I'm really tired of this Bromance shit....
1. A non-sexual relationship between two men that are unusually close.
I have way too many situations of this occurring time after time. To boil it down, I have tons of totally Str8(I had to put the emphasis on that)friends that I spend quality time with...
No sexual tension, pressure or the feelings of passing that point that in the relationship(having sex) The energy is amazing and that strong connection is there. Yet..
You never go past that point, well.....
That's a hard subject to talk about, training at the gym causes you to be more open minded. It's not uncommon for Trainers to massage each other(sports wise)and when you train with a person for 2hours a day, 5 days a week. You develop that physical closeness with a person. Bah Bah.
All my friends know I do porn(Hello you Broke Asses!!Who are reading this)Yet anytime I lay on the couch, bed, futon(whatever) You fucking guys keep touching Me, Stop leaning on Me!! Stop brushing you arm against mine!! I really mean that in a good way, and my bark is worse than my bite, but still that touchy feely stuff is bugging Me...
All my friends are Hot, Cute, Funny, Down to earth and honest as all hell. Fuck!!! I love you Fuckers!!(Bromance)
How to explain it?? Example Hmmm? This is my most recent Bromance:
You go to a party that mutual friends are throwing, You spot your "Vision of Beauty" He's Hot Hot Hot Hot!!!! You have heavy eye contact in passing, but that is all!! You ask your friend who is hosting the party "Who is that?" Your friend says "Oh that's -----, He's cool as fuck!!But he's str8" Now I know your reading this, and your thinking the same thing I am "Yeah Right" but I'm very close with my friends. They Def wouldn't steer Me wrong, so I took that for face value.
Vincent(lets call him that)comes up to Me and starts talking about the characters on my Tshirt(Was wearing my Marvel tee)and that lead to Movies, Comic Books, Toys anyway....
Dazed and Confused moments later, We are walking around and hanging out like We had been friends forever!! What was strange about the situation, no sexual talk(Gay/Str8)which was kinda of weird?? There is always some talk of a sexual nature when males are conversing, wheter it's "Did you see Debbie? She looks hot!!" or "Did you see Dave?, He looks hot!!" Your at a party and everybody is relaxing, vibing and there are alot of Hot Men and Women around. But that type of talk wasn't there..
Here comes the Reality check. We have been hanging out together tight, all of the sudden some girl comes running up to Vincent questioning his whereabouts. Ding Ding!! It was his girlfriend Dawn(lets call her that)he makes sure everything is cool with her. He then introduces his girlfriend to Me, I have to be honest I was alittle annoyed at her but at the same time, Dawn is a beautiful person!! She immediately warmed up to Me and I instantly became a Third Wheel(In a good way)It's weird I wanted to feel jealous, but at the same time I enjoyed Dawn's company(Still do)but...
I enjoy Vincents company alittle more(no offense to Dawn)and she knows that because She gives Us "Alot of alone time" that night. We exchanged numbers at the party, and built a strong friendship.
Fast Forward 2years
Vincent knows everything about Me(Family, Friends, Porn)and We are very comfortable together. Now!!! Vincent is hot!! I mean that is what attracted Me in the first place. We get along like close friends and We can talk about anything. I tell him when he's looking hot and when he's not. I train him in the gym, so of course I'm making his body hotter and hotter(which is killing me) I give him massages(Which suck cause his trust is in Me)and I never go pass that point where it would feel uncomfortable. We have slept in the same bed together(Shit I have slept with Vincent and Dawn together)We are very very open with each other. Dawn has watched a few of my porns(So has Vincent)and they gave Me pointers. I have seen them both naked(Vincent looks amazing)so I saw it all!!
The problem in all of this???
I started to get sexually attracted to Vincent recently, and it's really bothering Me!! I expressed my concerns to Vincent and it doesn't seem to bother him. When I'm giving Vincent massages, my dick is hard as a rock. To drive the point home, I point my dick in his direction and say "Dude I'm Rock hard!!" and his response??????
"Dude you have given Me massages before, and My dick was hard!!. But the fact of the matter is, that you have your own sexuality and I have mine!! I trust you to respect the fact that even though We are very very close that is the way it is. I love Dawn!!But I also care for you very deeply, So its Cool"
At this point I feel guilty as hell, I talk to Dawn and tell her about the situation. Her response "Vincent told Me your popping boners while giving him a massage". I have no shame so I'm like "Yup"and she asks me "Are you in Love with Him??" I said "Hell No!!(which is the truth)Her response "So everything is cool then, if Vincent doesn't mind then its like, Whatever!! We are all friends here"
Of course I put everything on the table and told Dawn "I wasn't the only one hard Dawn"
Again I was shocked at her response "Hes always hard, he loves Me and he's str8. He likes you alot because he looks up to you. You guys have so many things in common and sometimes I get jealous of that closeness. Your my friend, but he is MY boyfriend so respect that and I will respect that special friendship you have with him"
Now I don't know what to do?? Vincent is hot as fuck, and doesn't mind that I developed a sexual attraction for him. I mean what do you do when a str8 guy doesn't mind you having a sexual thing for them??? What do you do when they look up to you??? What do you do when they trust you??? I'm not trying to convert anybody esp when they are friends. I started to keep my distance from Vincent, but now I'm making him feel uncomfortable because He thinks that I don't want to be his friend anymore!! * Sigh
I have been practicing self control, but the urges are getting stronger and stronger. We get along so well as friends, and I always enjoy hanging out with Vincent. But I'm starting to get mentally tired of this Bromance shit.
Could Vincent be Str8 and curious??? Maybe...
He did say he got hard once or twice while I gave him a massage. But that means nothing, I got hard when I was given a massage before(from someone I wasn't attracted to at all)and I saw no big deal in that. I
I kissed Vincent a few times(on the lips)but I kissed Dawn(on the lips)as well. All three of us made out a few times, but it was always being playful.
I guess I will continue to suffer because I don't want to lose Vincent as a friend. Even though the situation doesn't bother him, it bothers Me.
I just wanted to Vent this.....
I fucking hate Bromances!!!!