ANOTHER STEP CLOSER!!!

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GRABBYS WOW!!COMING CLOSE!!

Okay sometimes I forget that I'm a writer(of sorts)..

I started using that Twitter bullshit and then my thoughts get lost I'm too busy trying to fit in so many words a thought that I'm having. Anyway rambling.....

Lets talk about the Grabbys, I'm nervous....

I keep reaching these peaks of my Career and I have no clue... What am I doing here??. It's always been a dream to reach this so called "Level" I will be Center Stage standing in front of my peers in this Industry....It still hasn't hit Me yet!!

Alittle Overwhelming at the moment....

I try to have a really intense workout, it helps Me get my mind focused!! What will I wear?? How will I be on Stage? Just random thoughts keep circling in my head.

CAMERAS

Everybody is bringing their camera, its going to be interview City and everybody is going to do a youtube bah bah bah. I will ONLY use my camera during the Show itself!! Hotel romps are cool....but I want to get that footage only someone Co Hosting can get!! That back stage shit, and everybody will be all dressed up looking nice and that is more flattering for the camera. Well..... and that I don't want to be that guy with the camera(not on this trip)thinking I HAVE to get footage of something. Besides I will be filming, my own story!!!

I think I will also check out the Leather Market as well. I like to see how many booths will be set up, like to gauge if the recession is still hitting hard or not. Check out the Venders this year, maybe shop for something new? Who knows?

There is alot of stuff going on, Tons of porn stars will be packed into one hotel with fans and the general public. Crazy Times!! That is an idea for somebody, Tape going to Grabbys!!

Somebody is going to turn this into one of those lame "Pieces" Grabbys 2010, where they go from room to room and catch people drinking and acting out!! Or some corny Guys Gone Wild bullshit!! Yawn!! I hope I didn't burst some one's bubble!! I'm sure you will see a youtube entitled "My Trip to Grabbys 2010" or "Grabbys 2010" or "On the Road to Grabbys 2010" somewhere out there by the time the event is over.

I'm telling the public right now!! I will be hanging out with the Dazed and Confused crew!!

More on that later...

Weekend is here and I have some last minute shopping to do. I will handle that!! I had to touch base with my fans and readers.

This was kinda of a boring post so far, I know...

So let's talk...

I'm tired!!! I think I'm over training, but the body is holding up well against the strain. The key is to get rid of body fat and not muscle!! Its a trade off sometimes!! I think I have it locked down and I'm seeing the results. I just have alittle more fine tuning and I will be happy(probably not). For Me its not about the clothes, hair, and all that shallow stuff.

It's the most shallow element of the Narcissistic bullshit!!! The Body!!! I want my body flawless!! I'm not in my 20's or 30's anymore, I want to come into this event so fucking tight!!! Ripped and Jacked!! I want to look better than guys 20yrs 15yrs 10years younger than Me. Just to prove a point..

I'm not getting into shape just for this event, I used to be at a high level of fitness. I relaxed and gained some fat, I had to work twice as hard just to get rid of it. I just feel better now and look better. I could feel the added pounds when I walked or ran. It was the combination of retiring and gaining weight!! Then spider bite(Remember that??)when I got back on track, I sprained my knee and right ankle so that further fucked up my schedule. I could do certain workouts but I couldn't do any cardio.

Things have changed, my cardio is up and I have my stomach back!!

I will write more....

This post was lame, but I did want to write something...

The porn world is boring right now, everybody is getting ready for the trip to Chi Town!!

It's all about Grabbys rite now!!

Peace




P.S.
I have some events that I need to attend, and then I will be back at hotel. This trip is all about meeting people, relaxing, hanging out and just fun. Sometimes I like to think about it like its a war. Basically going into the battle with the unknown...

I was nervous about everything, but I'm confident in my skills!! So I'm just waiting for the countdown to Thursday morning. I just want to land, unpack relax, hit up the gym and then just party!!

LOVING HIP HOP MY FAVORITE VERSE!!

BEING SILLY AND JUST DANCING.........



Raining in NYC, so I was bored and did a Vid for Fans. I still got some moves for an old man.

More later....

JUST BODY!!!!!

I still have alot of work to do....


9 more days and have alittle bit more work to do, but I'm tearing up the gym!! I got my two mile run down to 14:40mins(I'm proud of that)and the stomach is coming along... I have more work to do but at least I know that I worked off my ass....

I'm proud of my progress so far, I lose the edge for a bit was living off the name rather then maintaining the best body shape. I heard all the talk, I talk about other people and look at you?? I heard it all....


I looked fat when I interviewed the Peters Twins(I was I will admit it)

I looked fat on stage at the Rentboy Event(Chubby)

I get it, I talk so much shit about stuff, and look what happened to your body!!! Yeah I got big headed, and I just lived off the name but I was still performing my heart out, but I wasn't hitting the gym as hard as I could.

I'm hungry now, I want to keep working and the body is looking good right now. I told you the fans how old I was, and I holding down the body as best as I can right now!!

Haterz please starting hating now.....

Fans I did it for you, I looked at my pics from the past and I'm like "Damn I got a bit thick." If I'm going to be that guy that talks shit, I better have my body tight no matter what my age is. Yeah I'm old, bah bah bah bah

I'm old and I worked my ass off, without needles and steroids....

I'm proud...

That's it I just wanted to show off...

And Now!! Whew 9 more days and I'm so so close!!

EXTRABIGDICKS: DIESEL AND RIDGE MICHAELS

Well I have another scene out on www.Extrabigdicks.com


And you will always hear Me saying this, It was a fucking hot scene!!!


But of course, We have to back track the story and then go into the hot pics. Here is the Vid of Diesel Washington and Ridge Michaels after the scene and just hanging out!!


I had a good time with Ridge Michaels, and the scene.......

Well look at the pics.......













Whoa!!! So here is the count on scenes that I have out that are the most recent:

"Getting Levis Johnson" by Jet Set www.Jetsetmen.com

"Its Gonna Hurt" scene with Castro www.Itsgonnahurt.com

"I'm a Married Man" Suite703 with Scott Alexander www.Suite703.com

In the Can:

www.GayCreeps.com

Untitled Project with Raging Stallions with Raging Stallion Exclusive Angelo Marconi


Whew!!!

It was a busy month, I was eagerly waiting for the responses to the scenes. The current projects out, are being highly rated and I'm glad..

That was alot of hard work, and trying to keep my focus and work hard on the scenes was alittle draining. Sometimes I really need to take the intensity level down!! I'm just an intense person and very driven. I have alot alot alot of passion for my work, and sometimes that gets Me into trouble.

This is the part of the post where I will reveal alot about Me.....

I love competition, not like the normal person who could be called competitive. I mean I'm always trying to be the best at everything!! To the point of Anal retentive sometimes...

When it comes to Competition, I'm always gunning to be number one. This was started at age of eight. I played elementary school basketball, junior high, high school, Army, College, Semi Pro. On the off season, I ran track(long distance, high jumper)at the same Kickboxing for three years. Due to injuries I had to leave the sports world and I turned my attention to Bodybuilding. Then fast forward to Porn:

The porn industry is one of the most competitive fields that I have ever encountered!! Not only is it about Body Image, Face, Ass, Dick, Personality, Ideas, it deals with people who have the most privileged information, exclusive rights, and of course my favorite.... It depends on Who you know(Sad but True)

It's a cut throat lifestyle of the Industry that mentality just wears you out!! Models come into the industry to make it big or make alot of money. All bets are off and models(not all) will use any leverage that they can get to attain whatever goal. Sometimes it comes at the expense of others, I will accept blame. But then I decided to use my own resources to further my own career. I reached that peak of my career, I established a Name and a Brand.

In doing so, this left Me empty, I reached the level of success that I wanted(Not really)and I had no place to channel that creative energy. I started doing Youtubes, Skits, Interviewing, BTS work!! That still wasnt enough for Me, I wanted to use my talents differently.......

Lets be real, the recession is a motherfucker and I rather survive and take care of my family then big this Website owner or Studio head. I do not want to invest money in these crazy times.

I came up with the idea where I could focus my energy, by taking a lesser known model(new to game)and help promote them, or "Groom" them for the Porn World. I became excited again, I was starting to get jaded and I didn't want that energy!!! To start over again through the eyes of another model, Yes!!! The idea turned me on so much!! I wanted to run with it.

That is my project, to take a New Model into the game and guide them. I have the experience, knowledge and passion for this business. Now fast forward to Crazy Diesel.

With my Issues, I become too controlling and too intense. I want to control every aspect of the porn process when it comes to my model. And that is not the way to go about it. Sometimes I get so intense I scare myself and that comes from years of Sports and fighting.

Back to issues, I guess that would be my major flaw and asset at same time. I have this Go getter menality, that wants to change the world. I play attention to every detail and overthink everything it gives Me the edge when it comes to promotion.

When does it become a flaw?? It makes Me overbearing, intense, stressed out. People view me as nut job because I'm deep in thought, but I do have the blueprint to success but its in my head. Trying to get out that information in a way another person understands is becoming the challenge. I view the Porn Industry like a game of chess, you have to think outside of the Box and plan moves ahead even before you move ur Pawn.

Relating that information to someone who is not inside of your head causes problems. If I work with a model and they make the wrong move(sticking to chess). I get upset and stressed out, because I see impact down the road. They do not!! Hard for the model to relate to Me because they only see Me freaking out at their bad decision. And its hard for Me to explain that the reason I'm upset is because of the effects of that decision in the long run. I'm not mad at them personally, I'm upset at the effect of that decision on MY model. Yeah its the classic sign that I'm nuts and take things too serious!! I just want the best for Me and my model!!!

On the plus side, the model knows that I will have their back through thick and thin and they will Def know that I'm looking out for their best interest because their decisions affect Me(in crazy way) Anyway I still working on this project but the Model that I want to pick has to have that "IT" quality and I know it when I see it.

Stay tuned!!

I KEEP TURNING OUT THE HITS!!!

So far.....

Some of the early results are in....

And the scene with Diesel Washington and Scott Alexander is a success!!! For the most part people enjoyed the scene. I still got my share of hate email regarding the scene. I don't understand some of the email though, some don't like the storyline(storyline??? its a porn)alot of people wanted a Flip flop(Sorry I'm a Top)alot of people wanted Me to make Scott Alexander my sub in the scene. Huh????It wasn't a leather scene it was simply a scene with two hot Black guys in it. I can't please everybody but the most part people enjoyed it.

More news to share:

I have an interview with Malachi Marx‏(Randy Blue model)on Friday, the hot young star is flying into NYC and wants to do an interview with Me. I never met the Man before and We have been exchanging emails back and forth for some time now. I look forward to giving this model a chance to explain himself, his book in the works, and whats in store for this popular model. I feel blessed that models are now asking to be interviewed by Me and they are trusting Me to do a good job. As I said I'm not being paid for any interviews but it gives Me a chance to be behind the camera and that is the kind of experience that is priceless to Me.

I also plan to take some updated pictures of myself. Its kinda of strange that I haven't post pictures of myself in a long time. I am a Porn Star and I need to keep remembering that people want to see pictures of the guy that writes this blog sometimes. I look back at some of my posts and all I have done is some Vids and shared what pictures that were taken on set. So I will break out the old camera and start taking some Stills for the Fans!!! I have been working out Hard lately and the body is looking Hot Ripped, and Massive(dare I say that??) So look forward to that!!

I have a project that I'm currently working on, I have alot of models that ask for advice or support or tips on how to become Big in the industry. So I decided to take on a model from the ground floor, work with this model and then make the Industry take notice of this model and make his name larger than life. I will reveal the model in the next coming days. This is a different project for Me, I came from the ground floor up and had models help Me. To this day these models probably have no clue how they helped my career to reach the level it is now. But I want to say thank you to these Models.

Francois Sagat, when I was first signed to Titan I was scheduled to do a scene with Francois Sagat and he turned down the scene. I was hurt by this and approached Francois as to why he turned down the scene. And he was real with Me, he turned down the scene simply because He didn't know Me. I had this edgy look, and at the time he was coming from Raging Stallions and wanted his career to go in another direction. When We talked We became very good friends, there was a photo shoot that a photographer wanted to take of Francois and to make things up to Me Francois invited Me to take part of that photo shoot and here is the result:


This photo jump started my career, this pic made it to the Naked Ambition tour and book and circulated throughout the Industry. And then Francois then agreed to do a scene with Me in Folsom FEAR(Ground breaking movie)that one single role(among others)took Me to a whole other level. Thank you Mister Sagat I can never repay for that opportunity.

And the other Model, Chad Hunt!! He was the first ever Porn Star that I ever had sex with(off camera) His dick is huge, when I met him online and he invited Me over to fuck him. I was like but Ur Chad Hunt??? He said once in a blue he gets fucked, and he saw my pictures online(before porn)and he was attracted to Me. Not only did I blast his Ass but He came three times back to back without stopping the fucking and He came without touching his dick!! We talked after We fucked and I told him I was interested in getting into the business and I still remember what He told Me that day. "Dude you have a Huge Dick not many come close to Me in length and thickness, and your one hell of a Fuck" At the time I didn't have confidence and thought my dick would be average for a Porn star. From that moment on I was like okay I have the tools to do porn so lets do it!!!.


Thank you Chad for giving Me that much needed push to help Me see that I did have the tools after all... I have a feeling I will get in trouble for sharing that Info but He did bottom in End Game! So no big deal right??? LOL


Also its official!!! and I don't understand it at all!!! My mother Momma Washington and my blog Crimes Against Nature are more popular than the performer himself!! I have received email after email by Industry people and non industry asking questions about my Mother. Is she coming to Grabbys again??? Is Momma Washington starting her own blog?? bah bah bah... and then comes my blog.

This blog has taken a life of his own, email after email from Fans stating "I have never watched any of Ur scenes but I read Ur blog everyday" "I really love Ur blog and the way you write" "I feel and understand your writing and I'm addicted to reading your blog its like my morning coffee" and then the strange comments... "I'm not a fan of your work, I just like reading your blog for entertainment" Ummm??? I'm confused as what to think????

If your not a fan of my work, never watched any of my porns then why do people read this crap?????

And then it dawned on Me, its because I share myself, talk without fear, I'm so far from PC its disgusting and maybe just maybe I write something that is entertaining and people just enjoy it. People feel connected to the stories because they are real!! It's real emotions, real problems and I can just let go and write and write.

Five years and still writing this blog, coming up with stories and sharing myself with the Fans.

Now let's talk about the word Fan, I get emails all the time from Non fans(they make sure to point out that they are not Fans)saying they are not Fans of my work but.....

They enjoy reading my blog and had to leave comments or email just to tell Me that a post I wrote touched them in some way. Good or Bad. Okay Non Fans, I will play Ur game and say that you guys are not Fans but avid readers of my blog that admire my Frankness and openness!! Anyway I am thankful that I can hold your attention for a couple of mins of Ur day and If I put a smile on Ur face, raised Ur awareness, or just pissed you off in some way then the effort I put into this blog paid off.

You notice when you go to other peoples blog, they haven't updated lately, the post are short letters, or its a bunch of glam shots or dick pics(nothing wrong with that) But to Me my blog is important to Me, I take breaks here and there from writing. It was just to clear my head, and come up with better material that keeps my blog from looking like everybody elses. Coming up with fresh ideas or content is not the easy job like when I first started. I was going through all these new experiences, and I wanted to take note of everything just to have a journal of my life in porn.

Thanks for reading this thing, I will continue as long as I still have Fans....I mean readers..

Peace


UPDATE*********Another reader telling Me how to write***********

I AM SURE YOU WON'T POST THIS, BUT HERE GOES... You just did it again. What is the point of telling people that you hooked up with Chad Hunt? You could have told the same story, with the same impact, without the private details.

I have met Chad on a few occasions and he's a class act. I just don't believe that he would give up the details of private hook-ups. Once again you have used a "big name" to try to advance your career. You even acknowledge that you might "get in trouble" for sharing this info, but you do it anyway. If stabbing someone in the back advances your career or gets you noticed then good manner be damned.

Then you wonder why you have no friends. OK, bring on the bipolar excuses and the apologies.


First off the bat, if you don't like my stories STOP READING MY BLOG its that simple. I explain the story in my own terms, I don't need to water down anything. Chad has since retired, and whats the big deal about Me saying I fucked this porn star or that porn star on camera or Off camera???. Its just sex, I think your the one with the hangups. This was years ago before I even came into the Industry. Please stop telling Me how to write, I don't come to your job and tell you how to change the grease in the French Fry cooker!! So leave Me the fuck alone!!!

Lastly I have friends, I wrote about the differences between Best Friends, Good Friends, Friends/Associates. God I'm so tired of repeating myself for the Haterz!!! Haterz go home I don't need Ur support or comments. Thank you

THIS IS FUNNY!!

I have self hatred for my own kind...

I'm a Uncle Tom, and I hate the color of my skin!!! I'm looking for the White God, where are you???

Here you go:



That is from BoonDocks and I find this clip so fucking funny!!!


I'm a Proud Black Man!! And I'm going to keep playing with Stereotypes, because it pisses people off. Its 2010 and people still have hangups, I will keep pushing the limit as much as I can.

Anyway I wanted to post something quick

Enjoy!!

YOU KNOW I HATE WHEN.....

I got this Comment.....


I get alot of these....


diesel, it is so obvious you got yourself some fucking issues. you hang and promote white performs and your white costars, your white dates and your white boyfriends constantly in SF...I even saw you parading around SF with a white boy maybe 2 weekends ago in sf...I especially remember seeing you walking with wolf Hudson into the diesel store n Castro and you pulling down your pants and you had on some undies that said diesel on the back. I recently wrote a letter to lance holman, mr.sf leather about black gay men glorifying white men and not really seeing black/black couple around...young black gay men are affected when they see a visible gay porn star like yourself only working with white boys and that makes us believe that's what we should do and that's whats desirable and that were not "in" or attractive. and by you constantly starting drama with other people and alienating yourself from the rest of men you are only hurting us all. It sucks, but when a black man is a certain way or does something bad, white people will usually assume a lot or all black people are like that. Whether you post this or not ( you have a tendency to not post the REAL shit that exposes your ass) I want you to respond to this

Billy


Step 1.

diesel, it is so obvious you got yourself some fucking issues. you hang and promote white performs and your white costars, your white dates and your white boyfriends constantly in SF...


I know I got issues. DUH??? Did you just start reading my blog??? I promote Myself!!and my Site! I do stories on everybody!! I live in NYC so how can I constantly promote in SF, oh I guess I'm good at my job LOL

Step 2.

I even saw you parading around SF with a white boy maybe 2 weekends ago in sf...I especially remember seeing you walking with wolf Hudson into the diesel store n Castro and you pulling down your pants and you had on some undies that said diesel on the back

Can you say Stalker??? This is one of reasons why I'm alittle paranoid walking around. I'm not scared of anyone...but to have that annoying feeling that someone is watching you. It's eerie!! First off the boy was Latin, We went out to dinner and had wine at a really nice place(Not sure why explaining it??)That was day 1 that you were watching Me. Day Two in Castro I was walking with Wolf Hudson and Angelo Marconi and Yes We went into the Diesel store, Ummm in the Diesel store buying Diesel belt that is why my pants are down..???? Now I hope this gives insight to Fans on what I go through. I get approached daily by people "Who think they know Me" because they read my blog. While its flattering that you have this connection to Me like you know Me, But sorry to say you only know a small piece of Me that I put up on the Internet. Fans forget when they approach Me, I'm viewing you as a complete Stranger so of course my guard will be up. Esp if you don't introduce yourself as a fan. There has been times, when I'm followed and stared at from a distance. To Me, I see a nervous person, watching Me and tailing Me. Creepy!! I have had photographers come to my hotel room and track Me down for photos or interviews. Clients showing up at my old apartment, knocking on my door late at night. I had to move several times due to privacy issues!!

Step3

black gay men glorifying white men and not really seeing black/black couple around...young black gay men are affected when they see a visible gay porn star like yourself only working with white boys and that makes us believe that's what we should do and that's whats desirable and that were not "in" or attractive. and by you constantly starting drama with other people and alienating yourself from the rest of men you are only hurting us all. It sucks, but when a black man is a certain way or does something bad, white people will usually assume a lot or all black people are like that. Whether you post this or not ( you have a tendency to not post the REAL shit that exposes your ass) I want you to respond to this



I don't want this to sound rude to Fans, I write this blog(Revealing yet entertaining) But it is only a small piece of the entire puzzle. Alot of the blog is rants and raves and crazy thoughts that I'm having at the moment. I write from the perspective of the Diesel Washington(character) I write from the perspective of the Editor, I write hard hitting stories!! I write posts to be funny!! Expose myself!!Interviews. bah bah bah. I see how some people get so connected to it, but at the same time. I'm a human being and I go through things. I feel alittle overwhelmed when someone comes up aggressive "like they have known Me all my life". Usual its "I know Who you are!! But its that weird vibe.. Now if they refer to posts, I can relate to them. But its like emotional/sexual/stalkerish/obsession type thing going on...

In my head, I feel that I am giving us a face in mainstream porn. I do scenes with all types,(Twinks, Muscles, Jocks, Black, White, Latin, Asian) And I feel the pressure every single day to stand out. I have a personality, I'm not going to walk on egg shells just to please people. I make mistakes and probably will make more.

But lets open the door to discussion, People want Me to work with more brothas?? Okay I'm doing that, but when it's the right role. And what's the right role?? Something that doesn't play on the stereotypes, having a great director to work with, and the right studio or website etc etc. The Suite703 scene was the perfect example of that. Gio from www.Giophotography.com was directing this piece and I trust him completely. And Scott Alexander was amazing to work with.

I will repeat this again so people will understand, all these So called Thug sites and Studios are owned by white guys. Surprised??? It goes further, when I was approached by these companies, the scene rates they were offering were well......put it this way I would have to work for a discounted rate. So I'm the bad guy because I don't work for discounted scene rates with Thug companies that are white owned?? All this just to prove a point or to prove my BLACKNESS to people. That is retarded I don't go to your job saying "Hey you should take a pay cut because you will look better working in FootLocker than at the Sport Authority.

Anyway quick post for today, but I had to answer this comment. And of course I will only post the comments that are supporting Me. This is my Fucking site, and I will approve which comments I like and don't like. If I approved all the comments then this will be the most depressing blog ever!!

My job is suppose to spark some kind of emotion, wheter good or bad!! And when it does my job is done.

Anyway this is corny Free your Mind People:

LENA HORNE....GOODBYE

Groundbreaking!!! Strong!! Confident!! Broke all the glass ceilings!!

RIP

SIGHTS OF NEW YORK

Sometimes when I'm walking around I see the crazy signs...

Now this was in front of a bike shop, but I got to thinking....


You have to pay for lights, heat, food, and of course water but now AIR????

New York is really crazy these days and alot of people are nervous..

Another bomb threat!!! Ferries crashing into Piers Damn!!

They closed down Times Square!!

Anyway that was a quick rant

I HAD TO WRITE THIS!!!

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Wow!!! What a shoutout!! to Rentboy!!! Not only do they show the Opening page on Rentboy.com

But Who is that on the Title page............

You guessed it!!

Diesel Washington check it the 1:35 mark in the Vid.

Thanks to Marc from Chi town for pointing that out for Me!!!

Now you know what the scandal is, but what about the Rentboy?? He will be used a pawn in a story that is bigger than Him. From one Rentboy to another, Let Me give you some Tips!!

Jo-Vanni Roman

Okay I see that this Kid is going to get eaten alive, JO-VANNI if you reading this. HERE IS WHAT YOU NEED TO DO!!!

1. Hire a Lawyer,
At this point, the Press is asking for answers to some fucked questions. Were Drugs involved?? Sex? Is He a Top or Bottom? Safe Sex? bah bah. His camp is going into damage control, so He will play victim and the Press will spin the story into that your some Hooker who took advantage of him for a payday(Ummm...) You knew someone was going to take a picture you already admitted that. So your going to have to give up your sources on Who set up the sting??

2. Don't answer your phone for the next couple of days, Go through Ur voice mails, pick out actual clients, not the tabloids and press wanting stories. Any Press should go through Ur lawyer. To get the most attention, hold a Press conference that way you hit all the News outlets.

3. Triple your Rate!! Change your Ad profile, and only offer massage services(for now *wink). They already have your old profile(saved and copied)so adjust your profile to reflect that "Offer Services" rather than the plain ole Hooking..

4. Change your Look, cut the hair get a suitable color LOL and go for the Classic GQ look instead of the party boy look. Start hitting up the gym in your downtime, if the Press is going to be in your face. You might as well look the best you can.

5. No Sex with Clients(Unless Regulars)but you can offer Massage(with release)this is only for the time being. Eyes are on you, and you have to stay within the realm of the Law. The powers that be, will make things on you difficult. There will be pressure from both sides of the fence, Negative and Positive. Alot of people would say quit escorting period. I wouldn't stop you have to keep providing for yourself because the window of 15mins of fame is shrinking as We speak. You have bills that need to be paid now and Yes there is a whole lot of Buzz going around. But keep stacking those Chips. That is just being real.

6. Do a private photo shoot, if pics of you are going on the Internet at least you can have control over the pics out there. All glam shots showing the best of you, My friend Gio Giophotography.com is in Fort Lauderdale I would give him a call. Go to www.Giophotography.com and get all the head shots and Glam body shots. If they are going to use Ur Pics at least have the best ones up. ASAP job that way you can Update your Ad, Facebook, or any other media outlet that people connect to looking for pics.


These things should be happening right now!! ASAP!! You only have a window of about a month before the story gets old. You can stretch this story for about a month, Holding a Press conference can afford you about 1 to 2 weeks. The Gays will have your back, your Young, Attractive and at this stage of your life your entitled to make mistakes. Your lawyer will advise on What to say? and What not to say. The ball is in your Court. Right now the Spotlight is on you!! In order to get the most out of the situation, this is What you need to do:

1. Right now!! Clients are afraid of you because there is attention on you. You broke that unwritten rule of not giving up your Clients. Hopefully George Rekers was a new client of yours and there wasn't any attachment. So that step 5 of having no sex with clients unless regulars comes into play. That "Trust" was broken so don't expect any New High profiled clients. That is where Step 3 comes into play, triple your rate because ur Ad is all over the place and there will be people "Curious" of your skills. Going back to step 5, this is where you only provide "Massages" there is nothing wrong with giving "Massages" less work more money. People will pay the rate of the massage your "Big Time" now!!.

2.Time moves on and you need to keep getting that paycheck. This where Step 4 comes into play, change your looks and start hitting the gym. This new found attention has to be worked in Ur favor. I would start doing Go Go gigs, you will get booked at clubs, maybe some showcases and ur making money around the country just for dancing. Do that Twink thing, and dance around the bar and get that Tip money. Hit up the Talk show circuit, Tabloid News programs everything!! Here is where Step 6 comes into play, use all those pictures for publicity. Send out to agents, there is a good friend of mine named Howard www.Fabscout.com that can represent you on dancing Gigs and can give you good advice if thinking about going on the Porn path(Playgirl, Solos, Hardcore)

3. Be proud of the fact that you are a Gay Male, apparently George Rekers is going around saying that He was trying to "Convert" you into something you are not!! Take the advice from your lawyer regarding anything sexual between you and George. At the same time you need to come forward, representing yourself as a Proud Gay Man!! Let the truth be known!! If you go the Gay4pay route you will get killed in the Press by the Gays/Str8s. If you go Gay4pay your paying into the hands of George Rekers supporters, they will spin the story to protect their own Ass!! Also the Gays won't have any respect for you, you are clearly Gay by your Rentboy profile and to cope out to Gay4Pay is a Let down to yourself and your Community. Your Name is out there now, be proud of who you are.

This is the only advise I can give you now!!! You choose your own path and outcome. I just wanted to give my two cents....

Press is Press use that Shit!!!

AND THE SCENE IS OUT.....

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HATERZ EVERYWHERE!!!

I'm too Old!!!I"m getting fat!! My dick don't get hard(New one)!! I'm a Bully!! I'm Washed Up!! I'm a Wannabee Thug!! Bah Bah!!!

I was prepared for the Hate this time!!

I simply gave up on trying to Please people!! I still read the comment sections in every blog, I might even leave a comment defending myself. But for the most part I really don't care anymore!!

I raised the bar enough, I was trying to outdo myself in every single Movie. To try to push the Limit further and further. It's been years and I still haven't seen another performer pull off Footing Two guys at the same time, while peeing into your mouth. And the most important part, doing this Feat safely!!

I was bringing a level of Watersports play into this Industry that wasn't seen before!! Live Shows (Black Party, Folsom, Hustlaball), and DVD work(Peeing over Trucks,Breakers Titanmedia)

All the crazy Fuck positions!! (Bully, Shotglass, Motorcycle, Cannonball, Camel Clutch)

All the Interviews, Funny Vids Rants and Raves....

I did it all!! I spoiled fans with everything and that is my fault!! I notice Fans turn on you, when you haven't done the Crazy stuff lately in your movies that they come to expect.

I'm going for another goal, I can always go back to all the Crazy stuff that made popular. But I want to either create or being aligned with a project that I can use all of my creative energy on!

Let Me give you this example:

When Michael Jordan first came into the NBA he had something to prove!! He wanted the world to see his talent!! He was a high flying Dunk machine!! He came in wanting the awards... Rookie of the Year, MVP, Slam Dunk Champ, to show off his skills as a Player!!

When Michael Jordan matured, he wasn't trying to be the Top player!! He wasn't coming down the lane to Dunk on everybody anymore. He was working his short range jumper!! His three point shot, and learning to move the ball better(His assists were sky high)He was still Michael Jordan but instead of being just a Super Star player. He went on to become a Team Player!! And He brought multi NBA Championships titles to Chi Town.

I did the Big Movies(and I still have some more to put under belt)and I set a standard of the Diesel performance already. I'm looking for a project that showcases my skills, my style and allows Me to have that Input. There are some projects that I'm working on, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Truth be known, most models can not handle the Fuck that I bring to my scenes(either that or most don't want to get fucked that hard) Most models are like "I have seen some of your Movies, you can't Fuck Me like that though.." I always respect my bottom Co stars, I push their limits in scenes of course, but for the record I can't put a model in all these crazy positions if they are not comfortable with it. It's the policy for most studios that the Bottom has the last word. If the bottom is uncomfortable with a position or Fucking style he either has safe word or can pause the action. Which I agree with...

At the same time if you have a Whiny bottom that advertised as a Power bottom!! And he stated that He can take any dick. But comes on set and has to stop every 2mins because they can't handle the plowing!! Well you stop and go and stop and go until you get enough footage. You have to keep a hard dick even when Whiny bottom complains about the pain, totally taking you out of your head space. Add seven people on set, either an ice cold studio or burning hot(can't have AC on because of background noise)On a time schedule, no chemistry with scene partner, and having filmed scenes Days before. Plus that same Whiny bottom doesn't like to get fucked in this position or that position. Sometimes your on location(where you never been before)and have to fuck outside or in a rented place that still has patrons(Gay Resort, Bathhouse, Home)alot to overcome!! Sometimes models are late to the set, so your sitting around waiting, that doesn't turn Me on or give Me desire. Yet I make it look like I'm into every piece of Action!! I'm known as the model that directs the action and keeps the pace of the scene going!!

So to the Haterz unless your on set experiencing the setbacks!! You have no idea what is happening on some of these shoots. But keep running your mouth!!

Fans keep supporting!!! Loyal readers keep reading...

Because the Haterz are always going to hate!!!

I know most gay boys didn't understand the whole Michael Jordan reference so I will finish with this example that the gay boys should understand:

When Madonna first came out It was to be shocking!!! Sex Sex Sex!!She had a strong sexual identity!!It was Sex vs Church, Sex vs Goverment bah bah bah when Madonna matured(And acquired Kids) it went from the Pure form of Sex to...... a Sensuality that came with her music. Breaking sexual taboos to dance music, she had to recreate herself over and over.

Who knows?? I'm not that big of a Fan of Madonna I just wanted to give an example.

Everybody knows I have a big dick, everybody knows I fuck hard!! I won the awards!! I did all of that...

What I'm missing is a HOME TO SHOWCASE MORE OF MY SKILLS!!! I just scratched the surface of the things I can do!!!

NYC IS IN A STRANGE MOOD!!

The bomb threat really shook this city up, and it should!! NYC is the city that has been bombed over and over and people are just scared and numb. I don't know what to think, 911 really tore up this city!!! Now people are leaving bombs in Times Square!! Geez things are getting crazy in this city.

NYC is the most aggressive City in the World, everbody is either busy or constantly moving to provide for their family. There are signs posted everywhere saying "Seating Limit is 10-15mins" and this is in Starbucks...

It's a different way of living that most people don't understand. I could go to another state with a different way of living and basically go insane. City living has caused Me not being able to sleep without some sort of city noise outside. Its like I need background noise in order to help Me sleep. So I will leave the TV on(falling asleep to some Cop show)and that will give Me the reminder of the city when I'm out of state.

I have a mini tour planned before going to the Grabbys. I will post the cities that Im going to(still working on it)

The Grabbys are coming up, and I'm going to have some fun!! I haven't talked about the Working out schedule which is going great I'm adding Size for the event and keeping lean at the same time.

I'm getting great feedback from my scene on Its Gonna Hurt!!! Thanks to the Fans and Everybody supporting Me!! I need my Fans to keep emailing It's Gonna Hurt to let Me do more scenes with them!! I think this site is the Perfect Fit for the Diesel Washington character!! The gritty style of filming and getting footage, and the performance element in the updates is like Butter to Me. *Sigh

The Grabbys...


This Event is going to be Huge!!Everybody is coming out for this thing!!! I'm truely honored to be hosting this Year!! I'm getting nervous just thinking about....At the same time, I'm really happy to be nominated for so many awards as well:

Performer of the Year
Best Duo Scene
Best Supporting Actor
Best Rimming
Best Porn Star Website

I'm hitting up some events out there!!!

Hydrate opening party

Meet and Greet at LuckyHorseshoe with Jason Curious(just poking my face in)



Busy Schedule!!! But I have to Network!!

REMEMBER MY SCENE COMES OUT MAY5 ON SUITE703 CHECK IT OUT!!!

I GOT THAT FIRE!! IM BURNT OUT!!

Sometimes I get to that point where I get burnt out.....




How many times can you recreate yourself??? I lead the way with the whole blogging thing and I have five years under my belt.

Putting together a post was easy in 2005, everything was New and Fresh. I wanted to make sure I documented everything. It was the rise from a No Name Nobody to this Diesel Washington persona.

I look back at the stories of my travels across the US and I have to remind myself of all the things I have done. I forget sometimes that I have experienced so many things in such a short period of time. When I first retired, I just wanted to take things slow again and enjoy Life. Before that everything was a competition to Me, I had to get more Press, Do more Vids, get all the exclusive footage I could. I was constantly pushing to do more...

I'm Old School!! I knew that the Internet was going to take over the Porn Industry. Coming from that Class of Models that did strictly DVD, I had to program myself to be open to this new era of porn. At first it was the Big Studios that had the lock on the Porn game. Websites were emerging and cashing in on the New Market that the Internet created. Platforms have changed, and now Websites are Competing against Big Studios. Before there was a thing about being "Overexposed", now its the more popular a model, the more work that model gets. Before if you performed in a bareback movie, you had to wait at least a year before attempting to find work with well known Studios. Now... if you did a string of bareback porn, you write a blog about How Stupid you were.. And if your "Popular" the industry looks the other way...

Before, the future stars were coming from websites and then made the jump to Big Studio work. Now, the future stars come from X tube, Dudetude.... Before, it was to have the body of a Man, Gym Rat body that made Man drool. Now its to have a worked out body but not be Huge!!! More of a Jock frame. Before Hype was built on models being mysterious and having to wait on the next Vid to see your favorite star. Now there is Twitter, Facebook, Skype, Youtube, X tube, DudeTube bah bah bah. So the updates that fans get are minute by minute, they know where their favorite stars are 24/7. Shit you can Tweet from you toilet, take a picture of it and send it out to all your fans.

The Blogging game changed as well, only a few porn stars had running blogs. The few that had blogs, wanted to have a home where fans could come and see more of them. We shared personal stories and pictures of trips and projects. Now everybody has a blog, its like a basic requirement of being a porn star. The bloggers are getting more personal, Press opportunities are coming left and right and I can't complain.

I feel old sometimes, nobody will give me credit for making blogs popular for the Porn Star. At least I will survive knowing that I won the First ever Award for a Porn Star blogger!! Since everybody has a blog, I have to keep stepping up my game!!! Keep making things interesting on this thing, its still my baby!!

I have some interesting changes coming up for this blog just stay tuned!!!

Oh did I mention that I'm Burnt??:

DIESEL WASHINGTON AND SCOTT ALEXANDER COMING....

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CRAZY STUFF IN NYC!!

When I saw this pimped out bike I was like Damn!!

Anyway quick post running around in NYC, meeting people.