I'M ALIVE PEOPLE!!!

Sorry I haven't been updating my blog....



I have been traveling around for the last couple of weeks and sometimes I don't have the energy to write a post.


Traveling has been hard, so far the cities I have visited were NYC(home base) Boston(Joey Boston) Washington DC, Philly....


I have other cities to add to the tour but I have been in Boston about four times helping Joey Boston get things ready for the trip. Its not easy leaving the people you LOVE to go and travel the U.S. I miss Momma Washington and Joey Boston misses all his friends back home. Money has been good, but there seems to be not enough time to Sight see in any city that We are in, basically I have been staring at Hotel walls trying to get more and more clients.

Some people have sent me applications for joining the Whore Tour, but I haven't had a chance to contact anybody and picking another person to travel is very tricky.


I have learned alot about myself on these trips and when u travel with someone you get to know them VERY WELL!! I have always said I'm not easy to get along with, so Joey Boston has his hands full!!

Joey Boston is not a saint either and it taking Me a long time to find a way to connect on a deeper level. I mean I know he has my back and I will protect him as well. But sometimes when your with a person 24/7 you tend to get on each others nerves alot. I think its healthy to spend some time apart and sometimes DO YOUR OWN THING. We have gotten into fight after fight but at the end of the day We are running a business..


The slogan is "Getting Money" so sometimes you have to put differences aside and see the bigger picture. I have grown to like Joey Boston alot!!! Who knows?? We will see what happens down the road....


Anyway a quick post to let the fans know I'm still alive and the tour is still going on...


I will be in a city close to you soon, Hope to see you all!!

WHORE TOUR 2011: NEW ADDITIONS

Well the Whore Tour 2011 is happening, and I'm bringing new faces.



And now introducing JOEY BOSTON!!!

Age:21
Eyes: Hazel
Height: 5'9
Weight: 130
Special Skills: Art of Massage(Sport/Deep Tissue/Erotic)

I met Joey Boston on my last trip to Boston(I know Boston alot)and I found him to be such a firecracker!! So much energy and just a good heart(so important). I know what people are thinking....ANOTHER TWINK??

He is very different from your average twink, there is no Glam there..Down to earth and humble!! The thing that makes him stand out is that He works for his money(Dish washer, Mopping floors, Honest work).. None of this false sense of entitlement like some twinks have. In fact when I first Met Joey HE BOUGHT ME A DRINK!! He has been through alot in his life(We all have)so he is WISE beyond his years.

Sometimes life throws Us curve balls, how We react to hurdles is what makes Us stronger(or weaker) JOEY BOSTON gave Me his loyalty/trust....

In turn, I will guide him the best I can...

Getting Money is the Slogan!!!





Looking out for new talent that wants to make money....

This could be you too..email me DieselWash1@hotmail.com
The recession is the motherfucker and it's effecting everybody, so instead of letting it swallow you whole with bills and all. Get off your ass and make money!!! It doesn't matter HOW!!

WHORE TOUR 2011 adding new players to the game, everyday.


WHORE TOUR 2011 coming to a city near you.

WHORE TOUR 2011: FIRST STOP BOSTON

Well everything is set for Boston....


I will be touching down in Boston on Friday afternoon, I have traveled to Boston before and had a decent time. This time around I will be meeting the MaverickMen(need to talk over business)and a local porn star named Bobby Knight. So excited that I get to travel again....

After the past couple of weeks I needed some rest from the constant moving around bit. I had time to focus on the gym and handle business at work so everything is working Tip Top shape now. And since everything is smoothed out on the job front, I can switch my focus to making money to start my own. But enough business talk lets talk about BUBBLE BUTTS.

I will be Bubble Butt Hunting in Boston...


Sound funny??? It should because that is one of my goals while out in Boston. The quest of finding a bubble butt in Boston. I will have camera in hand just capturing Bubble butts in their natural settings. Take it as a experiment, Diesel is going from city to city looking for the hottest Bubble butts around.

I sound so corny right now, but I dont give a shit!! In a nutshell, Diesel in Boston making money and looking for Bubble Butts.

BOSTON I'm coming!!!

I KNOW YOU READ THIS SHIT!!

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THE EVENT: GAY DAYS, PARLIAMENT HOUSE

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GAYS DAYS IN ORLANDO

Another quick post, I landed in Orlando and getting ready for a good time out here. If your in this neck of the woods come out and see Me.I don't bite and for this trip, I might even let people touch my Chest!! It seems that everybody is always grabbing or rubbing or playing with my Chest. At first it gets annoying..

But I want the crowd to enjoy themselves, and for this trip I will allow it!!


Anyway another post later....



I'm out in Orlando BITCH!!

I'M A BIG KID NOW...

Vid by Fabscout


I have to show a different side to Fans, some people do not like kids...I LOVE KIDS!!! I'm a big kid so I guess I have alot in common..

Anyway above I'm Hamming it up on the Dino Ride


Gay Days post coming next...

QUICK GRABBY WRAP UP!!

Okay I went to Chi Town for the Grabbys awards.....


Don't get mad cause this will be a fast post..

Highlights of the Grabby Trip:

Meeting models that had nothing but love for Diesel, in no real order I added comments for each porn star. If I talked to ya I remember everything. Yeah I play like I'm stoned and don't give a fuck. But its always better to make people think that your a mess because then U can see what THEY are really up to.... Sneaky sneaky anyway road call...

Bobby Clark- yes u got bigger and your ass filled out nicely yummy. Still looking porn ready cute boy. Hugs

Trent Diesel- you have been a busy boy, I wanted to kick it with ya. But I see your going through some stuff, I'm going through the same shit myself so I wanted to give you space to have a wild night

Tommy Defendi- love Tommy!! I owe you big time Homey!! You kept Me on the high road all weekend for that I'm really grateful..

Dayton O'Connor- Argh....You got a chance to watch Me sleep(I hate when people watch me sleep) Thank God your cute as fuck, next time I'm climbing in bed with ya...ummm TMI let me shut up!!

Jason Crew- Love you man, I want to say Thanks for putting Me up for the night when I got stuck in Chi Town I had a great time watching movies and Family guy with ya Homey. Your alittle crazy sometimes but that is what I LOVE about ya!!

Mike Rivers- your a cutie, remember what I said to you and BF that is happening in Orlando YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!

Alexx Garrett- READ ABOVE

Kirk Cummings and BF- Ummm pot brownies really??? Stoned out!! Kirk you look great your Bf is training the hell outta ya. Wow your body is looking sick right now. Congrats and good luck with everything happening in the future.

Wade Westin- I see you....I just had to play with your feet! Tickle Tickle!!HAHA and your right I will play with more than your feet next time.

Parker Perry- dude when your were sitting on my lap in the cab ride, I popped a boner. I know you felt it cause you caught grinding in my lap the whole cab ride. Guess what?? That shit felt GOOD!! You sexy hairy puppy!! And the reason why I don't pull out my cock? I'm an escort in my heart, and Daddy has to get paid for Dick flashing.

Alex Rocks- hey homey you were right next door to my hotel room, I should have opened the door and invited you to tear up that ass of urs. But I was a gentlemen that weekend....Next time I see you NO MISTER NICE GUY!! BTW love the country accent. Yummy!

Lex Sabre- You know I have seen more than a few of your bottoming scenes and u take that dick well...Yummmy!! And the whole Dawson Riley just pissed Me off. Who the fuck he thinks he is??? Thanks for the backing on that subject.

Preston Steel- dude that was so cool of ya to introduce yourself to Me. You want the truth?? I knew who you were you didn't have to explain to Me. But I was glad that you had the balls to come up to Me and Kick it!! Most porn stars are too stuck up to do that...I come up to other porn stars all the time and give them Love, after all We work the same business..

Dante Escobar- Glad to see another Man of Color in the business, let me know if you need any help in promotion homey. Men of Color have to stick together in this business, there aren't many of us but we need to stay connected together. And that comment backstage at the Grabbys hurt a bit, but you don't know Me very well but I will give you a pass for now..I'm watching you

Dylan Hauser- the weekend started rough on ya HAHAAH but I'm glad you pulled yourself together and had a great time when you was out there. Thanks for being so cute and nice and taking the time to talk to Me.

Tom Wolfe- your a crazy fucker!! I was worn out when We were dancing on Stage. Your almost getting too heavy(muscle)for Me to pick you up in the air(I said almost)Anyway you crazy fucker!! I still remember the comment you made at the table when we were eating, your a smart fucker!! And I like the way you think...DON'T LET IT GET TO YOUR HEAD BRO. HAHAH

Billy Byron- sexy sexy sexy, Yes I wanted to fuck you!! There I said it. But I was alittle busy at the time, next time I run into ya. I will RUN INTO YA!! You think I didn't notice you pushing out your ass every time I walked by ya?? Glad I had a chance to play with ya on stage. Your fucking ripped!!

Jeremy Bilding- sorry to hear that your leaving the gay side of the business(I know it gets rough)I wish you continued success in the porn business. Also THANK YOU for being so open and honest with Me when We were talking at the After party at the hotel. I didn't expect that you would be so open with Me and for that U have my Respect and attention(my eyes are on that ass of urs)

703Justin- you made the upset of the night, When they announced the winner of the Grabby and people were sitting there shocked. I was the one that yelled "You Go Justin" A well deserved win...don't let the haters WIN!! Just make them hate you more!! And your BF is cute.....Whoops let me back away now...HAHA

Steve Pena and Husband- on the real I don't think I'm getting bigger or taller, I think I'm getting older and older is all. Thanks for the love and you and your husband looked hot at the Grabbys Yummy!! And I think your the one that is getting bigger every time I see ya... Just saying!

Brandon Wilde- for a white boy you got that booty dance down!! And that pink suit you wore to Grabbys that shit was BUTTER!! Your growing up right in front of my eyes and the little boy I first met is long gone. Your turning into a Man!! Yummy!!

Jaxxon Miller- okay this is a hard one, when I first saw you I wanted to run up to you and pick you up in the air and throw you around. Of course it would have been one of those moments "Oh look at Diesel, throwing around twinks again" so I kept my distance. But when you climbed on that bed and started giving Me a massage I was like "Oh no now everybody will think Diesel chasing the twinks again" I should have said FUCK IT!! Threw you down on the bed and handled business...Fuck what people think!! But....I was also with somebody at the time so it would have been a bad look..Next time cute boy!! Next your ass is mine. BTW that body is bigger I see the difference and it looks good on ya. Your booty is turning into a bubble now....I see you!!

Eric Austyn- don't starve yourself homey!!Your stomach muscle were on fire on stage, so fucking ripped. Yummy sorry I had you holding my coat(I had a show to do)next time instead of holding my coat, you will be holding my dick!! Just playing(no being serious)LOL

Donny Wright- Thank you Shy guy for letting me throw you around on stage. I could tell you were alittle nervous I'm glad I could help ease your nerves and just have some fun on stage. Plus I will kick your ass in Marvel VS Capcom(although I no longer have a PlayStation *ouch) It was good talking to ya and hanging out with ya at Hydrate! I'm sure I will run into you again homey..

Scotty B- glad I had the chance to run into ya!! And no I don't have any plans to visit LA anytime soon.. No offense just not my neck of the woods

Brent Corrigan- glad I had a chance to talk to ya and I will be seeing you in Orlando. We need to talk about what kind of show we will put on...Nasty!!

Matthew Rush- saw ya briefly in Chi town but I will see more of ya in Orlando seems like a Flashback to 2008 PHouse

Calvin Knight- great seeing you face to face finally!! Your a cute short muscle pup yummy. Love those ears!!

Scott Alexander- BIG BIG BIG SHOUT OUT to my Twin, dude if it wasn't for us that party would not have started..Porn stars walking around in their drawers afraid to jump on the stage and dance tsk tsk tsk its always takes the brothers to start the party Right??? Great seeing ya again BTW our scene is still soaring to the clouds and shit. I guess its true fans want to see two fine brothers going at it. I'm glad that We could give the fans what they wanted!!

Casey Monroe- damn your ripped now and I love the new ink on your skin. Work the fuck out of that man...Good luck for the future!

Jason Sparks- nice seeing you again homey!! Let me know when I can fuck the shit out of your exclusive. I would rip that motherfucker in half.....

Mr Pam- always a pleasure seeing you baby girl. You caused some scandals out in Chi town. hahahah

Erynn Vaehne- so cool to bump into ya, sorry I asked so many questions about things. Hey when you tweet something I will come right at you and ask Really? I read that Tweet and was curious about the WHOLE story!! Sorry for being nosey

Tim and Sister Roma- Tim hahahahaha I have nothing bad to say at all. Sister Roma congrats on the Hall of Fame you deserve it.

Tony Hunter- ummmm Now you know I hate boys that tease. I know that's your thing and all. But cute boys teasing Diesel Washington??? That's unheard of.... still you have a nice ass that deserves some attention from some big dickers

Samuel Colt- congrats on your awards, its all downhill now!! Not a bad thing but you know what I mean

Chris Porter- sexy sexy sexy!! I'm shocked that you give Me a hug every time I see you. At first I was alittle bitchy to you because I didn't know what you was all about. After Hustlaball NYC last year I was convinced you are a STAR!!

Jake Austin- Hey girl!! HAHAHAH that lip gloss is popping!!

Bobby Knight- good to see ya mister sexy voice

Nick Young- thanks for the Vids and your right. I'm a hooker/blogger/personality/pornstar GET IT RIGHT!!

The Maverick Men- finally had a chance to meet you guys, you guys step up your game and I'm happy at your success!!

Scottie Brooks- ummm next time you call my name in the hallway. To get my attention pull your cock out....works everytime!!!hahah

Kennedy_Carter- I love your blog!! Keep the posts up homey blog writing is not easy. I have been doing it for 6years now...Keep up the good work Ginger boy

gpcrush- I love when you have your hair pulled back very Sade looking and hot!!

Austin Wilde- like I said playa I had 10 and all gone within 10mins of telling you I had ten of them..(private joke)

Derek DaSilva- hey brother I did the same thing you did this weekend. I didn't go to the Hyatt at all.. Kinda of over the whole Nasty Pig leather thing. I have been doing it for years and the lifestyle has changed alot in the past couple of years and not in a good way

NaughtyLauraD- sorry we didn't have more time to talk. You know I'm a nut job!! HAHA

Jared Tyler- ummm regardless what people say about you. I like you homey!! And when you asked my opinion of your Exit interview.. I was touched!! And when you walked away and said "Thanks for giving Me your feedback, I respect your opinion" I was touched little homey... Everybody thinks you have this "I don't give a fuck attitude" but when you lose the porn persona and sit down and talk to Me I see the real you and I like what I see... You will be missed my friend


Other Highlites of Grabbys:

Jimmy D, drunk and busting his ass at the Tim and Roma show

Bel Ami boys looking hot as fuck!!

And the biggest Highlight of the Grabbys trip....Ryan Middleton

I had the chance to hangout with this hottie Friday/Saturday/Sunday/Monday. We are good friends and I just like the Vibe I get from little man.



Yeah so a quick post about Grabbys......

If I missed anybody, sorry....

I talked about the Porn Stars that talked to Me or who I hungout with during the weekend. If I didnt mention you:

You either avoided Me(Like I care)

Or you didn't stand out that I need to write something about ya.

If We did talk and you feel that your missing email me DieselWash@hotmail.com I will add you to my post because its only fair..

After all I was stoned the entire time in Chi town(allows me to deal with Bi polar easier)

Ummm Grammar snobs/English majors...yup run on sentences, fragmented sentences and its a mess!! Hate Me Hate Me!! This is a blog relax....

Those rules do not apply..


Big Shout out to the whole Fabscout family(Howard, Gio, Matt, Johnny) We had a blast in Chi town and PEOPLE IN PORN you really need to be apart of the family.

We may fight and disagree at times but its all still love when the day is done.

Family www.Fabscout.com


Big Shout Out to Mark and Stacy from Grabbys as well....thanks for putting on another great show!! See ya next year.

Only this time Mark....I will be touching you regardless of what you say(Private joke)

Peace

PROGRESS REPORT 2

I think its really over.....


While out in Chi town I received several texts from "Petey" very mean spirited and nasty(I deserve it)all week I have done nothing but say I was sorry. Over and over I would get back mean and nasty texts...

I know I set up myself for failure, I get it but I can't withstand the meanness being thrown my way constantly. I have to keep working and maintain myself in business/porn industry without having to deal with the emotions of a person scorned. He has the right to be Mad and upset and I can handle anything that he throws at me.

But he took it to another level that I can't handle....


I could deal with him cheating on Me(small change) I can deal with the mean comments and lashing out at Me. He could sleep with my Best Friend and I would be still cool with that. But he took it to that level where I want to kill him(not really Kill).


I know people get angry and stuff...


But to destroy my PlayStation and burn some of my Comics and tear up my clothes???

That is some "Waiting to Exhale" shit!!! :


The part that pisses Me off about all of that, "Petey" is well off and his family is doing very well with themselves. So to destroy something of mine, THAT I WORKED HARD FOR really put Me in a nasty mood. Secondly I was getting text after text of mean shit sent to Me every hour.

I wear my emotions on my sleeve, at events I have to be Diesel Washington. The Diesel Washington who is sad and upset, most people do not like and that is not fair to my fans who want to see Me. If I'm just standing around feeling sorry for myself, nobody wants to be around that.


I received alot of emails from Fans who read my Twitter and ask Me "Now all of the sudden your out slutting again, why am I not fighting for "Petey"????"

I can not force someone to be with Me, I think at this point We both need some time apart(gives Us both time to think)and that is the situation right now.


So there you have it!! I still Love "Petey" but I can not force him to take Me back. The situation has changed and I don't think he will ever be able to trust Me again, in the time I got to know "Petey" he carries baggage with him everywhere and the Man never forgets.

So he is one hard cookie to crack........


Not to use an excuse or anything, but I have a tour coming up soon and I will be traveling the United States so maybe this is best for both of us.

This is not the end of the story, so We will see what happens down the road.

Wish me luck!!

PROGRESS REPORT 1

Yeah so things are shakey...


"Petey" and I are on speaking terms now and even cracked a few jokes with each other. I will take that right about now, I know I fucked up and I'm seeing the future of how to handle myself correctly...

This is just a set back and that is all, I will fight to get back "Petey" so only time will tell.

What have I learned from this??

Like I said before I do not lie, and the first time I decided to lie to the person I loved it cost me big time. Lesson learned!!! When I came into the relationship with my heart on my sleeve it was like magic. I spoke from the heart and kept open communication with "Petey" the minute I slipped and broke my rule of not lieing bad things happened and they happened for a reason because I put out negative energy instead of good energy.

It sounds alittle sappy but I believe in the whole Good and Bad energy thing. If you keep putting out good energy, people will be attracted to you because Good energy is sexy and enticing. Bad energy nobody wants to be around and insightful can pick up on people who bring negative energy into a situation.

So I learned that I control my path and future(I always knew that forget it recently) the ground work I lay down molds my future and the people around Me. I'm a natural leader and people follow my lead all the time. If my head is not right how can I expect people to follow Me if I have no confidence in myself. In order to stay "Real" I have to admit my mistakes, correct them and move on.

This thing with "Petey" is far from over, We both texted each other despite having a falling out. So something is there, I have to be the one that gets his head right and gets back into the fight to reclaim "Petey" back.

As everything goes in life, the harder you work the more rewards you will see in the end. Sure the timing was not right this time around, but who says I have to give up. I told "Petey" that I will never give up trying to fix the situation he laughs and goes "OMG" well see...

That is good enough for Me..

Oddly enough "Petey" gave Me his blessing for this weekend and told Me to have a good time. His exact words???

"Have a safe flight out to chicago and have some good ole diesel fun out there too, I've had u wound up lately, relax"

This relationship was built by two people.....


Did anybody notice I didn't talk about the "Issues" "Petey" had, or that I didnt try to place blame on "Petey"??? Not going to play the Victim this time around. I was the one in charge of this relationship, if I can't set the good example for him to follow, then I do not deserve for anybody to follow Me.

In some ways I played a hypocrite, I should have practiced what I preached(No lieing)the minute I strayed away from setting the example it came back to bite me in the ass.

First step was reconnecting with "Petey" and clearing the air

Second step rebuild friendship

Third step Earn back his trust

Final step start over on the right path, only this time resist the evils of Hot ass, on random strangers..

Which is hard, it was like I was fishing, and the fish jumped in the boat, scaled itself, dipped itself in butter, jumped in frying pan and put a sign on itself saying eat Me.

This time around I will learn to respect myself and live the life I want to lead. Its not hard because I choose my own path and direction I want in life. Nobody controls Me and I'm a big boy who can make decisions for myself.

Back on the right path again...


It took my brother Roy Jones, to enlighten me again about having Knowledge of Self. I'm a smart dude and I know alot of things, I let myself down this time around, but I'm only human. I'm not going to repeat this cycle again, I should have known better.

Now I know and I will march forward again, you can not stop forward motion of a fighter. You can only get out of the way because I'm coming through.

Anyway heading to Chi town and not carrying any negative energy with Me, I'm only putting out Good energy this time around and watch how many people will follow Me knowing that I control my own future...

NAKED TRUTH

This is not about "Diesel Washington" the character/blogger/personality, so if you want to hear about "Diesel" not the post for you. You have been warned!!

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The only way I learned how to express myself without talking to someone(professionally)is by venting on a personal level on the Internet. It's weird but venting openly on my blog makes Me feel slightly better. It's like I'm confessing my Sins, and yes I'm telling the whole world what I'm thinking or feeling. But Who gives a Shit right?? * Sigh

Now I could sit here and feel miserable about What has happened(I have done that already)or I could think "What the fuck is wrong with Me??" Yeah what is wrong with Me????

I longed for a loving relationship, and I got it. It was so fun being with someone and having the long nights of cuddling and talking and watching TV. I really didn't think much of the first weeks with "Petey" We were hanging out. I kept doing what made Me happy, I was hooking up with people for that immediate attention(cause lack of intimacy) while I was sorting out what was going on between Us. I was selfish at first because I really didn't think a relationship would work between Us. Call it low self esteem or whatever, I didn't think I deserved LOVE.

My brain was conditioned to be a Porn Star and a Whore, that is the honest truth. I worked a business where some(Not all) people didn't care about your opinions, they only wanted you to look good in front of the camera and perform to the best of your ability and bust that load or money shot. My brain is conditioned to walk around naked in a crowded room and there is nothing wrong with that. That is the work I do, I'm an Adult Entertainer!!

I'm not playing the Victim, I know that I fucked up this relationship by not keeping my dick in my pants. When the relationship got rocky, I retreated back into that Whore/Slut because that is all I have known for the past six years. Its sad I admit it!! Sex is my weapon of choice, when I'm angry I look for ass to bang hard and a bottom to treat like shit, just for a moment to get out the anger. When I'm lonely I look for a piece of ass to fuck for the night and get that false sense of intimacy. I know that I have my "Issues" with Sex...

I was a dumbass, instead of waiting it out to see the direction of the relationship. I got greedy and was "Doing Me", to my surprise while I kept "Doing Me" my feelings were starting to grow more and more for "Petey". Before long I fell for him, and I had a trail of "Fuck and Chucks" under my belt. Things got real rocky when I went to Palm Springs, long story short We broke up while I was in Palm Springs, then talked and decided We love each other....

OMG!!! The word LOVE came out of my mouth, I was the first one to say it!! There I was vulnerable and completely naked in front of him, all my emotions on the table!! He told Me he loved me back!! WHAT??? The moment I waited for so long....

Someone I love, Loves Me back.....

We get into another fight, words are exchanged!!He tells me to get out of his house and "We are done!!" this is about the 3rd We broke up!! Only this time MEAN words are said by him, and I dont want to get into details but nevertheless I was an emotional wreck. We talked and things were back on track yet again.

But this time around He hurt Me badly, I carried that anger with Me back home. In a childish and immature moment I got online and I fucked some boy just to make myself feel better. "Petey" found my trail online and called Me on the phone, We had huge fight!! And its over!!


I look back to the events in our relationship, and I can see where I went wrong. I wont play the Victim, I fucked up!! To Me it was meaningless sex, I don't even remember the name of the boy I fucked. All I remember is the night before I was in my Lovers arms sleeping soundly and waking up to his face in the morning. I remember "Waking and Baking" with my lover when I get up. I remember sleeping and my Lover was rubbing my head(to help Me to sleep)I remember his smell, touch, the feelings he gave Me when it was "Right" between Us.

I fucked up!! I do love "Petey"

Am I willing to fight for him?? Damn right!! But he is a Capricorn and those under that sign are very very hard to get through. Right now his anger is taking over!! All I get is name calling and cursing Me out(and I deserve it)not sure what I can do at this point...

I have a trip to Grabbys, I don't know if I want to go now. All the plane tickets and hotel arrangements are paid for and now I don't even want to go...

If I go I will probably stay half the time in the room, just replaying the events of my life in the past week over and over. A fake smile on my face, avoiding people to the best of my ability or even worse. I will go and BE THE WHORE/SLUT times ten!!

Being a Porn Star/Whore/Slut is what I know best....

To some I live the High Life!!

I remember "Petey" telling me "If you stay with Me I will make you Miserable" (he was having a moment) I said to him "I'm miserable already, so at least this time I have someone to be miserable with"

Now I don't have even that....

I'm not placing blame on the Industry, and I'm not playing the Victim!! I hate what I became....

But the show goes on!! Nobody wants to hear me Bitch or Whine!!

It's all about the Cock and Body and Sex!!!

It's the only thing I'm Good at!!!



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I didn't write this post for attention, or for people to feel sorry for Me. I'm a big boy that made mistakes. I have nobody to talk to about my feelings, so I get online and write an entry on my blog to help me cope with my feelings. Say what you want...

I could give a shit right now!!

AND JUST LIKE THAT, "PETEY" GONE!!

Long story short.....


I no longer have a BF/Lover/partner...

I fucked up the relationship by lieing and cheating on "Petey". I broke one of my own rules, and now I feel like SHIT!! I don't deserve to be in a relationship with anybody...

I took something that was so special and just shitted it away.....

We bought plane tickets, reserved hotel rooms, and was going to plan out the trip to the Grabbys. Then my past came back to haunt Me and "Petey"(being a detective) signed into my Adam4adam/hotmail and started looking around and Bam! He finds out that I cheated on him numerous times(I'M A DIRTY WHORE).

Its my own fault, I played an immature game and broke my own rules for conducting yourself. No lies and being Str8up!!

What hurts more??

Finding out after the fact, that the person you cheated on was the RIGHT person for you. At first I didn't think "Petey" would be into Me for a relationship. He's 16years younger than Me, wealthy, well educated, good looking, and He has the world by the BALLZ.

I went with the flow, never guessing that We would fall in love with each other down the road. By the time I realized I loved this man, it was too late and the damage was done already. So I lied to cover my tracks(bad idea)I'm a horrible liar...

When he confronted Me with the info, I couldn't lie my way out. I was caught dead to rights and had to face the music...


So back to being single....

*Cue the downward spiral music, its going to get ugly!!


If ur reading this "Petey" I do and still do LOVE YOU!!

I'm sorry for the bullshit!!

BLATINO EROTIC AWARDS

So I'm alittle late with this post about the Blatino Erotic Awards...

First off the bat, I want to give a Huge Shoutout to Joe Hawkins for running such a great event. I had an amazing time and everybody was so friendly and welcoming. Also shout out to Stan(backbone for models)he made sure I was well taken care of and I had a great time.

As all events I have to give you the "Run Down" on all the things that were going on. Well I arrive to Palm Springs and meet Stan(handles the models)and We go over to the hotel and check in.

I also had the chance to network abit and just see what opportunities were available. More on that soon...

When I do events I go in with a game plan:

I talk to my fans

Avoid jealous models

Avoid the drunk/drugged up messes

Hit the Dance Floor with alot of power!!


Before I even left for the trip I was mentally prepared for handling the unknown and know:

KNOWN:

Some people are not going to be happy with Me, they will either consider Me a Sell Out or Unlce Tom and that is without even meeting Me(Part of Job). Some people will say I'm a "White boy Chaser" and that I suffer from self hatred for my own race kinda of bullshit!!...

Young Up and Cummers!! Just sit and watch you and study you, looking for flaws trying to find "Holes in you Armor" I'm wise to that game.

I'm already prejudged to have an attitude, or some bullshit notion that I look down on other models of other genres of gay porn(except bareback porn which I frown upon)which is crazy!!

The bullshit idea that I only work with white models(Getting old)

Just crazy ideas like these I know will come my way, but I was prepared for that. In person I'm friendly, polite, and I answer all questions in front of Me. But be warned if you come at Me with attitude, u shall receive attitude in return. I'm not there to be grilled or put under some spotlight or microscope. I'm a model/entertainer I do adult films, so if you come at Me with all this analyzing bullshit I will simple "Kick Rocks" and go some where the air isn't as cold as that Popsicle stick up your ass!!

And the Unknown:

Just stupid shit that happens when you do events sometimes, you have to be on your game at all times!!


I stayed to myself the entire weekend, I went to every event and danced and mingled with fans. But I didn't interact with many of models when I was out there. I was doing my own thing, most people probably thought I was a loner or quiet.But the reason answer is..... I'm seeing someone(Love ya Petey), so I don't need to go out or room hop(dirty boys)or carry on at the clubs trying to bring someone back to the hotel room.

The event itself was......


Great!!

It started with the White Party, some fine Black men dressed in white taking over the whole hotel(Classic). A couple of speeches and special awards given out. There was a poetry reading, and special congrats to individuals(HIV awareness, trendsetters)and I have to admit I was TOUCHED!!

Then there was the after party at this special location(go go boys, kinky sets)I danced my ass off...

I go to alot of industry/event parties and the music is always So So. At mainstream parties the music is usually, Lady Gaga, Britney, Christina bah bah and some house thrown in...

Blatino Oasis??? That music is pumping!!I was jamming all night long, hit after hit and it was so refreshing to hear some Hip Hop/RB mixed in with Old school house music and some tribal thrown in. Hands down!! I was moving on that dance floor.

Anyway moving on....


It's awards day, and I get a call from "Petey" long story short, We were on the edge of breaking up!! Emotions ran crazy!! We retreated back in our own separate corners(Him in Brooklyn, Me in Palm Springs)at the same time. I had to receive an award at the same time so needless to say I was crushed that day, and had to put on a fake smile the entire day. I was low key at the Blatino Erotic awards, I stayed in VIP and just got my thoughts together.

When my name was called to receive my award, the crowd was a mixed bag of emotions. I saw this and immediately grabbed the mike and said...

"Thanks for inviting Me to this event, by the response some people like Me and some people don't. All I can say is that I'm model like everybody else, I'm an actor in adult movies and I'm paid to pay a role on film. I came into mainstream(Titan, Falcon)just to give mainstream more color, I used to be like everybody else and say "How come there are not more Black guys in Mainstream porn??" Instead of complaining about it, I put in an application and tried to change the problem from within. All I can say... but thanks for inviting Me and Let's have some fun.

I walked to get my award and then walked through the crowd. Reactions were different when I walked in the crowd, alot of people were showing Me love. I wasn't there to back down from any questions, I was there to have a good time and get my award. I took picture after picture with fans, shook hands, networked and flashed that fake smile(even though I was feeling like shit)People probably thought I was a snob because I didn't want to go to the Sex show(I do porn why go?)And I was not in any mood to be around other models playing to the Press!! I don't run around getting pictures of all the models at events. I bring my own camera and take pics and anybody that wants to use pictures I took of them(some models ask Me to take their pictures because they know its going on the blog)I'm more than happy to lend out a helping hand. Back to Blatino Erotic Awards there was a live sex show in the back(in garden)contrary to rumors on Twitter, the only reason why I didn't get on the action was I was not being paid to be an Actor or model. I was at the event to receive an award, so all those bullshit Twitter rumors, are just that RUMORS!! I didn't talk to anybody and I kept to myself(like I do at all events)

I say it on my blog all the time, when I go to events I'm quiet as hell and keep to myself. I'm not that porn star that has to work a room and introduce yourself to everybody.


No offense to other porn stars out there, chances are if you have to introduce yourself as a porn star, your not doing your job well enough....

Anyway.....

After the awards, I set up camp in the lobby of the hotel. I set up my computer and sat in the lobby and answered question after question from curious minds. I have nothing to hide and I'm direct and frank with the fans.

Are you only into White guys???

Diesel: I'm into all races and all types why limit yourself??

You only film with White guys??

Diesel: No I film with all races, on the outside it looks like I only film with white males. But the reality is that I'm given an opportunity to make a pay check and I'm not the casting director. The Studio/Site tells Me who my scene partner is and I decide wheter to take the part or not. Why turn down a pay check?? My sexual preferences do not come into play when filming scenes, I'm willing to work with anybody..


Are you willing to work other black models?

Diesel: Of course, a role is a role. I do draw the line at doing scenes that are "Thug themed" I'm not a Thug!

Why don't fans see you more at "Black" events??

Diesel: Alot of the events that I blog about I'm invited to go, or I'm nominated for something!! If I'm nominated for an award, You better believe I'm going to see if I win or lose. I do personal appearances where I'm paid to be there. And I go to some Pride events(NYC, Philly) because they are local. I can't afford to go to all the events(Flights, Hotel, food)so unless I'm sponsored or paid to be there chances are that I'm not going unless there is an Important reason that I need to be there.

Not being stuck up!! But just being honest....


After all the headaches of the day,I got back to my hotel room and had a long talk with "Petey" on the phone, our relationship was getting to a point of no return. Point of no return meaning that We needed to get to that next stage of our relationship. "Petey" is my BF now....


My BF....

Whoa!! I do love "Petey".....I fell for him on day 1.

To my surprise....

He told Me "I Love you as well...I do" "I love you"

There I was in Palm Springs, after having an emotional break down, walking around with a fake smile on my face, being depressed. I went a whole other direction and wanted to party my ass off after hearing the news..

So I was an emotional mess at Blatino Awards(but people didn't see Me sweat!!)And I now have a BF WOW!!

Again I had an amazing time, and look forward to next year!!

I HAVE TO KEEP YOU GUYS UP TO DATE!!

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HELLO PEOPLE BEEN A LONG TIME!!

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"PETEY" PHOTOGRAPHY PART 2

Another weekend passes..


I was hanging out with "Petey" again this past weekend and it was a busy one!! Alot of stuff happening nowadays and just trying to keep my head above water. Apartment hunting with "Petey" has been heartbreaking...


We went to a great apartment in Bklyn(across the bridge)and it was the Dream apartment for "Petey". Long story short, We didn't get the apartment and it was alittle disappointing to us.

I really felt for "Petey" I think he really wanted the place, but it was cool to see "Petey" obsessed over losing the apartment. In alot of ways I thought We were complete opposites, funny to see that he has the same reaction when it comes to losing something that YOU WANT so bad!!

Anyway, I have to pick up my head sometimes and say "How time flies?" I have been with "Petey" for 8 weeks now!! Now that might not be a long time to normal people, but 8 weeks is like 8 years in a gay porn star timeline.

So things are going well..

Moving on..

The workout is going well, and I'm getting ready for events next week and the week after that. Its going to be a busy month people

Stay tuned!!

I'M A STARTER NOT BENCH WARMER!!!

Yep I said it!!(HAHA Wolf)

Anyway, I was ranting on Twitter again, www.Twitter.com/DieselWashXXX and I notice that Samuel O'toole started this Q&A Youtube thing. I have met Sam several times and I like him, so no problem there.

But his Q&A Youtube is almost the same thing as my http://vyou.com/Dieselwashington Q&A Vid response thing...

Now I know that might sound caddy that I'm complaining about someone using the same format as myself, but come on!! I don't have a company/site sponsoring my promotion I don't have the resources that backs Sam.

But...

I have been in this porn business for 6years biting and scratching my way to the top. I stay on top of my game by finding new ways to branch out to fans and supporters out there I share my experiences and thoughts on this blog and YOU the fans have stood by me for years and I THANK YOU for that!!

Just find it Funny that these same companies that don't use Diesel, make sure they follow his lead when it comes to his promotion/interviews/sex positions/blogging. I can see the guys over at the Studios/sites telling their models.

In order to be a big star in the Biz u need to:

Start up an edgy blog like Diesel

Start filming some BTS like Diesel

Start coming up with new sex positions like Diesel

In your Live performances start pissing on people like Diesel

Start doing interviews like Diesel

Yeah, go ahead call me Cocky, Stuck on myself, or whatever you want to say. I use this little hole in the wall to promote myself! I do not have a team, I don't have any assistants(anymore) I don't have an expense account, or sugar daddy to fund my work.

I do it all by myself!!! I do the filming/editing/lighting(or lack of)I come up with the characters and personas I do that all myself.

Since this my blog, I have to make sure I explain everything that I do behind the scenes or nobody knows that I was brain child for it!!

I don't call it bragging!! I'm just making sure people know the role I played in this Biz.

They can try to bury Me because of Me being outspoken at times!!

But you can't try to bury me then try to take my ideas and make them your own!! Come on!! Now your playing dirty with Me, and We all know what happens when you get down and dirty with Diesel.

He will win every time!!!


Anyway enough Bi polar ranting for today....

HOPE UR HAPPY!!

Hope your Happy!!

In all reality it was fun to show off and having the best fluffer around makes the work very very easy!! So I hope you like the pics, IT HAS BEEN A WHILE since I posted naked pics(Non studio)on the blog...

Everybody should give props to "Petey" he is the one that took the pics, and I think he has a very good eye(Back up Vid/Camera guy he doesn't know that yet) so he was inspired to take some really good pics.

I'm comfortable around "Petey" so ass shots was easy!! I have an ass I think...?

Moving on..

Hmmm? Lets talk about "Petey" now, We had another great weekend. I cooked for him again and We had DVD night(well I watched DVDs while he was passed out). We spent a couple of hours at the NYC Auto Show on Saturday(awesome Vid coming)and things are going very well. We jumped over some big hurdles in our relationship(My part)but things are going at a good pace. I count the weeks going by and they are adding up, and I'm enjoying every minute of sharing space and time with this person.

He has a slight case of OCD(neat/clean freak)but somehow his OCD cancels out my Bi polar issues. How you may ask? I move around his place trying to clean up after myself(poorly I might add)but at least, I try to be somewhat clean. I'm showing him an effort in the attempts to keep cleanliness and order in his space. OCD freaks(like him)are unique, their eyes are focused on clean lines, symmetry, form, texture(as in clean counter tops)and its sort of his "Work" so to speak(Which is his business, have to ask if its alright to speak about that)so I will leave that subject alone.

I know his "Issues" and he had a full on blast of my "Issues" on Friday. I was having a flare up, and he was in the direct path of it!! The words were coming out of my mouth and it was like I was almost watching myself(from above)going through the whole ranting process, having a fit, and it was not pretty. He shut down and it was a quiet walk, I felt like trash and knew I had to open up to him. And for once another person understood where the craziness came from, gave Me time to express it right, without the anger/sadness/confusion with my words. When I have a "Flare Up" I admit I get angry or stressed, and I lose touch with reality and go FOR YOUR HEART! I grew up over the years, and learned that physical fighting is nothing to verbal abuse!! Words stab like daggers and often hit harder than fists(plus it keeps you out of jail)so running my mouth...just running my mouth!! I wasn't verbally blashing "Petey" but I was in a cranky mood. He saw through the smoke coming out of my ears and looked past the laser beams I was shooting out of my eyes. But why would he listen to bi polar bullshit coming out of my mouth?? We are two different people trying to find a common bond(while still maintaining separate lives)and its working so far. He understands I go through things on my side of the coin, and I understand he goes through things on his side of the coin as well. I learn so much from him(hope he is learning something from Me)and it just works!!

Trying to understand it myself, but I'm going to give up trying to analyze it. I will just go with the flow(like I have)and remain patient and hope for the best(so far it has been amazing!!)

Miss you alot "Petey"(been 1 day LOL)and hope for more long weekends(they go by quick)just in a good place right now.

Nice!! Moving on...

On the porn front, I have several appearances coming up and I'm in the gym killing it for the fans(so you can get up close and personal)so things are going well. Next three weeks are cardio based, I put on enough mass and its time to bring out the definition on the new muscle. A long week of running, stair master and some jump roping. I will post the workouts soon..


Another post coming...