TIME IS TICKING!!!! VOTE!!!!

I SUCK AT RELATIONSHIPS!!!


There I said it, I don't understand myself sometimes!! Looking at myself I see a confused man as to what he wants in a relationship..

Ever meet someone and you have that animal attraction(physical, mental)but either they are into you way too much(whatever that means)which turns you off, or your way into them(whatever that means) and they are turned off...

It seems the key is to be with someone that wants to be with you as much as you want to be with them.

But I heard a rumor, that in most relationships there is always one person that is into the another one more. Does that make sense?? One person loving the other person more...? Ages Old question.

In any case, I have found out that I'm starved for affection. I do the porn/escort/hookup thing but no actual intimacy like the "Dating" thing or finding that special person in which you share more than good sex with. Yikes!! Good Sex is good sex but afterwards your stuck with the same feeling of being alone. Just because I do porn, doesn't mean that SEX is the most important thing to Me, people have the notion that either I'm not looking for something "More" or incapable of having such wants. Yikes its like I'm Mister Fuck you in Ass guy and I'm out!!

Another thing that bothers Me about the whole relationship thing. I notice people are more willing to partner up during the Winter as opposed to Summer(makes sense in a way) So many lazy fucks out there that partner up for the Winter so they don't have to go out to the bars and clubs in the freezing cold. HAHAA I laugh because its so true, I have been there and done that before, but that was when I was younger. I know friends that have this Winter long "Thing" and as soon the weather gets nice they are out the door chasing more Ass. I can't make any judgements about that but I find it funny is all.....

But I'm looking for that "Special" thing all year round.

I guess I'm just bitching about nothing(like what else is new

Time is ticking, I'm getting older each day and still looking for that "Special" person.

Just staring at the Clock LOL....

Moving on.....

Porn news, it seems that a Gay4pay performer has turned up....HIV+. Yup so the Porn world is freaking out, and everybody is throwing out names not knowing who this "Patient Zero" person is...

It's turning into a Witch hunt, and I feel bad for "Patient Zero" this is one giant mess and the Industry is bracing for a Hard hit. It seems that "Patient Zero" has performed in Str8 and Gay porn. So that means this effects both Genres of porn Str8 and Gay, so the hammer is going to fall hard!! Get ready in the next weeks for some Huge debates and new changes to the porn world.

So much talking about HIV+ models, barebacking issue, STDs. I saw all of this coming!! People are just more informed nowadays and the Porn industry has to evolve in order to compete. They had to evolve when the introduction of the VHS came they had to evolve when DVDs came and yet again with the introduction of Internet(Illegal downloads, Websites, Tube sites)

Health issues in porn hasn't changed, We models come into this business knowing the health risks involved(ST D's, crabs bah bah)but as far as HIV we believe that we are safe because we use condoms, and we are(to a degree)!!

At the same time, if someone is not willing to take the risk and feels uncomfortable performing with HIV+ models then I believe he has that right. Since some Studios do not test their models, some models have been asking their Co star(s)their status(Shit some want to see paper work) And some Studios/Sites frown on that....

Whats the problem with that you may ask?

Well...

That leaves the doors open to models asking other models their status on set. If a HIV+ model is paired up with HIV neg model. The Neg model might not want to work with a model unless they are Neg(do you ask for test results?) Is it the duty of the HIV+ model to reveal his status to a partner, even though they are having protected sex?? Is it wrong of the HIV+ model to work with a model who has stated that He doesn't want to work with someone who is +?? Alot of unanswered questions..

At the same time think about the HIV+ model:

If people are going around asking models their status, is it fair to the HIV+ model?
If that Neg model decides that he doesnt want to work with a HIV+ model. Now the privacy of that HIV+ model has be compromised, Whats to stop that Neg model from spreading rumors that expose the status of that HIV+ model??. . He has his right to privacy, Right?. What goes on set doesn't always stay on set, and gay boys like to gossip that could spread to his private life and that is not fair. Right??

What is happening.....

Neg models are being partnered with HIV+ models against their knowledge(And these models have stated that they didn't want to work with HIV+ models). Believe Me its not fun, finding out a model that you worked with has turned up HIV+, the thoughts that run through your head(Drive you Nuts!). Esp if your some young naive model new to the business... that could break down some people. I have seen it before.

To Me it seems that HIV+ models have more rights then models who are Neg. Which seems alittle unfair to Me.

It's a delicate situation ....

FOR THE RECORD I HAVE DATED PEOPLE WHO WERE HIV+, so I'm not discriminating against anybody!! I'm not making HIV+ models the demons in the matter or pointing a finger or starting a Witch hunt to find out who is + and who is -, I'm willing to work with a HIV+ model as well, in real life I assume everybody is HIV+ when I have sex with them anyway(As everybody should) So save Me the Hate email....

Well lets make a poll,:

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I want to hear from the Fans and readers, what is your opinion????

I will post all comments regarding this issue on my blog, I think its a good idea for people to talk openly about this.

So let me know your thoughts.....






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