GRABBYS WOW!!COMING CLOSE!!

Okay sometimes I forget that I'm a writer(of sorts)..

I started using that Twitter bullshit and then my thoughts get lost I'm too busy trying to fit in so many words a thought that I'm having. Anyway rambling.....

Lets talk about the Grabbys, I'm nervous....

I keep reaching these peaks of my Career and I have no clue... What am I doing here??. It's always been a dream to reach this so called "Level" I will be Center Stage standing in front of my peers in this Industry....It still hasn't hit Me yet!!

Alittle Overwhelming at the moment....

I try to have a really intense workout, it helps Me get my mind focused!! What will I wear?? How will I be on Stage? Just random thoughts keep circling in my head.

CAMERAS

Everybody is bringing their camera, its going to be interview City and everybody is going to do a youtube bah bah bah. I will ONLY use my camera during the Show itself!! Hotel romps are cool....but I want to get that footage only someone Co Hosting can get!! That back stage shit, and everybody will be all dressed up looking nice and that is more flattering for the camera. Well..... and that I don't want to be that guy with the camera(not on this trip)thinking I HAVE to get footage of something. Besides I will be filming, my own story!!!

I think I will also check out the Leather Market as well. I like to see how many booths will be set up, like to gauge if the recession is still hitting hard or not. Check out the Venders this year, maybe shop for something new? Who knows?

There is alot of stuff going on, Tons of porn stars will be packed into one hotel with fans and the general public. Crazy Times!! That is an idea for somebody, Tape going to Grabbys!!

Somebody is going to turn this into one of those lame "Pieces" Grabbys 2010, where they go from room to room and catch people drinking and acting out!! Or some corny Guys Gone Wild bullshit!! Yawn!! I hope I didn't burst some one's bubble!! I'm sure you will see a youtube entitled "My Trip to Grabbys 2010" or "Grabbys 2010" or "On the Road to Grabbys 2010" somewhere out there by the time the event is over.

I'm telling the public right now!! I will be hanging out with the Dazed and Confused crew!!

More on that later...

Weekend is here and I have some last minute shopping to do. I will handle that!! I had to touch base with my fans and readers.

This was kinda of a boring post so far, I know...

So let's talk...

I'm tired!!! I think I'm over training, but the body is holding up well against the strain. The key is to get rid of body fat and not muscle!! Its a trade off sometimes!! I think I have it locked down and I'm seeing the results. I just have alittle more fine tuning and I will be happy(probably not). For Me its not about the clothes, hair, and all that shallow stuff.

It's the most shallow element of the Narcissistic bullshit!!! The Body!!! I want my body flawless!! I'm not in my 20's or 30's anymore, I want to come into this event so fucking tight!!! Ripped and Jacked!! I want to look better than guys 20yrs 15yrs 10years younger than Me. Just to prove a point..

I'm not getting into shape just for this event, I used to be at a high level of fitness. I relaxed and gained some fat, I had to work twice as hard just to get rid of it. I just feel better now and look better. I could feel the added pounds when I walked or ran. It was the combination of retiring and gaining weight!! Then spider bite(Remember that??)when I got back on track, I sprained my knee and right ankle so that further fucked up my schedule. I could do certain workouts but I couldn't do any cardio.

Things have changed, my cardio is up and I have my stomach back!!

I will write more....

This post was lame, but I did want to write something...

The porn world is boring right now, everybody is getting ready for the trip to Chi Town!!

It's all about Grabbys rite now!!

Peace




P.S.
I have some events that I need to attend, and then I will be back at hotel. This trip is all about meeting people, relaxing, hanging out and just fun. Sometimes I like to think about it like its a war. Basically going into the battle with the unknown...

I was nervous about everything, but I'm confident in my skills!! So I'm just waiting for the countdown to Thursday morning. I just want to land, unpack relax, hit up the gym and then just party!!