Thursday, August 14, 2008

THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE!!!



Stop to interrupt the last blog on How to Become a Successful Porn Star..... but I have breaking news!!!!

This week has been fucked up..........I have no words for how hard this week has been!!!!

I had to Fire Patrick the Assistant.....He did nothing wrong at all....In Fact he put up with my demands so much sometimes, I even wondered why does this Kid put up with me so much???? Patrick has changed my Life for the Better!!! It was hard to let him go but he had to go!!!

I know I know all the people want to know the real reason why I fired him!!! And I will tell ya the reason.....this is being honest as possible...........

I had to Fire Patrick because.........He was a 20yr old with a good head on his shoulders and he is starting school next week. College is back open and he needs to go to school instead of helping out a Porn Star........

Now this is the Editor talking........ Not Diesel or Dexter...... The Editor!!! I couldn't sit by and have him booking Flights and working on my blog, helping with You Tube shit, coming up with ideas and such.... when he needs to be in school and putting all his energy there!!! It wouldn't Sit right with me, esp now since I'm a Free agent the work will be even harder now cause I have to sell myself to other Companies and show them I can work. I have to recreate myself, my image, and keep pushing forward.... Its not easy, Most of the Industry heads still think I'm with Titan..... although I have a working relationship with Titan I am free to work with other companies and showcase my skills more. But Its an Up hill battle!!! Patrick gave me alot of support and positive energy. He was there when I had doubts about myself and as a Performer and we both celebrated the Awards, cause he was apart of that.

The funny part is I never had to pay Patrick for his work, he mostly did the work to see it play out in the Industry. The vids he edited, made it on Different sites, and even Patrick had his own Fan club of sorts. I will miss him dearly...... I had to force him out!!!! He still wanted work for me even though he was in school and we both know, it wouldn't have worked.... He would have projects and school work and Exams and I cant pull him away to say "Come over and take pics of my Cock" that is just selfish and wrong!!!

So there u have it.... Patrick the Assistant is gone.......so the blog might suck for a bit until I learn more how to work it and keep up with my own shit for a change!!! I will miss ya Patrick(U asshole u better have a GPA of 4.0) Hopefully the Fans will truly understand what u meant to me and my business. U were a Blast when u were around pushing me to be better!!! MY Hat goes off to Ya!!!

And then there was Damien...... The week got worse and worse....... Damien Crosse my "BFF" left today for Miami for his show with Da Macho.... After that he is heading to Madrid to live...... Can this week get worse!!???

U all know Damien and I have been connected for the Last two years and we have always hung out together and had each others back!!! Mister Damien Crosse is Now leaving me to make it overseas. Where has the time gone???? Damien u have been my closest friend in the Industry and it will be hard not having someone to talk to. We did shows together, traveled together, partied together, cried together......
Geez this week sucks!!!!!

Damien Crosse U fucker I will miss ya!!!! Most people don't know..... We are Truly Friends, we go to each others house(he lived three blocks away from me!!!)stayed up late so many nights talking, both plotting Our careers and paths. This just sucks right now!!!!!

I lost my Assistant, My Best Friend........... FUCK!!!

7 comments:

Jess said...

Hey Editor,

I understand your pain because if I was to loose my assistant my whole career and life would halt for a year... but please know that these two people are gone to better themselves. The next time you'll see them, they'll be so out there that you'll be more than proud to have these people in your life...

Regards,
Jessy A.

PS: Hit me up if you're looking for assistants to interview....

eggz said...

This is a nice post. but we both know that this is speaking in better light. i will miss you too. Keep working hard, i know you will make it somewhere even bigger. you have my support

eggz


P.S.
dont forget the little pandas working hard next to those blonde boys.

Damien Crosse said...

HEY BABE :) WILL MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY TOO FUCKER, BUT WE'LL KEEP IN TOUCH OF COURSE!!! UR STILL MY BFF EVEN THOUGH WERE FAR APART :( MY NY NUMBER'S NO LONGER, SO ILL CALL U LATER TODAY...WILL WE BE SEEING YOU IN MIAMI THIS WEEKEND?

LOVE YOU XX

rich said...

u havent lost them at all dude
they just do other shit
their own shit
and friends stick even if you dont see them that regularly
they are still there
but thats nyc...city in transit
missing can be a good feeling
good luck

ike said...

awww..i am sorry about your week. but it could be worse.. you could not be speaking to the two people you care about and they could have left on bad terms, but you still have friends at different parts of the world, and still have room to invite new ones in too..that is having your cake and eatin it to..was that to sappy? be happy D

ike

James said...

Hang in.

peace

Anonymous said...

Hey, bro, your friends are alive and well. Breaking up the "family unit" is hard to do, but these guys are still breathing and, obviously, still your buddies. I can't believe that, in a city as big as NYC, you won't find a talent willing to help you arrange your schedule and other business (although,I admit, the FREE part was pretty impressive); I'd bet there is a line of eager bottom boys with secretarial skills and computer experience forming outside your door this very minute. You're a businessman. Act the part. Since you are branching out as an independent contractor, this may be the best time to make some changes, get some new points of view around you.