Lets get right to it:
I WANT TO APOLOGIZE TO TITAN, ITS STAFF, SUPPORTERS OF... ABOUT THE REMARKS I MADE ON THE "TELESCOPE MY MOVIE FINALLY DROPS BLOG" Although I made some "Valid Points", I painted a horrible picture that clearly wasn't true!!!! I have never been mistreated by Titan EVER!!! either because of Politics, Marketing or Race or any of that Bullshit!!!. In fact I have been Spoiled Rotten, Worked with Closely, and I know the other models will Hate me for saying this but given"Special Treatment" to. To the Industry, I know I have many supporters behind me and for that I'm thankful, I did not mean to come off as the "ANGRY BLACK MAN" when so many people showed me respect and love!!! I DID NOT INTENTIONALLY MEAN TO HURT OR MISUSE THE TRUST OF SOME OF MY "CLOSEST FRIENDS" I MADE IN THIS BUSINESS BY SOME OF THE STATEMENTS I MADE.
There u have it People.....My first taste of Humble Pie(eat it up People!!!). But I would like to say some things though...
What the Fuck People!!! Everybody reads into this blog way way too deep!!! I have always said this blog is about "Diesel Washington" I keep forgetting that people actually ready this shit!!! So some background about this blog:
Diesel is a character, and only that and this blog was created to reflect what Diesel thinks. I'm not the same person as Diesel(sometimes the Line Crosses, get it???? Crossing the Line LOL) But I have always said Diesel is Overbearing, Overly Aggressive, Impatient and sometimes a Man Child. He is also Ego Driven, Paranoid, and an Attention Whore!!!! WHY WOULD THE PUBLIC LISTEN SO CLOSELY TO THE RANTINGS OF EGO CRAZY PORN STAR???
As most Porn Models do, Diesel gets on computer and Googles his name everyday just to see what press comes up, what blogs talk about him, just to see what pops up!! At the same time Diesel does the Youtube postings, myspace page, and his own blog. All for attention and press, last year I slipped under the radar(as far as press)so I vowed this year to change that and be more aggressive.
So I had a brilliant Idea!!, Write a Scandalous Blog in time with the Releasing of Telescope that will get attention to the Movie and Diesel's blog. I did not expect TheSword to pick up the story and run with it. Thesword over hyped the story, used some of Diesel's words taken out on context and made the White America Cant handle Diesel. I'm happy with all the Press..... but at the same time its bitter sweet, some people got hurt and it wasn't my intention to do that.
In short, a Company owner can Fake a Suicide with Pics and all, Models can go in depth about Drug Use and having unprotected Sex. Or Sing songs about Dildoes(thats for ya RJ LOL), talk about Severe Depression, Non Disclosures of Hiv Status, and models can even talk trash about other models needing "special help for scenes" and drug use on set. Even get in Jock straps on Capital Hill to promote their websites. But Diesel as the "Angry Black Man" shocked people. But Why????
Titan is one of the very Few Companies that hire Black models and makes Exclusives out of Raw Talent when they see it. They have done it in the Past, Present and will in the Future. Why would I pull the Race Card with Titan, when I'm a Black Model that is an Exclusive with Titan?????? Why would I say Titan doesn't put Blacks on Cover when I was on the Cover of most of my Projects and had my own Front and Center on Cop Shack 2????????? People did u forget about Dred Scott, Ben Jakks, Marcus Ram, Jack Simmons, Jason Tiya, Jay Black(all black performers that were either exclusives or worked with company)I would think someone would call me on it and say I was being a hypocrite because Titan doesn't do that!!! (IE the performers I mentioned above)but nobody did. Titan has been one the strongest studios for improving Exposure of Men of Color, Copyright Laws, Its stance on Bareback movies!! Its continual support of organizations dealing with the HIV crisis. I feel bad that I might have tarished the Titan Brand because of a Publicity Stunt.
NO ONE PUT IT TOGETHER THAT THE BLOG WAS MADE TO BE SENSATIONAL I ONLY DID IT BECAUSE IT WOULD MAKE PRESS!!!!! THATS WHY!!!!
So confusing is this Porn business. People get edgy over certain things Wow!!! I still don't understand this Power of a Blog, I need to use the power wisely, and Def learn How to Control the Force!!!
Maybe I keep forgetting that Now more than ever I'm under the Microscope and people are watching. Yikes I thought being naked on set in front of people fucking was nerve racking. But now so many people waiting on a blog from me. Is even more Scary!!!