Tuesday, October 19, 2010

CALLING OUT THE BULLSHIT AND LIES!!

Right to It...


I'm tired of the double talk:

"All American Males" are Black, White, Asian, Latin, Indian bah bah bah. So trying to say that you like the All American types. Well there you have it, if you were born in the United States then YOU ARE All AMERICAN!!

Using All American as code for only being into Whites only!!!That is a bunch of bullshit!!! Rather hear you say your not into Men of Color, then hear a bunch of bullshit code!! Use the preference card(more bullshit)or something alittle more Creative....

Oh and using into Light Hair and Eyes...more bullshit!!. It's not PC and insults my intelligence, its more drawn out talk about being into "White only". Dumb fucks!!

Twinks are White, Black, Asian, Latin bah bah bah. Just like there is Black Bodybuilders, Black Jocks, Black Muscle Daddies...I rather it be a bodybuilder who happens to be black etc etc. Just like We don't have a Black President, We have a President who is Black.

Non Men of Color, I do not take offense to being called BLACK, you don't have to keep calling Black Men "African Americans" Yes I know its the PC thing to say without causing waves. But Black is fine as well......

I don't care where you were raised, the term "Colored" I do take offense to, unless your like eighty years old LOL. The older generations used the term Negro(PC back then) or "Colored" which was more of a Southern thing, but like forth years ago. If a twenty something calls Me "Colored" then We are going to have a long talk.....

Women stop this bullshit of wearing deep V necks shirts showing off your Tits, but have the nerve to get upset when a guy stares at your chest!! I mean SHIT your displaying your rack for the world to see, so of course your going to get some stares.

Gay Porn Stars stop all the Tweets saying your in the gym, Working out(when your not)!! When I was on Twitter, it was the common Tweet "Working Out in the Gym" "Time to hit the Gym" "Hitting the Gym Hard" funny part is...

When I go to these events, and see these same Porn Stars.......

Nothing has changed!! They haven't gain any Size, Definition, or have lost weight!! Alot of people walking around that have lost Muscle(I'm kidding)or gain some Fat though LOL.

Lets get it together people!! Stop lying on Twitter!!

Flamboyant gay males who make fun of other flamboyant gay males for being too cunty or girly. It's funny hearing a Gay male say "He's not my type because he's too girly" I'm like "Your wearing more make up than him LOL" "Just because he's girly does that mean He is a bottom??" I know alot of Fem Tops running around, they do the whole "Drag thing" but they got big dicks and know how to use them so watch out!!


Plus I know alot of Trannies and Drag queens that pick up alot of these so called masculine males, just to bring them home to find out their legs go up in the air in an nanosecond. That is real talk!!

I'm tired of assholes that say "I can get a body like yours if I did Steroids too" Excuse Me?? I touched the stuff once, and it was a horrible experience for Me(Moody, cycling down was a bitch, Post cycle horrors) Ever since I have been busting my ass in the gym, dieting, doing Cardio, working on my stomach Steroid free....

I'm the one making it to the gym four to five times a week(Rain, Snow, Sleet)killing myself on the treadmill, to get the results that I want. And all that hard work is shitted on by some asshole saying it was all about the Roids with Me. I take that very personal because I worked hard for it!! Speaking of which...

As a personal trainer, I hear these guys that just started the gym say "I don't want to get too big" My friend, it took Me ten years to get a body like this, so don't worry. If he wasn't a Client I would have said "Are you Fucking Crazy man? You weigh 150lbs your not going to turn into Superman after two months of the Gym" But I got to make a living right??LOL

On the flip side, if your start weight was 160lbs and in two short months u gained 30lbs of muscle. Don't bullshit Me and say "You changed your diet, or doing a different workout" At least say you taking a new kind of Supplement... Fucking Juice head...LOL

This is for the new people that come to NYC, if you stop on the sidewalk to check your phone, converse with friends, smoke a cig, whatever.. Make sure you pull over to the far right or far left of the sidewalk, DO NOT STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF SIDEWALK!! I can't tell you how annoying it is to walk through a crowd of people and have some of them stand in the middle of the sidewalk blocking the passing lanes(Rush hour) I don't care that your on the phone, or texting or Twittering. Move out of my way, and this is Walking...I guess I have Sidewalk rage.

To the people that say "My body is a Temple", okay you eat right and work out. But your body is a Temple?? If that is the case then your Temple must be made of Coke, E, Tina, GHB or whatever. You use this Temple crap, but your a drug user and abuser!! So Temple my ass, you watch what you eat not what you snort. Real Talk!!

No offense to anybody with this next one but.......

If you write a blog about Porn Stars(and don't get paid for it), if most of the people on your Twitter page are either Porn Stars or Porn Industry people, if all your friends on facebook are Porn Stars or Industry. If you are constantly chatting/texting/tweeting with only Porn stars.

And you never filmed a porn, or worked on a set(agent, photographer, billing, editor, makeup artist,set design, scripts, an extra in a non sex scene or work for a producer)then.....

You are a Porn Star groupie!! Just admit it!!

I know so many people who don't do porn(get money from it in some way) but live their life around the Porn Industry(they want to be around the models, they want to party with them bah bah)you guys are Porn Star groupies...

There is nothing wrong with that!! I like Porn Star Groupies(some of them)The only reason why I say Porn Star groupies is because......

Lets be real, everybody wants to have sex with a Porn Star, party with a Porn Star, be seen with a Porn Star...

But nobody wants to carry the Stigma that doing porn brings, and that is being honest. I hear people say "I'm so interested in the Lifestyle, but I don't have the balls to do porn, what if I want to do something else with my life?" "I don't want the Stigma" Fine then don't do porn, but don't call Me Cocky or I think I'm all of that. I had the balls to put myself out there and expose my sexuality. So I have to carry myself with extra confidence because I do carry the Stigma. I distance myself from some people because they are hypocrites. They go to all the parties and when they get mistaken for a porn star, I have heard "Hell no I don't do porn!!I have a real job I would never disrespect myself like that" or "Umm no sorry, I don't lay on my back for a living, I have more respect for myself" yet...

They are on Twitter, chatting with all the stars like they are one big family. They go to all the events, rub up next to all the stars, try to get fucked by the stars. They scramble to get all the porn giveaways, try to take pictures of all the stars(facebook, myspace, twitter)They Suck up to you!!Kiss your ass!! Just to be apart of the energy. Fuck that fake fucks!! Your just like everybody else you just want to leach on the fame and live in the lights!! So watch out fellow stars, they love the way you look, love your big dick, tight ass, all of that, but don't respect you as human being, your just a scapegoat for them to live out their sexual lust. As soon as a newer face comes along, they will start hitting up that model on Twitter, trying to get friendly with them. Just like little boys, they had a favorite toy until the next one comes along, and soon you will be the toy box forgotten. Same thing happens when you Age, Gain weight, or fall from grace.

Okay.....

You want to party with Us, and have all the fun of being a Porn Star. But don't want the Stigma. Well you can't have it both ways(at least in my opinion)I still see you as Fans/Groupies/Supporters. You get to go back to your own world, after all the partying and sex parties is over. In the real world, you don't have to worry about getting jobs or someone exposing your porn past when you become a celebrity doing something else with your life. I have to carry that Stigma that most of you don't want. So excuse Me if I distance myself from the Groupies that seem to hang all over Us at parties.

I have love for the Fans because you guys support Us, that is the most important message. I have love for the Groupies as well but sometimes they turn into Stalkers!!

Some of these people on Twitter that "STALK" the porn stars, YOU ARE NOT A PORN STAR!! I don't care how many people you have on your facebook/twitter page, you don't do porn, or work in the Porn Industry!! Stalking just makes Me feel paranoid because you follow our careers closer than the Fans, they follow all the movements of the stars, go to all the parties, hoping to become a part of the lifestyle. Just be Fans and enjoy the work!! Stop stalking the stars hoping that one day, they will either fall in love with you or they will become your best friends.

When I was on Twitter I would get tweets from angry Stalkers saying "How come you don't follow Me??" "How come you don't answer my tweets??" When they didn't get the answer they wanted, they started bad mouthing, or spreading rumors on Twitter about Me. I'm like Really??? Wow once your Fans and when they don't hear something they like, they turn on you and become bitter and angry.

Wow!! that is why I am cautious when it comes to riding that line between Fans, Groupies, Supporters and Stalkers. I write a very depth blog, sharing alot of my experiences in life. It has been my past experience that often I'm stalked because people feel a connection with Me/blog/performer. People need to remember you have some insights about my "Life" I have no knowledge about your "Life" so alot of people come at Me hard because they feel connected in some way.

I'm glad I could be entertaining for you, at the same time I don't know my Fans personally. So when you "Come at Me" with so much emotion because you followed my blog and it touched you I sometimes get nervous because.....

I have never met you!! You know alot about Me but I know nothing about you!! Think of it this way:

Its like a complete stranger comes walking up to you, and starts talking about your family and your past experiences like they walked in your shoes!! It takes Me a minute to recognize that you guys are Fans. When a situation like this happens.....

Truth be told, I run for the hills!!

Almost five years later, I still think of this blog as my baby!! A private journal(yeah right) where I keep my thoughts/rants/opinions about my journey in porn. I can't "Take" the observations that some people have about "My Life" like they are reading chapters from a book. I'm the "Editor" of the blog so the only way you can really get inside of my head is by going directly to the source. This blog is only pieces...

Sucks that I don't let people get that close to find out for themselves!! I have been hurt.. Cue the AWWWWWWWWWW

This is real life, its not a soap opera its not fiction its real experiences complete with Highs, Lows. I had convos with people that were reading passages out of my life like it was a novel that they read. Its sort of surreal to talk about my blog(where I expose myself) like its an unfinished hardcover that someone picked up and started reading..

Wow deep!! moving on...

If your sucking dick, or taking a dick up the ass in a porn...

You are not str8! Use Bi or "Sexual" something that sounds cute, do not say your Str8that is a bunch of bullshit. No Str8 male is going to let their image of being fucked or sucking on a fat cock be beamed across the Internet for sale for a couple of bucks without being somewhat Bi curious(at the least) Tired of Str8 guys who are taking 10 inch dicks up their ass(which is loose before the scene)say after everything is done at the end of the day, I'm str8!

Str8 males don't get hard while sucking dick, Str8 males don't get rock hard when getting fucked!! And as I said before, no Str8 male is going to do Gay porn like Hello I'm str8 but I'm about to take this fat cock in my ass for a few hundred dollars. Real str8 males will sell drugs, might even sell their bodies but they would never commit to doing film so people can see them performing homosexual acts!! Real Talk!!

If your 5'7 and you have a 8 inch dick, stop saying you have a 10 inch dick. Your dick looks big because you have a little body(height wise, skinny)so its an illusion!! When I first watched porn I saw all these guys with huge dicks, I was like I can't compare to these guys. The reality of the situation was that these guys were all short with big dicks so of course the dick looks 10inch huge but its only an 8 incher. Real Talk!!

Now this is a confusing one....

People stop assuming all Porn Stars are HIV+, that is a bunch of bullshit!!!

Models stop assuming other models are HIV-, that is a bunch of bullshit!!

Okay I had enough fun, another post coming your way!!

4 comments:

Laurie (WJ) said...

Hi T...ref "they feel connected in some way. ".. that's very true and its a bit of a trap from this side as well..I have to keep reminding myself (reality checks etc ) that this is a window on some one else s life and you don't know us from Adam etc.... still a really good read and you raise interesting things to think about. Also it is a reflection of my life in various ways..it is surprising how similar/same things can be in the sexual side..It is good to be able to "talk" about it even though its a one way thing in some respects.I hope that some of the responses we give are thought provoking for yourself...I know one thing I said was...anyway thanks..Regards..Laurie

keeprnla said...

Oh my god, you wear me out and not in the way I'd like. You do go on. Passion and fire. I get it. I get a kick out reading your posts. Your insight and perspective has been enlightning and in some cases has altered my point of view.

Anonymous said...

Damn! You are an insightful man! The things that you say have the harsh (for some people) ring of truth. If they can't deal with it, that's on them. No reason for you to stop talking. Thumbs up!

Anonymous said...

Yo Diesel, props on your post. Does it irk you when guys put their preferences AND add "SORRY" to it? That bugs the shit out of me. It's like...sorry for what? Who wants your gutter butt lookin' ass?

State your preference and don't apologize for it. Ironically most of the guys that do that are ugly as fuck or just clones of all these other lame men out here.