I had a great birthday weekend, and I spent the entire weekend(until Monday even)with "Petey" I think We are finally settling into a good space and I enjoy the time I spent with him.
Well not moving on....
Having a partner that is a part of the Dazed and Confused crew!! Is insane!! I have to get him to step up his "Meds" game, but its cool(I got his back with that)to know We are on the same level(high level) and I really enjoy "Cuddle Time" its so NICE!! The only drawback to this is knowing that time is quickly speeding by, a hug that felt like 5mins in dream time, in reality the time spent hugging was 20mins...
Where did time go?? That is the problem that I'm having, call it mushy or whatever!! Time flies out the fucking window just laying on the bed and watching TV! It's alittle annoying knowing that in a few hours I have to head home(WE Both work!)
I respect his space and I know he has things to do. I never want to slow down a person or seem like I'm not supportive when they have goals to attain. "Petey" is embarking on a huge journey and I'm happy just to be there and see the passion in his eyes while he kicks ass!! I'M ALL ABOUT HIS SUCCESS!
One note about "Petey":
He does not want to appear on camera or in any Youtubes(Not even his voice)and I have to respect his wishes.
But that doesn't mean I can't blog about him...HAHAHAHAA(evil tone)
So this brings up a good question I think the readers have. What about your Success??
We had the "Porn" talk already, and he is open minded about it(Whew) He sees it as work(which it is)so I do not see any problems in that area. The escorting however....
That is another subject
I feel greedy and I hate myself for it, I finally found a person that I'm happy to be around. He accepts my past and my BIZ and in the middle of convo, I throw in the escorting thing. The look on his face changed when that subject came up and I felt like I swallowed a huge rock at that moment, and it was just sitting in my stomach. I mean I have my reg job which pays my bills, the escorting just gave Me extra cash to save when I get older.
I know I know some of the readers are like:
"OMG you found someone, and you want to keep selling your cock??"
"Your selfish and want it all, which is fucked up!!"
"You can't change a whore into a husband"
"Your going out there and sleeping with other people, not fair to place him in harms way."
Or you guys are on the other end:
"Get all you can get, if he is down fuck it!!"
"Don't let someone change you"
"So now that Diesel has someone, now he is going to retire"
Whatever people, its my choice to make and I really like "Petey". Will I be willing to quit escorting?? Very possible!! I haven't escorted in a month(since meeting him)and I really do not miss it.
We have been seeing each other for over a month, We still have some growing to do. The escorting supplements my income, right now I'm holding my head above water!
"Petey" is doing "alittle" better than Me, so I'm digging through my reserves just to hangout and spend time. So everything is good with us, and I look forward to the future!! Miss you "Petey" Anyway time will tell.....
Lets talk about Diesel now, I answered some of the questions from the site. I have to be honest with some of the fans and readers. If you ask the same question that was answered before I will ignore it. If the question is stupid I might ignore it as well. I get tons of questions, it would take me all night to answer some of the questions. Sorry if I do not get to your question timely, I was out this weekend(Birthday) I will go back to answering questions timely..
I'm still writing blogs, do not worry your pretty little heads out there!! I just want to reach out more and the biggest complaint so far is that I do not return emails. I write the blog, Twitter, Facebook, Myspace but people complain about not returning emails. *Sigh
So people be happy!! I set it up a way that u get to ask a question and get a direct response! Some of the other porn stars change for this interaction....
They do the live shows, Question and Answer, or Cam shows
I do this for free, because I'm not showing any skin..
All you get is a big punch in the face with personality!!
AND ITS ALL FREE!!