ALOT OF STUFF GOING ON...

http://www.tlavideo.com/awards/a-3


VOTE FOR ME FOR "BEST AND BIGGEST BADASS"












At the same site Vote for Me for Best Daddy, Best Performer. I really want the Best Performer award, I have been performing shows for Rentboy for almost 6years the Rentboy people really know how to take care of you. The Best Performer award is something I can take home after everything is all said and done(When I retire).

The Daddy nomination is new for Me, I have accepted being a Daddy so let the cards fall as they may...


Okay after having no shame asking people to vote for Me, I think there are some things that I need to speak about...

I'm feeling alittle better and needed the weekend off to relax and get life back in focus again. It's not easy maintaining the lifestyle of Personality/Escort/Porn Star/Blogger/Human being each one of these factors seem to leak into the other one and makes life so fucked up sometimes.

Diesel Washington was a character that I created, but it has become something different to people:

Sexually the character is take charge and fucks the shit out of Co stars. People love the energy and the take no prisoners attitude.

The blogger gives you insight into the character and what makes up Diesel. It's made of rants/raves that are brutally honest and sometimes downright crazy!!

The Escort has the direct approach of providing a service for those needing a Big Muscle Top that forces the client into submission

The Personality, is direct and honest and no frills. Some people talk a good game and wind up bullshitting you or lieing to your face. The Diesel personality cuts out the middle man and goes directly to the important stuff. He is firm with his decisions/ideals/ethnics and will not be swayed or bought out and he will never sell out...

And the Human part.....


Diesel is many things to different people, but What about his Human side?? I never said I was perfect or a role model for people to look up to. I have my fair share of problems, made my mistakes, and I said alot of things that gave people the impression that I was Cocky, Aggroant, and an Asshole at times. But I am Human!!!

I traded my privacy, insanity, and a personal life to become this Diesel character. Some days are rougher than most, but I'm still here and surviving!!

One of the things that I'm proud of is never having to portray some kind of Thug character.....

I look at websites like this:




All I can say is I'm not a Thug!! I refuse to play that part and that whole stereotype of "Thug":

I'm not wearing Do rags
Gold chains
The baggy pants
Gold Teeth
Smoking Blunts(on camera that is)
I do not use racial epithets in my scenes


I'm not dumping on the sites that use that Stereotype or image, I'm just saying that is not the image I want to portray in my movies. We have enough Thugs or Homeboys in entertainment as it is. I understand its a Fetish for certain people, that whole image of the Homo Thug or Ruff neck that beats and belittles the white boys. The constant use of the word Nigger or Nigga in scenes. In my opinion that is so tired and used to death in gay porn.

At the same time, I stay far away from the Black Balled themed series as well. I'm tired of that same scene of the little white boy being gang banged by a bunch of black males in a scene. Its 2011, and porn seems to move 10years behind...


In society today, there is more and more interracial dating happening. Couples are mixed now, and alot of the hangups of yesterday are gone. People are exploring more and refuse to be locked into liking one thing(age/race/size/religion)

Only problem....


Porn is not moving fast enough to reflect that change, alot of hardcore consumers that buy porn are from the Midwest(alittle behind the times over there)so they are still alittle close minded.

Another factor for declining sales in porn is that the public is not getting feed what it wants to see. They are being force fed Gay4pay stars, lackluster performers, and cookie cutter porn stars that all look alike. But whatever it is what it is.

Moving on...

On that Mandingo character again....

People dog Me out saying that I play the Mandingo stereotype, not sure what stereotype I play, when On/Off screen I'm an aggressive top. I could understand if I were a bottom or versatile and all scenes I was getting hired for was Top work. I could understand if I were versatile and wanted to do a Flip Flop scene, but the Studio/site only wanted Me for a top role and actually discouraged Me from bottoming. But the honest truth is that I'm a Top, not more I can say to convince people but that is the truth.

I have no interest to bottom, and I do not work for a check so the offers(huge amounts)for Me to bottom are kind of pointless at this moment. Like I said before, the minute I find someone to fall in love with and share myself with them FIRST(De virgin). Then maybe down the road I might decide to bottom for the viewing audience, as I see it now the only thing I have left untainted and untouched is my ass. I have done it all on film and/or escort work, so the only thing that keeps my sanity is that I never had to sell my ass in this business. No offense to other people that do, but that is not the right choice for myself.


Moving on.....

I received some good news on Friday, but I can not share the news until the press release comes out. So get ready for that!!

I will say this........


This is great news!! I'm proud and look forward to sharing the news with Fans and Supporters out there.

More later....

ITS THAT TIME AGAIN PEOPLE!!

I haven't had an attack in a long time......


Not the type of attack that your thinking, but I'm having a bad episode. It started this week and its turning into a nightmare.

My last episode was last year in Dec and it was a very slight case of depression. I have learned to stay away from triggers and I was making great progress. By Feb 2011I was running high and handling business and I didn't notice that I was having too much fun(Mania)

I was not looking for warning signs, I was fearless and full of energy and was the life of the party. I know my highs and lows and I was going through my HIGH stage full force.

Only problem with that is when you go through your Highs, you have to prepare yourself for the extreme Low that lays ahead. That extreme low is what I'm facing right now...

There will be no posts for the weekend........

I just lashed out on Twitter and went through a very nasty Twitter meltdown rant. As soon as I started reading some of my tweets I noticed the anger in them. So I'm staying far away from the blogging/Twitter/Facebook thing for now until I ride through this Low.


I pray that this "Low" will only last for a few days and I can recover before working next week. I like to share what a "Low" is to Me:

I have the strange combination of crying and being angry at the same time.

Confused and scattered brained

Being sleepy and tired but when I lay on the bed the worst case of insomnia occurs.

Lashing out at people that I care about

Low sex drive

Distant and withdrawn

I'm blessed to be surrounded by people who understand what I go through and never take things I say to them personally because I'm going through my "Low" stage. Little things bother Me so I tend to stay locked up in house after work and gym so I'm not around people.

Nobody likes a Diesel Downer so for that reason I stay away from everybody until its over!! Not sure why I'm posting this?? If anybody else suffers from this disorder I want you to know your not alone.

Even Mister Sexy guy has his own set of problems out there!! I function in life and as long as I see the signs of an upcoming attack, I can prepare for it and make sure that I do not cause problems for others.

Anyway.....


Crazy people are the best, We don't give a shit what people think about us. Just don't get in my way and I won't get in your way!! Never fuck with a crazy person cause they will COME HARD there is no off switch!!

We are never boring or dull and We let it all hang out people!!



P.S. I had to share this comment some sent me


Dear Diesel,
I read whet you wrote in your blog about struggling with mania and depression and all I thank you for talking about the struggle. I deal with similar feelings and know it is not easy for people to understand or have any sense of compassion. That being said, those of us who live with the reality of our lives and do well, work to find ways to cope and to celebrate our individuality have good, if unconventional, lives and we are not alone. For what it is worth, your frank willingness to speak out made me feel better and less isolated. Your unique sexuality maybe be your obvious gift, after reading your words it is now your courage that I find more compelling. This part of you will only get better with age and more wise.

Bravo.


Some people are locked into thinking they have to be something they are not to fit in. I never said I was perfect people, I have problems like everybody else out there. So this post was for the people that are alittle off, get anxiety attacks, panic attacks, OCD, ADD, ADHD, Personality disorders, Dissociative Disorders whatever.....


We can still work and live productive lives people.....

Just give us a chance..


Lastly....


I used to took Meds like ten years ago and they did more damage then the disorder. The meds just made Me numb and killed any personality that I had, and the worst part of taking Meds I was finding the lack of a sex drive, and I was losing erections. Being that I'm a very sexual person, knowing that I wasn't getting turned on, or achieving erections just made Me more depressed at the situtaion.

I rather be alittle crazy and slightly off and be able to fuck someone's brain out. Then a brain dead zombie, that is slow to react and can't get hard!!

NERD HUNTING

Everybody knows I love my Geeks/Nerds....


Here is a Geek that I like

But there is a story to this.....


Stay tuned!!

HELLO SECRET ADMIRERS ROUND 3...

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GEEKS ARE SEXY!!

Sometimes I just need a break!! Blogging Wars, Twitter rants! Fights with Secret Admirers...

Some people don't see the humor in it at all.....

Anyway a silly Youtube for the fans.

Thanks people

THIS DADDY THING!!

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PASSION NEXT UP!!

My PASSION scene is up on WWW.EXTRABIGDICKS.COM



I'm not going to say anything about the scene!! Go see it for yourself!!! People kept asking for something different and I gave you something different!(Damn!!I was suppose to say nothing)

Check it out!!! Remember my scene with Tucker Vaughn is also being released tomorrow on www.Suite703.com as well..


Compare the differences of both styles...

HARD POUNDING
VS
PASSION


Get to it!!

HARD POUNDING COMING TO LIFE!!

So finally my scene will be released with Tucker!!! I had a good time filming this scene, I was going to use Tucker as a rag doll and throw him around abit. During the shoot I had a hard time finding a position that would enable Me to fuck him in a crazy kind of fuck style.

I kept it simple and only use two positions, Doggystyle and him laying on his back. I'm an over thinker so my first thought would be that fans would say "There goes Diesel again picking up little boys and throwing them around" Same ole Diesel!!


I did the signature moves in my Coaching scene http://tour.suite703.com/scenes/alexander_garrett_diesel_washington_and_steven_ponce/12124/?&nats=MTAwMTg2LjMuMy4zLjAuMC4wLjAuMA


I thought using two boys in a scene, would better showoff my skills in creating strange different. The response has been very positive but of course I have my detractors, and again people were saying "Typical Diesel Washington scene". Which is funny to Me:

I have Fisted, Footed, WaterSports, Bondage, Flogging, Paddling, Hardcore pounding, Signature moves, Cocksucking, Rimming, Punched/been gut punched, Shown off Acting skills, bah bah bah.. People just want more and more from Me..

Anyway....


I just wanted to do a simple scene of Me just plowing the living hell out a boy. Speaking of which.....

I'm starting to get dogged out by my use of words describing Me having sex with boys. I like to use the words RAPE, SLAM FUCK, PLOW, RIP APART, FUCK THE SHIT OUTTA....

Not sure why people do not understand why I use words like this. Its eye catching, bold and in your face its suppose to catch the attention of the reader. This is not rocket science people its merely porn....

Its my job to entertain and promote the hell outta of my scenes, thats what a good porn star does anyway...

Here is that Youtube to remind people...


He enjoyed it alright!!!




Look at that little cute face getting SLAM FUCKED HARD!!!

Anyway...the scene will be released Feb 24, 2011, check out the drilling I put on this boy.

http://tour.suite703.com/scenes/diesel_washington_and_tucker_vaughn/12199/?&nats=MTAwMTg2LjMuMy4zLjAuMC4wLjAuMA




This clip of the scene will be active on Feb 24.....

Be ready you Greedy fuckers!!

This scene is for the people that want to see a big muscle guy fucking a cute little boy.

To DEATH!!

YOU THINK U KNOW ME???

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THE COUNTDOWN!!!

http://justinbiebercountdown.com/



When I was tipped off to this I was like "Bullshit no...."

A fucking countdown until Justin turns 18 whoah...


All these gay bloggers are full of shit!!! As soon as Justin turns 18 all the camera shots will go from his face right to his midsection.

These same bloggers that dog out Justin will be posting midsection pics the day he turns 18!!! Hypocrites I tell you!!

Mark my words!! The same people that dogged him out will soon became Twink loving whores!!

At least the pedophiles will stop lusting over him!!

When he turns 18 he will be too old for them!! Yikes!! I'm going to hell for this one!!!

It's only humor!!


P.S. UPDATE************************************

Some little girl read my post and threw a rock through my window, said the Army was coming for Me...

Yikes!!

I'M STILL GROWING!!!

Every day I learn something more.....


I was one these models that dreaded the whole GAY4PAY thing, and it was for a couple of reasons:

I'm a working model and I thought that too many Str8/Bisexual/Open guys were taking jobs from OPEN&OUT gay men.

I hated the disdain certain models had when talking about doing homosexual acts on camera

It sucked that certain Str8 guys would only do solos or not even kiss or touch another man in their scenes and were given the Cover on certain DVD's..
Bah Bah Bah


So needless to say my opinion on the whole Gay4pay was not a good one. But.....


Strictly in a business sense I see why so many Studios/Sites are willing to work with Str8 models....not only willing...but prefer to work with only str8 models!!
I see the plan when it comes to these type of models:

Free from the gay drama, no Bfs, Racial preferences, Diva shit, no sleeping with scenes partners before scenes.

How many times have you heard that a porn star is retiring because of a Bf? Many!!

Strange, but I talked to many gay models that have preferences(Race, Age, Body type) when it comes to scene partners. Yeah I know people are entitled to have their preferences(Wack!!)when it comes to sex, BUT We are talking about porn. Most of the str8 models that I have interacted with do not play the preference card when it comes to work. A check is a check!!

Diva shit!! Some quick examples:

Str8 dude not coming to set with a Pancake of make up on!!

Str8 dude not getting on Twitter or Facebook calling other models BITCHES OR CUNTS OR READS THEM!!(Hmmm...I should rethink that one..Diva Diesel.. but I'm not Str8 HA)

Moving on...

Sleeping with co stars before scenes, how many times have porn stars hooked up with each other the night before a scene(scene tends to lose energy) You go to these events and models are hooking up left and right with each other...Str8 dudes(the ones I know)will only have sex with a guy "ONSCREEN" and that is for pay or off screen if its an escort thingy...so bottom line the only reason they are having sex with a guy is for pay.

Its so easy...

So you fly in a Str8 boy to do some scenes because they are easy to control:

You do not have to worry putting a bunch of Str8 models together in a house, they are waiting to do their scenes and get paid and then they go home. You put a bunch of gay boys together in a house to do scenes, somebody is hooking up off camera(not always the case but come on..)

Whats even better?? You take that str8 model and put him in a hotel in West Hollywood. If you surround your model with nothing but gay guys, you have nothing to worry about. That str8 model is not sleeping with any gay boys unless its for money. The feelings of isolation will cripple that str8 guy, he will walk down the street and see nothing but gay bars and gay clubs, he has nothing in common with these places, he will just walk back to hotel and wait for the scene tomorrow. Remember these are broke str8 guys they are not spending money on going to a gay bar!! Yeah right!! They are on this trip to make money not spend money!!

To keep your str8 boy from getting bored on his trip, you take him out to the gay restaurant and feed him(Tab on you)and then you bring him to the gay club and give him some drink tickets tell him "Run around look at the place" but the control is kept, because the str8 boy brain equates doing homosexual acts for pay not pleasure. So he is not leaving that club to go sleep with someone unless there is a fag hag or tranny, or drag queen at that bar!! Another added bonus to that story, even if he does secure that Fag hag/Tranny/Drag Queen, could you imagine the conversation?? If he is honest it will go like this:

Srt8 model: Hey how are ya??

Girl: "I'm good!! Are you interested in my friend?? He thinks your cute"

Str8 model: Well I was interested in you!!!

Girl: Me?? Aren't you gay??

Str8 model: No I'm Str8

Girl: Your Str8?? So what are you doing in a gay club???


THE END!!

At this point, her gay friend will come over and perform his Str8 test on you. But its over at this point anyway. Her gay friend will act as cock blocker the rest of the night because "His" girl is not leaving with "Some" guy she met randomly at the gay bar.

Control kept!!

Do not feel bad for the Str8 guy, he will still get his attention at the bar from his gay admirers. Besides he was able to go out, you fed him, and he gets alittle attention, that is all a str8 guy needs. Take him back to hotel, tell him to be ready for tomorrow!! You pick him up in the morning, bring to studio so he can fuck or get fucked!! Afterwards bring him back to hotel, tell him he has the rest of the day off and enjoy himself.

You got what u wanted, you got a hot scene out of him with no gay drama..

He got what he wanted the CHECK, he goes back home resumes his str8 life.

I compare it to the drug game!! You have the Supplier, Drug dealer, and the Addict let me explain:

Suppliers(Studios/Sites)have the resources/money/cameras which makes the DVDs/web scenes....aka Drugs!!

The Drug Dealers(models)they have to sell their drugs(body, dick, ass, face)and they are backed by the Suppliers.

Then you have the Addicts(Consumers)they are the ones that buy the drugs aka DVDs/Web scenes.

If your a Supplier of Crack(the drug)are you going to use drug dealers who are addicts to sell your product?? Of course not!! You don't want someone getting high off their own supply!! The supplier is running a business and its all about profits.

When you are a drug dealer, your going to tell all your customers that you have the best drugs. Drug dealers will cater to their clients(addicts)to keep them happy and to keep them buying....

Addicts buy the drugs from dealers they trust, they rather buy from a Dealer who does the drugs they sell. But they will still buy the drugs if its some good stuff!!


Well I guess the bottom line is:

I do not have a problem working with Gay4payers as long as they do their job, look good while doing it, make Me look good because I'm trying to make them look good as well...


Hmmm... this post probably makes no sense.....

I guess this is a BWS post (Blogging While Stoned)


HAHAHA

ATTENTION WHORE:NOT A GOOD THING

I'm on ManhuntDaily(No really I am, LOL)..Rimshot!! Moving on...

The guys over at ManHunt, put together a contest(thanks for including me,BTW)


Poll: Choose UP TO TWO men who should move on to next week's edition of The Ten.

Okay it seems that I'm in a popularity contest for some fellow porn stars/models....


I DON'T HAVE A CHANCE IN HELL!!!

I'm looking at the pics on Manhunt and the guys that I'm going up against are all super hot!! All I see in the picture is Me standing there....

In the pic it looks like I'm standing there looking at the pics above Me and below Me saying....


WHY THE HELL AM I HERE????


I'm looking at pictures and they have all these glossy SUPERMODEL shots!!

Look at Me:

I got that "In Your face" style!! With my dick Out!!(Easy look for Me)

Anyway do Papa proud and vote for Me alittle bit....

I know I'm going to get smashed against all these hotties but hopefully I won't look too bad!!

COMEBACK HAHAHAHA(indeed)


HAHHAHAHAAH!!!

BIG SHOT OUT MIKE!!!

SO FUNNY PART 2

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! KIERON RYAN

Okay People.....

I have been known as this Dominant Top who just fucks these boys and shows no signs of caring or emotion.


Which is all Bullshit!!

It took the right model to bring out the Nice side to me........

WHO IS THAT MODEL??? Take a trip with me:


I introduced this model in my post about the Cybersockets, and I spent alot of time with Kieron Ryan Sometimes when your a porn star you become jaded with Sex. I have done porn for five years and I have escorted a number of years as well, in that time its Sex Sex Sex...

But what about Affection/Intimacy?????

I'm starved for that!!! Sex is easy its just two people(or more)going through the act to completion or orgasm!! When the load is out of the dick its time to get up and wash off and go your separate ways.

Porn/Escort sex is NSA(No Strings Attached)no emotions, no feelings just sterile from any connection. I'm not dating or going out with anyone at the moment so when I met a person that is Affectionate.....


It's On!!! Thank you Kieron Ryan!!For being there for Me. Dare I say my Valentines Day Present??CUDDLE BUDDY



Okay I guess I have to knock down some walls sometimes....


Yes I can be a Cuddle Bear.....

Just takes the right person to get it out of Me....

Anyway enjoy some Music:


Love this song!!


Well I guess I lose all my BadAss points now!! I do have emotions people, I do not always have to be that Mean/Angry person I pretend to be.

I used to tell my Costars not to talk about my Cuddling or Me being a nice guy, cause it would ruin my image(No really it would)so I decided to come out of the Closet myself and let people know.....


I'm addicted to Cuddling....


P.S. Kieron Ryan started his own blog now catch him at http://www.kieronryanxxx.blogspot.com/


A new star in the making, you heard it Here first!!!!

SPECIAL THANKS TO MY SUPER FAN!!

I was at Cybersockets and I lifted Marcus Mojo on stage. I wanted that picture so bad that I made a youtube asking a fan to send me the pic....

The fan did not want his identity made known, but I wanted to thank Them in a post.


Thanks...


Pic is alittle blurry but its the best I got!!



I love a good ending to a story...

PEOPLE!! I'M TRYING TO GIVE SOMETHING NEW!!CUDDLEBUDDY

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CYBERSOCKETS:OKAY SO I'M LATE..

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HEADING TO CYBERSOCKETS!! FUN TIME

Diesel Washington and Jayden Grey and I had to do this Youtube!! Firestarters!! Twisted Firestarter!!


Well still out here in LA and having a good time, the weather is great and the energy is good(so far).

I'm here to Wednesday so I have some days to relax before going back to Cold Cold NYC...

Okay this was a short note, I have a party to go to..

Peace

HEADING OUT TO L.A!!

God my blog looks so crappy now....


I mean I posted a couple of times, but I think I'm letting down my fans...


Sorry People!!! But I'm working hard to make work/news happen and plan out my travels. Work has been crazy lately, and I had some Bi polar issues to deal with that is one of the reasons why I have not posted lately...


It has been a long time since I had an episode....


Luckily my "Issue" was a slight case, and I was able to move on and resume my work schedule. I wanted to stay far away from this computer as possible. When I have a bad mood coming on, I have learned to stay away from the computer before I start slaying people I do not like...

I had to change my focus lately.....

I really have to learn not to give press to people who do not deserve it. I know they bait me into some blog war or war with words with them just to get noticed. Some of the models try to "Rub" on you, hoping to get a good story/press/attention for themselves...

Bitches!!!

I see the models trying to come up with different positions, new blog designs, borrow my Interview style. It's cool!! Someone had to make the Blueprint!! I was blogging before it was cool to blog. I was picking up boys in the air back in 07, I was doing the Porn star interviews and getting BTS footage(as a model)for a long time. Add doing the funny Youtubes.....Come on!! I was doing all of these things and still escorting on the side(winning awards in that as well) I have done it all..

Probably one of the reasons why I'm so cocky and arrogant...

I was doing many things....... it's called Self Promotion!!!

All these porn stars complaining about the lack of coverage or press, not sure why they are complaining....... Get up and do something!!!

Twitter is fun!! But I hate to be bound with only using 140 characters at a time!! It's interesting to play with.....

Moving on....


So I'm going to LA on Saturday, and I will of course film the entire trip(Like I always do)and I have somethings planned in LA. I will make sure people know what is going on with things..

Cybersockets is on Monday Feb 7, I will be going to that. Dateless!!! Awwww!! But I think I will still have fun just mingling with people and networking of course!!

Fans I will make sure I keep you posted on my movements when in LA!!!

LET DOWN THE CURTAIN

LET DOWN THE CURTAIN!!!

Back to blogging....



Diesel Washington is a character that was created by a guy who wanted to get into the porn business. It's a persona that is take charge, aggressive, arrogant, cocky and in your face. This alter ego performs in gay porn movies and comes into play in blog writing. The blogging style is a combination of thoughts, rants, ideas, updates from the mind of Diesel Washington and "Editor"/Terrance.

I think I should copy and paste that on every post, I get new blog readers all the time and some of them do not know the whole story behind Diesel. I entertain people by showing off my body, making crazy interviews/youtubes, personal appearances in which I dance for the fans. I'm blessed to have a job like this, I always stay hungry and keep pushing for press because that is what an entertainer does.

I'm sure people get tired of hearing about Diesel Washington, tired of the rants, mudslinging, and the Blog Wars.....

Oh the Blog Wars!!

I ripped apart many bloggers in my day, it is simply a game to Me. If your going to sit home on your computer, and study my career, guess my personality, listen to gossip and rumors, and make conclusions about Me without ever having never met Me. Then you deserve to get torn apart...

I'm not your average "Cookie Cutter" porn star, I have an opinion and I'm not afraid to express my feelings. I openly talk about HIV/STD testing in porn, more diversity, and I try to help out other models in the business by pointing out how ironic the industry can be sometimes.

But there is another side to Diesel....


Most models do not get to see the real person behind the character, unless I'm working with you. If I work with you, then I let down the walls and allow you to see the real personality. It is not my job to get my blog and say I'm a nice guy, Who does that???

If you have to tell someone that your a nice guy, chances are you are NOT a nice guy and you have to make yourself look good because your insecure. I let people figure that out for themselves and let the cards fall as they may. You never truly know a person unless you talk to them, met them in person, and that process takes a long time.

I meet porn stars all the time, some play that Str8/Bi role and keep their private life separate from porn industry. I have worked with porn stars who are in a relationships but do porn on the side, married porn stars with kids, the drug addicts, and simply the college/broke guys who do porn for the money. Everybody has their own reason for doing porn....


I'm a paranoid nut job, I do not trust people(esp in this industry)so building friendships/relationships are hard. In my experience, most models look out for themselves, they do anything to further their career or to secure that job/gig while crushing the next guy. Alot of self absorbed models who would stab a friend in the back, just to get ahead of the rest of the pack. It tends to be alittle cut throat in this business, so I keep my distance from people because sometimes you do not know their angle.

I trust people too much.....

I wear my emotions on my sleeve and live my life like an open book, people like to take advantage of that sometimes. when that happens I shut down all emotions/feelings and I can be an evil motherfucker!!

You get tired of being hurt all the time, you become jaded and bitter. I do not want to live like that anymore...

I'm trying harder to let down my guard, and let my personality shine. 2011 I decided to work without safeguards and just be that relaxed goofy guy that I am.

Well this was a strange post.....


I guess I'm trying to say "You will see Diesel being goofy this year" I want to do porn and have fun with it for a change..

You have been warned!!! Geeky Goofy Diesel has arrived!!