to Present a Award for Best Screen play with Damien Crosse. Upon returning Damien was already backstage getting ready to get on stage, I made it with a min or so to spare getting back stage ready to present Best Sreenplay. Backstage I got to take pics with Kathy hosting the show, and she is so nice and sweet I couldnt take my arms off her(she has this energy like she is ur best friend or something like that) Me and Damien hit the stage and read off the winners. Only problem, when I got to reading the people who were nominated, I Shit U Not, I couldnt say La Dolce Vita, It came out sounding like La Vita Loco(I was alittle drunk and nervous, yeah right!!!)but things were cool after that. I left the stage and apologized to Michele Lucas(sorry for misspelling)for the mistake.
More about the nominations and winners in next blog
Finally the Show was over and it was time to hit the Afterparty(by this time I was hammered). We headed over to the Afterparty and Partied til the morning and to be honest I cant remember anything at the afterparty. I wake up the next morning with a big headache, but safe with the person I love. So look at the pics above and maybe u can piece together the events, cause I cant. I had such a great time and everybody was cool with me, so nobody to add to shit list this time around. But there will be other parties and events so of course I will keep ya posted!!!!

In short, I would like to Thank Damien Crosse and Evan, I really love u guys, we hung out together as couples and we had a blast. The more I get to know u guys the more I love u guys. Now this might sound like bullshit but.... Damien is the only Pornstar that I hangout with on set and off. We hangout together, talk and enjoy each others company. He knows my real name and I know his, I go to their apartment, hangout with them and break bread with them. And Im blessed that not only did I get a chance to meet ya but also had the chance to hangout with ya and ur husband and having ya call me ur Friend. For that Bro U will always have me as a Friend.
Geez that is some mushy shit I just said, Oh well its the truth!! So all u fuck heads out there Fucking Tip the Guy when u see him at the bar, dont just sit there and ask question after question so him some Love in the form of Tips shit!!!! We are Porno Stars but shit we have to pay bills as well!!!!

REVIEW OF CROSSING THE LINE COP SHACK 2

Well folks, I have some free time tonight so I thought I would update ya on what is going on with things lately. All the traveling around really wore me out. And then preparing for the Award Show on Feb 24th hitting the gym and doing my parttime work starting to wear me down. If ur reading this for the first time(there are always new viewers)I work a full time Job, I do Porn, and "Private Shows" and then dance(not on boxes). So I have many things on my Plate right now. But before I go on about what is going on in My Life we have to talk about the review I got on www.Mannet.com I feel this movie will break me out of that Leather Shell I was in(More about that later). Good Reviews are a good thing Esp when Im on the BoxCover. The World of Porn has embraced me, and I was connected by Some Really Big Names in Porn that wanted to work together. Now u might be saying so what?? "All u Porno guys talk to each other" This is different, this Mega Superstar Performer I watched when I was first Exploring Gay Porn, and wants to bottom for me for the First Time on film!!! What makes this even special this Performer was a Major Dominate Top in his day of Porn so him bottoming for me will Cement me as one of the "Best Power Tops" to date!!! Yes People I think on those terms, Im proud of my work and skill, and if that makes me cocky Fuck It!!! ! When I look at the State of Gay Porn I see alot of bottoms and versatiles in the mix, thats cool!! It means I have more models to Fuck in my business, but.... I tend to see a lack of Monster Tops that bully and tear out an ass!!! Every movie I watch nowadays I see the same thing when it comes to fucking, Porno Fucking!!!. I could careless about the moaning if its not real, all the dirty talk sounds the same, the positions are the same, and nobody fucks balls deep anymore!!! Now to take a pounding like that, U have to be a Star!!!The audience wants to see chemistry wheter Bad(when it looks like the Models are not into each other) or Good(when the Models are into each other)or Even Better when Explosive(ie a Power Top with Inexperienced Bottom, all the reactions are real!! ABUSE!!)Im intense, aggressive yet charming(depends on role). But I can see why its alittle hard to find people willing to work with me(Race, Muscle, Pounding Power, Pay etc etc)I can "See" why but........... Isnt this Porn???
This Rant comes from "Contact" within the Business. How u may say??? Some models watch other models work and bulid attractions(Im one!!!)so U check wheter the model is Free agent or Exclusive(Im Titan Exclusive)cause if they are an Exclusive with another Company chances are Ur not going to have a chance to work with Them. Either U wait until ur a Free agent or when they become a Free Agent. Now out of the Free Agent pool, U have to search for Versatiles and Bottoms(I could do a scene with Just Tops, but that will be alot of Jerking off, and sucking which is cool too but...)Now out of all the bottoms and versatiles, which ones have that "TitanMen Look"then from there its the "Match Up", Im 6'6 so pairing me with Little guys is Tricky!!Even when U find the right match up, it then depends on the terms above(Pounding Power etc etc). I was very lucky to get such a Great Casting Director in Ed Vincent(I know ur Job aint easy!!) So far my pairings have been excellent!! But Im an asshole, so of course if I see a hot guy in a movie that I want to work with I try to make it happen myself. Which brings me to this point, if ur attracted to me, and want to have sex with me , Why not do it on camera??? Right!!???U get paided to have sex with someone who ur into!! Makes Sense to Me!!! But........ I have come across "So Many So Many"Performers wanting to get fucked and pissed on, but wont do it on camera, Tops on film( get thier ass slam fucked offcamera) but wont on camera. Drives ya nuts sometimes!! But this is a business, so I guess people are really serious about thier "Image". I can understand that, but this business is very flexible, hot guys and girls are hot guys and girls so whatever they do together is going to be hot as long as they are into it. Moving on now........
So far my Leather Scene has sent shock waves through the Industry, Folsom Filth is a Piece of Work that will stand the Test of Time. Im very Proud to be apart of that Project, for my Leather Fans, that movie was for ya I put everything into that Role. But alas......... I have to move on, leather will always be apart of my Life(private life as well)but the Character of Diesel Washington has to develop into more than just a Leather God(Not my Words LOL), Cop Shack 2 does this. Everybody looks good in uniform and I must say I look hot in uniform(Even dressed like a Pig Copper!!)The departure from the Leather Look to Uniform Look is Hot to me, and u guys should love it cause the scene is hot. Titan did their homework when they signed me, they predicted the buzz about Folsom Filth and was smart to Cast me in the Copshack Sequel. Judging my fan base I tend to get mostly Fetish people(which I love) but Titan and I didnt want the Diesel character to get typecasted for only "Leather Themed" roles. I think my Character Diesel has way more to give in terms of Roles for movies. Im still a selfish motherfucker, this opens doors to more people who may have been afraid to work with me based on Folsom Filth. This opens doors to people who think all I can do is dominate and be rough and mean in scenes. I talk alot about this because people so far "Think" I only do Leather Films and my whole Sexual MakeUp is Fetish/Leather Based. That is so not the case!!!Although U will never see me in a Passive role(cause that is not me)I can be aggressive and sexy without always relying on Leather/Fetish. Moving on....
This Week is going to be tough, I have to Train hard and Run(Oh brother!!!)I dont want to think about it yet. Geez the fun part is going to get "Fresh" for the Award Show, I have in mind what I want to wear to the Show but I havent narrowed down the choices yet(give me a break Im not into Fashion but I want to Look Good for once). I will go shopping with my Stylist, and hopefully we can come up with something Hot!!!.

COP SHACK 2/ SPLASH APPEARANCE

Well Well, I have some explaining to do, if ur reading this now, yes u missed my show at Splash. Why didnt I write about it??? I have been flying all over these United States doing "Private Shows". I was in Florida, Sat to Sun(met nice bunch of guys out there, Hello Steven and Jeff ) flew back to Nyc at 11pm just to sleep enough until Monday. Monday I had another Flight to Houston at 425pm from JFK airport. So I wind up getting up at 10am the next day, go to the gym for 2hours and then head to airport. I arrived at Houston at 730pm, I didnt carry much on the Flights. Usual I play the StreetSoldier mode(I have my Laptop, PSP, Telephone, Camera, Cords, games, chargers, batteries, clothes, shoes, sneakers, and boots, shower stuff and gym stuff. I grabbed what I could these last couple of days , which wasnt much. So If ur reading this for the first time, I was really busy, so I missed some calls, missed some emails. I havent updated the blog inwhile so..... I gave ya a treat today, a nice long blog about what the fuck is going on: Traveling and the Splash Show. The Splash show on Feb 14th, I will write about that experience as well so get ready for some long winded stories.
Traveling, I like it really and have a blast meeting so many different people. Business flying is Esp cool, its traveling for pay. Now its time to rant alittle. I dont know what the rules are for Flying, meaning the Armrest situtation. Now from what I was taught the "ArmRest Situation" was as follows: If ur a Righty(meaning that ur Right is ur Strongest Side of ur Arm as opposed to being a Lefty),the Righty always get the ArmRest on His/Her side. In any case, I get some dirty looks sometimes cause IM a big guy, I need to be comfortable so I take both ArmRests for comfort, doesnt matter what side of seating that Im on. And then comes the Leg Room, I seem to edge my way into other peoples space(Im that type of Person that likes Personal Space Myself) When u sit in airplane seats theres that imaginary line that separates the seats. U know u have ur own table and chair and earjacks. Sometimes I fight for space, but the Flight Attendants are always cool and will move me into a larger seat. But Im an Asshole, so the more Room the Better!! People with Carry on Luggage this is for ya, I thought Ur allowed to bring one Carryon bag. Whats Up with the people that bring 2 or 3 pieces with them?? Everytime I get to my Seat(always Late for Flights)the OverHead Bin(by my seat) is always full with bags. I saw this guy get on Plane with Carryon(clothes)another case for computer(wires, plugs, equipment)and Briefcase. He stuffed all of "His" stuff in his overhead bin when he got to his seat. There were two other people in his seating area, when they got to their seats after Him, They had to put their stuff under the seat instead of Bin, cause all of His stuff was in the Bin. I guess Finders Keepers!!! People in First Class, I know u paided alot of money for Good Seats, u paided for extra room and a Comfortable ride. But...... if Im sitting right behind First Class and all of Coach classes bathrooms are full, guess what???Im using the Bathroom in First Class. Not only will I use the Bathroom for number two, but I will make sure I have a Hearty breakfast beforehand. So U people, Can give me all the ugly looks that U want when I come into ur space(I go right through the Black curtains that seperates First Class from Coach)and use ur bathroom, it is what it is. I still like Traveling, but there are some little things that piss me off when I fly and I just had to vent about some of the things.
As soon as I came back from traveling, the next day I had a performance at Splash at 12midnight. I know I know, I didnt write about the show cause I really didnt think the Show was still going on. Its been snowing all week and its been cold and shitty the past couple of days. So I expected a bigger turnout then we had but...... U cant expect much when its shitty outside and on Valentines Day. I got to Club and met Damien(U all know about him)we talked had some drinks before the show. So Im hanging out at the Bar with Damien and Evan(Damiens Bf) I talked to the manager about the Show. He was throwing out ideas, I would start out on a" Box" for routine and then move into the crowd. I gave him a funny look when he said that. I pointed out, without attitude that I would be more comfortable starting off on the Stage and then I can work my way to the Box for a quick dance(real quick dance). The gig went well and the People had a good time there. Titan sent a Big Box of giveaways for the crowd, and the people grabbed everything Free that they could get their hands on. I had a good time, took some pics of the show and put them on my blog. Whats next???? I have some shopping to do for the Awards Show. I never Dress Up for these events, but for this Event I will. I cant wait to hit San Fran with a hot new look and have some fun when Im out there. So the past week has been crazy and alot of things going on. But I took some time to write this Blog for ya and even put up some New Pics for ya. So let me Hit the gym now and get Big before the Award Show.

I think I need to Rip out ur tongue, cause that will make more room for my Cock to slip in and hit the back of ur Throat.

BREAK TIME OVER!!!

Okay like the caption says, Break Time Over!!! I have to be honest people, I have been a lazy fuck for the last two weeks. I have been House Partying for two weeks and now, Im ready to handle business. If ur not from Nyc, then U dont understand what is going on. Its freezing cold, and outside is not the place to be. I have been still going to the gym and hitting it(but not so hard) From just looking in the mirror, Mr Washington has put on some pounds(Good pounds). Since its cold as shit outside, I havent ran in two weeks, kinda of bugging me. I hate running indoors, but it looks like I have some work to do. I have nothing but good news lately so I have let loose and hangout with good buddies. So for the past two weeks I have been hanging out at my friends house. Being that his house is 420Friendly there is nothiing better to do besides eat and watch Dvds. In a state of Dazed and Confused, I took pics of me "Pimping" and "Thugging Out". To the PETA people: I dont like Fur either but this was just for pics,(U throw Blood on me or put some sticker on me saying "Im a Asshole Cause I wear Fur" U will get ur ass kicked and beaten)so dont Bug out. Hes a Fashion Designer, and his house is full of clothes to try on and have some laughs with. Now its funny cause Diesel needs to uphold his image(even on this site)but he likes to have fun so maybe when Im bored(really bored) I will put tons of new pics on this site(or maybe wait until my other website is finished).
To the Fans, that read this shit I havent really taked about much on this site besides Porn and how things are going with me. So I will have some fun this time. If u dont know by now, then I will enlighten ya. I love Cartoons, and def digging Family Guy and Futurama. I tend to Zone out and just sit and watch Tv and just relax. Im watching I Love New York(funny shit) if u dont know the show. Its a reality Tv show, Where New York(Tiffany)is the main character, and a number of guys battle for her affection(various games, lap dancing, playing sports etc) each guy that doesnt live up to her standards is kicked off the show. I Love New Yorkwww.vh1.com/shows/dyn/i_love_new_york/series.jhtml is a funny fucking show. I give props to any guy that puts his business on center stage. What makes this silly, is that its a game. And when U play a game U play to win not lose(The Way I think). Now this show is a spin off of Flavor of Lovewww.vh1.com/shows/dyn/flavor_of_love_2/series.jhtml. Now its the Guys turn, so far the show is starting off slowly, when it gets down to 4 or 5 guys left, then the pressure is on and each Guy on the show will show his true colors for the cable audience to see. Now any press is good press but like any Reality Star u can only ride that train a short time(Same as Porn) The Cast is a good group of colorful characters so I look forward to watching the Show more(Have I bored ya yet???) I feel retarded sometimes, I dont go out much these days. Its cold and I really dont like going out in New York any more. I dont run with a Crew or Posse and I really like when I do shows or travel out of New York. I read so many emails about people wanting to come to New York like its their Dream or Lifeswork to get here. This may sound Jaded, but I have been here and its great but...... If u want to pay Major Rent for a crappy tiny place, More power to ya!!! U want to have tons of roomates cause U want to Live in the Big City, Thumbs Up to ya. I rather live outside of Nyc(somewhat close)pay half of what u would pay in Nyc to have twice the space(Everybody knows that!!)Im just ranting about wanting to move somewhere different, even though I know I will live here for a long time.
Well my fingers are hurting again and its way too early to keep writing, so I will write more another time.

Maybe I should write M and M on my dick, cause they melt in ur mouth not ur hands, but my cock shoots in ur mouth not on ur hands.

CROSSING THE LINE COP 2

Okay Okay Here is the first peak of my new movie Cop Shack 2. I really have to Thank Titan again cause they put me on the cover of this movie. And this movie looks hot, this is going to be a banger. Cop Shack2 is the first Movie that has a bisexual scene in it. I must say Titan doing Bi Sexual porn is the greatest idea yet. Masculine Men playing with women and men at the same time. Its just fucking hot and I cant wait to work with a woman. U will get to see me plowing out a girl and guy(maybe at same time)if Titan continues with this trend. As U all know Im bisexual(even though I fuck guys, and very well I must say)having a hot scene with a woman is icing on the cake. But moving on, things are great for me now cause Im having alot of fun with the all the attention. But I really came on to blog about a recent experience that I had. Its blunt and to the point, so I made some mistakes, oh well thats why Im blogging about it. People who want to do porn, this is for ya:

I was contacted by this kid, who wanted to do porn. I know its the same story, everybody thinks they can do porn. Most think, all u have to do is get hard and fuck a guy on camera and its all said and done. Wrong Wrong I dont know how many times I always tell people this is not easy. In any case, he was another innocent kid that came up to the plate and striked out. He came to chatting with me online(he contacted me)gave me his stats, and shitty pics(which caused me to think he wouldnt be attractive in person)but something told me to give him a chance. I made arrangements for meeting him in person in a few days. We met, and he was about 5'7 125lbs Blonde hair and Green Eyes(Twink Bottm). In person he is really a cute kid, now why would I meet this Kid??. He contacted me, and said he was interested in doing Porn. Same song and dance I thought, this was different, he didnt drink or do drugs(true sex freak). He was attractive, had a sexy quality to him, he had that "IT" factor. So I thought!!! I talked to him online prior, so I found out a great deal about him before meeting him. He was cocky, had a sharp tongue and was witty, All good traits for a pornstar. When I talked to him in person, he was confident, sure of himself and very eager to try his hands at doing porn. Now I know what ur thinking, I have to test out the goods!!! Ding Ding. Blonde twinks always have work in this business. They might not be Ur favorite type of Porn Star(Muscle Bear, Thug, Frat Jock, etc etc) but its like a staple of Gay Porn. U have to have ur Blonde bottom who everybody fucks and bangs out. Before the Blonde bottom was Jeremy Jordan and now its Mason Wyler. They have a strong following and a great investment if they truely are performers. He was young so he had a great future in Porn(A Great Moneymaker)and since Im in the game its a great way to earn extra money by finding more talent. Im not a agent, or a pimp(ummm)well maybe not............. Anyway. I like challenges and this kid had no experience and only bottomed once or twice(what he told me). This was going to be a job, he was a natural bottom, had the bubble ass and the looks of being a good "Pass Around Bottom". Long story short, He doesnt bottom well and hates it and wants to do porn at the same time. Now we could always train him but that will take some time, and at the same time, Im doing my thing in this industry. Is he worth the investing time and energy into?? The pushing and pushing him to be able to take more and more dick up his ass?? Or Just really sit down, and discuss that the best way for him to bottom, is to find someone that he likes or is dating and play with them until he learns to bottom better. This Kid would need months and months of training(fucking his hole until u stretch it out). Usually when u get into porn being a bottom(guessing), ur already confident in ur skills when it comes to sex, meaning that u know that u can get fucked hard or at least take a certain amount of cock up ur ass??
Why Do I talk about it so much??? I come into this business being the Best Top I can be(and then from there keep pushing to be more) I expect my bottoms, also to be able to perform at the best of their ability. I hate fake porn when the guys are not fucking and there is no energy or life to the scenes, fucking drives me crazy. Basically if Im going to put my name behind ya, and say u can do this and that, u better be able to do it(Im not putting my name on anything if Its not up to standards). Now hes a good kid, I felt alittle gulity that I put added pressure on him by telling him my standards of a good performer. He aggreed to the standards however, but it was more of a problem than he expected, his body couldnt perform.
Without going into details, Fuck it details(U know U want to hear all about it)!!. If I put my cock near ur hole and (((U already jump))) like its going to hurt. Its going to hurt!! If ur pushing against my thighs(instead of pulling them into ya)its going to hurt cause ur not mentally ready. Its all about the Brain people, ur mind is the strongest sexual organ(most think its the cock)if u condition ur mind U can do anything. Remember when I said at first, he seemed confident??, All that was an act!!. He was trying to "generate" that confidence instead of having it. True he only bottomed once or twice. But he knew what was in store if he was to bottom for me. If ur reading this Little guy: Ur sexually attracted to me. U like my Work. U want to bottom for me. U want to do porn. U want me to train ya. But.... U Hate bottoming for me(the look of pain on ur face, emotional break downs, etc etc)Ur not aroused when ur in the act of bottoming(thinking about taking the dick instead of relaxing), or even getting close to cumming. Ur piss shy(cant pee around people), not into any Fetish play. Its funny cause, I had to really talk to this guy and find out what made him think that he could be a porn star without being able to bottom. He isnt hung, doesnt have a muscle body, and doesnt last too long as a Top(from what he says)What made him think he could be a Star?? Cause He sucks alot of cock and thinks hes really good at it.!!! Geez When did cocksucking mean that U can do porn??? Because U think u give good head ur a pornstar. In a nutshell, PORN IS NOT FOR YA.!!!!!
Now to some people, U may be like damn hes that tight, and u cant wait to devirgin his ass. But If u like fucking someone who passes out because of the pain, or who starts crying in the middle of getting fucked(sometimes its sexy, this was just Drama)more power to ya. Could we have remained friends without the sex, and been cool buddies???HELL NO!!!! I fucked him cause of his earning potential, we didnt have anything in common and ran with different circles. Shit I do Porn, sex is like Hello how are ya?? Im fine Thanks for Asking. I wish him luck maybe for something in the future, but really he had dreams of becoming a Teacher. He was young and had a long future infront of him, porn is for people who really like to show off or has a "freaky side". Did I save him from making a mistake??? I dont know??? If this same kid, came to me asking to do porn and he was a hungry bottom that could take it. I would pimp his ass to the ground. I would pimp him so hard, "If I put him out in the Rain, He would make my money and come back without a drop of rain on him!!!" Now I think Im nuts but Oh well. I think Im talking about nothing really just and experience I had which was funny.
Let me go cause I have to write another blog.
I hope u dont slip on the ice and fall face first with ur mouth open on some cock.