Thursday, August 14, 2008
THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE!!!
Stop to interrupt the last blog on How to Become a Successful Porn Star..... but I have breaking news!!!!
This week has been fucked up..........I have no words for how hard this week has been!!!!
I had to Fire Patrick the Assistant.....He did nothing wrong at all....In Fact he put up with my demands so much sometimes, I even wondered why does this Kid put up with me so much???? Patrick has changed my Life for the Better!!! It was hard to let him go but he had to go!!!
I know I know all the people want to know the real reason why I fired him!!! And I will tell ya the reason.....this is being honest as possible...........
I had to Fire Patrick because.........He was a 20yr old with a good head on his shoulders and he is starting school next week. College is back open and he needs to go to school instead of helping out a Porn Star........
Now this is the Editor talking........ Not Diesel or Dexter...... The Editor!!! I couldn't sit by and have him booking Flights and working on my blog, helping with You Tube shit, coming up with ideas and such.... when he needs to be in school and putting all his energy there!!! It wouldn't Sit right with me, esp now since I'm a Free agent the work will be even harder now cause I have to sell myself to other Companies and show them I can work. I have to recreate myself, my image, and keep pushing forward.... Its not easy, Most of the Industry heads still think I'm with Titan..... although I have a working relationship with Titan I am free to work with other companies and showcase my skills more. But Its an Up hill battle!!! Patrick gave me alot of support and positive energy. He was there when I had doubts about myself and as a Performer and we both celebrated the Awards, cause he was apart of that.
The funny part is I never had to pay Patrick for his work, he mostly did the work to see it play out in the Industry. The vids he edited, made it on Different sites, and even Patrick had his own Fan club of sorts. I will miss him dearly...... I had to force him out!!!! He still wanted work for me even though he was in school and we both know, it wouldn't have worked.... He would have projects and school work and Exams and I cant pull him away to say "Come over and take pics of my Cock" that is just selfish and wrong!!!
So there u have it.... Patrick the Assistant is gone.......so the blog might suck for a bit until I learn more how to work it and keep up with my own shit for a change!!! I will miss ya Patrick(U asshole u better have a GPA of 4.0) Hopefully the Fans will truly understand what u meant to me and my business. U were a Blast when u were around pushing me to be better!!! MY Hat goes off to Ya!!!
And then there was Damien...... The week got worse and worse....... Damien Crosse my "BFF" left today for Miami for his show with Da Macho.... After that he is heading to Madrid to live...... Can this week get worse!!???
U all know Damien and I have been connected for the Last two years and we have always hung out together and had each others back!!! Mister Damien Crosse is Now leaving me to make it overseas. Where has the time gone???? Damien u have been my closest friend in the Industry and it will be hard not having someone to talk to. We did shows together, traveled together, partied together, cried together......
Geez this week sucks!!!!!
Damien Crosse U fucker I will miss ya!!!! Most people don't know..... We are Truly Friends, we go to each others house(he lived three blocks away from me!!!)stayed up late so many nights talking, both plotting Our careers and paths. This just sucks right now!!!!!
I lost my Assistant, My Best Friend........... FUCK!!!
Posted by Diesel Washington at 10:26 PM