I'm tired and worn out from the gym and long weekend. I just heard news that my grandfather(fathers side)is in a coma and it doesn't look good for him.
What to say and what to do?
When my grandmother passed it was(still)CRUSHING to Me!! I don't know how to feel about my grandfather, while I love him in the "family sense" I do resent him in some ways.
My grandfather while married to my grandmother was living a double life. He maintained a long term relationship with another woman. And the family(His children, grandkids)could not stand him for it. Our grandmother still stayed with this Man, TO KEEP THE FAMILY TOGETHER!! She dedicated Her life to taking care of the family. Wheter that meant, letting their grown children still live in the family house. Taking and adopting their grandchildren, because their Adult children was on hard times and could not provide for them. Opening up the house, to everybody because that is what family does. I learned so much from my grandmother!!She was Church going and was loved by everybody!! Fuck!!
I'm crying!! Writing this!! So if its not perfect...Fuck it!!
God I misss Her!!
We thought after all the things that were thrown at Her(Grandmother), We thought she would be the one that out lived grandpa. She would be free!! After all the years she dedicated Her life,raising her Kids, grandkids, and greatgrand kids. We did welfare, Church cheese(The Huge Block), Foodstamps. The house has caught fire,.. bah bah
Now its his turn, the grandkids are not visiting him as much as We should and He is in a Hospital laying in a coma. I'm Numb!
He was a hard Man, he liked His Scotch and Pall Mall cigs. I don't remember much about his affairs, it was kept from the grandkids but We had our "Guess" My grandmother lived for this Man, she had his kids and her life was revolved around this man. She made him breakfast every morning as usual and packed his lunch for work. She was with him for sixty five years, and never cheated on him. She gave her life to the Family and that Man.
That is why We resent him!! He cheated on her!
He reclaimed his life and devoted his time to the Church. He even became a Deacon!! That resentment is still there!! I have to go see him in hospital...
I don't really want to go...
Its so draining to see family members on their death Bed!! Coma! Coma!
I saw my grandmother in a coma, she was just taking a nap!! Fuck!!
Hard typing this shit!!! Fuck1!!
No spell check and writing from the fly...
I love my grandpa
It was fucked up what he did to grandma, she lived for you!! Man!!
But I will go and see you, and maybe I have to pay my respect!!! I saw the look in your face when Grandma passed and it was like you died...
I guess you realize what you had!! And what was taken from you!!
I will go see you Grandpa I love you!!
FUCK OFF HATERS IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND!!
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