THE REBIRTH OF DIESEL WASHIINGTON

My Night at the Cock...... Big Shout Out to www.Rentboy.com its staff Sean Van Sant(love ya man)and others for making my time at Cock Nuts. Big Shoutout to RainBlo(U ran that show!!)Victor Steele, Cory Koons(happy birthday), Anthony Marks. The Cock and all its Staff!!

I headed over to the Cock for my Personal Appearance, in Tow: The Awesome Damien Crosse and Hotter than Hell Angelo, Slave boi Yan, and some Arm Candy. As I always like to have my Peeps with me. We always make Showing Up a Big Deal, the crowd was ready(I had to breathe some Life into them by Spit and Piss)Enjoy Pics but moving on..........


Okay Kids, I had a long look back at a crazy two weeks(maybe three weeks)things went from bad to worse, and then crazy to nuts. Dealing with Life, This Character of Diesel, Friends, Family bah bah bah bah.............

Basically on the Breaking Point of Going Insane............I was really going nuts....

I was becoming more and more Aggressive and was depressed about Business, Living Situation, Romance, Bills, and Gossip and most tired of all "DIESEL".......

Then it happened, My Ex contacted me........... YES THE ONE!!!...... THAT WAS THERE FROM THE START!!!!:

They were like "Dude Whats UP???" "Nothing" I said. We had a long talk about things, Life and Where we both were at in Life. More Importantly, they said I was losing Focus....... Wow!!!! We started this business with a purpose!!!! And ur losing track!!! U ARE AT THE TOP OF THIS BUSINESS!!!!! WE MADE IT!!! I was like We??? WE??????? They never used words like We before, and I Did lose Focus???!!!! The only reason why I started this business was for the money, Fame didnt come into play for me in the First year of doing this business(it would be there I knew). Second Year I changed, did the shows and appearances, and the gigs and touring. And became an Attention Whore!!! Not Knowing......... Im running the Show(as we speak)!!!!!

In doing this business I have met all the Stars that I watched and jerked off to. Stars in both Gay and Str8 Porn, I have met Lexington Steele, Markus Ram, Matthew Rush, Colton Ford, Bobby Blake, Marcus Ram,etc etc............I met Legends..

And the funny part was...... I felt right at home, at first Star Struck... Im not going to lie... But having the Honor of these guys calling me a Hot Man, and giving me knowledge into the business... The wheels started turning more and more for me.

Seeing the Rookies coming up, either Websites or New Exclusives all new to the game. Looking at me.... as a Major Player (in this game).

Biggest Impact was Chi Chi LaRue, she is a fucking Legend of all Legends!! She is one the biggest Players in this Game either Str8 or Gay. Talking to Chi Chi has remained in my head for a long time. She said "Diesel U are a Fucking Star and dont even know it. U can make any Path u want...... Str8 or Gay"

And I accept it..........Im here!!!!!With all the problems and Gossip, Living, Im here!!!!!

Things are hard, but the more Im comfortable with myself then People around me will be comfortable. ie and then be able to see the real me. Im here............

I Bitch, Complain but..... Im still here for the Fans and those Who do Like me!!!! I never backed out of a Show or Performance and always give my all.

I LIVE FOR THE FANS!!!THIS IS ALL FOR YA!!! THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT AND EMAILS OF SUPPORT!!!

Even to the people who dont buy the Dvds and just like reading my blog.. Thanks for reading the words(some tough, some ego driven)means alot to me.