Monday, May 10, 2010

YOU KNOW I HATE WHEN.....

I got this Comment.....


I get alot of these....


diesel, it is so obvious you got yourself some fucking issues. you hang and promote white performs and your white costars, your white dates and your white boyfriends constantly in SF...I even saw you parading around SF with a white boy maybe 2 weekends ago in sf...I especially remember seeing you walking with wolf Hudson into the diesel store n Castro and you pulling down your pants and you had on some undies that said diesel on the back. I recently wrote a letter to lance holman, mr.sf leather about black gay men glorifying white men and not really seeing black/black couple around...young black gay men are affected when they see a visible gay porn star like yourself only working with white boys and that makes us believe that's what we should do and that's whats desirable and that were not "in" or attractive. and by you constantly starting drama with other people and alienating yourself from the rest of men you are only hurting us all. It sucks, but when a black man is a certain way or does something bad, white people will usually assume a lot or all black people are like that. Whether you post this or not ( you have a tendency to not post the REAL shit that exposes your ass) I want you to respond to this

Billy


Step 1.

diesel, it is so obvious you got yourself some fucking issues. you hang and promote white performs and your white costars, your white dates and your white boyfriends constantly in SF...


I know I got issues. DUH??? Did you just start reading my blog??? I promote Myself!!and my Site! I do stories on everybody!! I live in NYC so how can I constantly promote in SF, oh I guess I'm good at my job LOL

Step 2.

I even saw you parading around SF with a white boy maybe 2 weekends ago in sf...I especially remember seeing you walking with wolf Hudson into the diesel store n Castro and you pulling down your pants and you had on some undies that said diesel on the back

Can you say Stalker??? This is one of reasons why I'm alittle paranoid walking around. I'm not scared of anyone...but to have that annoying feeling that someone is watching you. It's eerie!! First off the boy was Latin, We went out to dinner and had wine at a really nice place(Not sure why explaining it??)That was day 1 that you were watching Me. Day Two in Castro I was walking with Wolf Hudson and Angelo Marconi and Yes We went into the Diesel store, Ummm in the Diesel store buying Diesel belt that is why my pants are down..???? Now I hope this gives insight to Fans on what I go through. I get approached daily by people "Who think they know Me" because they read my blog. While its flattering that you have this connection to Me like you know Me, But sorry to say you only know a small piece of Me that I put up on the Internet. Fans forget when they approach Me, I'm viewing you as a complete Stranger so of course my guard will be up. Esp if you don't introduce yourself as a fan. There has been times, when I'm followed and stared at from a distance. To Me, I see a nervous person, watching Me and tailing Me. Creepy!! I have had photographers come to my hotel room and track Me down for photos or interviews. Clients showing up at my old apartment, knocking on my door late at night. I had to move several times due to privacy issues!!

Step3

black gay men glorifying white men and not really seeing black/black couple around...young black gay men are affected when they see a visible gay porn star like yourself only working with white boys and that makes us believe that's what we should do and that's whats desirable and that were not "in" or attractive. and by you constantly starting drama with other people and alienating yourself from the rest of men you are only hurting us all. It sucks, but when a black man is a certain way or does something bad, white people will usually assume a lot or all black people are like that. Whether you post this or not ( you have a tendency to not post the REAL shit that exposes your ass) I want you to respond to this




I don't want this to sound rude to Fans, I write this blog(Revealing yet entertaining) But it is only a small piece of the entire puzzle. Alot of the blog is rants and raves and crazy thoughts that I'm having at the moment. I write from the perspective of the Diesel Washington(character) I write from the perspective of the Editor, I write hard hitting stories!! I write posts to be funny!! Expose myself!!Interviews. bah bah bah. I see how some people get so connected to it, but at the same time. I'm a human being and I go through things. I feel alittle overwhelmed when someone comes up aggressive "like they have known Me all my life". Usual its "I know Who you are!! But its that weird vibe.. Now if they refer to posts, I can relate to them. But its like emotional/sexual/stalkerish/obsession type thing going on...

In my head, I feel that I am giving us a face in mainstream porn. I do scenes with all types,(Twinks, Muscles, Jocks, Black, White, Latin, Asian) And I feel the pressure every single day to stand out. I have a personality, I'm not going to walk on egg shells just to please people. I make mistakes and probably will make more.

But lets open the door to discussion, People want Me to work with more brothas?? Okay I'm doing that, but when it's the right role. And what's the right role?? Something that doesn't play on the stereotypes, having a great director to work with, and the right studio or website etc etc. The Suite703 scene was the perfect example of that. Gio from www.Giophotography.com was directing this piece and I trust him completely. And Scott Alexander was amazing to work with.

I will repeat this again so people will understand, all these So called Thug sites and Studios are owned by white guys. Surprised??? It goes further, when I was approached by these companies, the scene rates they were offering were well......put it this way I would have to work for a discounted rate. So I'm the bad guy because I don't work for discounted scene rates with Thug companies that are white owned?? All this just to prove a point or to prove my BLACKNESS to people. That is retarded I don't go to your job saying "Hey you should take a pay cut because you will look better working in FootLocker than at the Sport Authority.

Anyway quick post for today, but I had to answer this comment. And of course I will only post the comments that are supporting Me. This is my Fucking site, and I will approve which comments I like and don't like. If I approved all the comments then this will be the most depressing blog ever!!

My job is suppose to spark some kind of emotion, wheter good or bad!! And when it does my job is done.

Anyway this is corny Free your Mind People:




10 comments:

michelbites said...

This is just me... But if I ever saw you on the street I would be happy to see you but I wouldn't stare at you or follow you (unless your naked, then I would wonder why you were out on the street naked, LoL). I might come up to you and introduce myself to you. Hoping to make a connection. But only when its appropriate not like in a restaurant or anything like that.

I also think that the color of the person your dating really doesn't matter. Who says love is quarantined to just one race. If you like white boys then go for it. Don't let people get on your nerves because they are ignorant.

I'm happy to be a fan. I hope to one day meet you. But not in a stokerish kind of way! LoL

Anonymous said...

The reality i didn't finish to read the whole story, because I found ridiculous that someone could even crisis something like that without even know all the information, which I thing you don’t really have to explain. everybody have issues and I think it’s funny that he mention your issues when I think that someone that stock a porn start like that, and even write something about it should have more issues than anyone else .
I am a white Latin guy, so I understand how others could very confusing you with a white guy. (Please more flavor). Sorry for the joke… But that’s something that only concerns you. How we can tag someone just because they have a preference. Blk, latin, Italian, Puerto Rican, or white… it’s like discriminated someone just because he is GAY…. Ops !! Do we have a preference, we all have something we like…. So if this guy doesn’t have the balls to get what he wants… So he doesn’t have the right to criticize what you want or could have.
Even it’s just funny how someone could post that thinking that he know you, I won’t think even that I know you for what you write, Aristotle said The whole is more than the sum of its parts, and You are definitely a very good example of it. You are more of what you write or show on you clips, videos or presentations. Definitely more.
Good luck with the drama queen the post that… and I think you do a good Job, I know what it been tight to stereotype and how people can see u just way you look. But you are smart guy, strong personality that know what you doing. So they can fuck themselves.
Take care
ED4CR

MOC Blogger said...

Or you could start your own website.

PDQ said...

Interesting post. Especially the part about the "Thug" studios being owned by white guys. I didn't know that - but I'm not in the porn biz, so I would have no reason to know it.

Ultimately it's your life and you should do what's best for you (the real you) and the character of Diesel Washington. Who are these people to scrutinize who you go shopping with? Who you hang out with? Who you get with? Black, white, asian, latin, middle eastern, etc. - we're all people. Next they'll be telling you not to hang out with straight people because you're selling out the gays!

Do what you need to do and don't worry about haters. They're just frustrated guys sitting in their basements in their undies with Cheetoh stained fingers.

Eddie said...

Sounds to me like this guy is hot for you and he's jealous of your co-stars. You're right to be cautious, Diesel. Freaks like that (stalkers) will fuck your shit up. Keep doing what you do, papi. You got all of us...white, black and everyone else...dreaming at night of a shot with you.

Anonymous said...

Hi T...hows this for weird thinking (mine)...I didn't think "Thug" blokes would work for an white blokes owned site...so I have always assumed it was run by like people etc...your blogg has enlightened me at least...Thanks...Laurie

Anonymous said...

Hi T..so it is ok to say hello if you are not with another bloke etc...?? Being men we aint going to do the screaming shouty fan thing the girls do...lol...in turn I wouldnt want to freak a bloke out just walking up out of the blue as you say...to say hello..Rgds..Laurie

Ray Avito said...

The thing that always gets me is, why are people trying to build their self esteem based on what somebody else is doing and not their own achievements? If a young black male is feeling insecure because of who you choose to work with, then that young black male really has some internal work to do on himself.

KevMusic said...

Diesel, your response was absolutely flawless. One of the things that really stood out to me was him or anyone else looking at porn, which is fantasy, as a guide for real life relationships. Pointers on sexual techniques? Yes. Fantasy sex scenarios? Yes. Something to jerk off to? Most definitely. I can even see picking up style and fashion tips (LOL), but not how to truly engage on a deep emotional level with someone you wish to share your life with.

Also, why is he making you the ambassador to young Black men's relationships? People have to find their own way, be free to love who they love and yes, fuck who they want to fuck. I'm Black. I'm in a relationship. We've been together for almost 12 years. He too is Black. But I'm not with him because of his color, I'm with him because he is kind, caring, gentle, funny and protective of me and my heart. I'm with him because through rent and bills and dishes and laundry and all the other day to day drudgeries, he still makes my heart skip the light fantastic...lol. Not because of his color or because the porno movie told me to be with him. WTH!!!

If anything, the author should be more focused on the example you set of trying to live your life and be in a difficult business (porn isn't for the faint at heart) with as little compromise as possible. That's something to look to an emulate. The fact that you have made yourself knowledgeable about the industry, know the value of the "Diesel Washington brand" and aren't willing to devalue it with stereotypical thug scenarios in which you fling the N word around like a Frisbie and value nothing beyond cussing, getting high and fucking is to be admired. Yes, I have a MAJOR issue with the whole thug scenario.

Keep doing you man. It hasn't failed you thus far.

Shawn said...

Your blog is entertaining, your porn work is high quality and your look is sexy. I love seeing you with white, latin, black--any type of man. The guy that wrote that very, very creepy letter is clearly jealous and maladjusted. Kisses!