The good thing about having a blog is that your allowed to express your abstract way of thinking on a broad scale.
Rants, Bitchfest, Venting bah bah, all included(or not)it's what you make it!!
I get emails from people saying "How can you talk about you Dirty Laundry so openly??" or "Your a Big mouth and Attention Whore!!!" "You have such a Big Ego!!" I hear it all the time. Sometimes I have to remind the people that are fans of this blog or Diesel Washington, that I'm only human.
I have my dreams, drama, flaws, and made mistakes but I keep pushing on to improve myself. I want to be a better person, better lover, better performer bah bah I just want to keep improving....
This blog/journal is my bible, it's the only thing that keeps Me sane. I read over my past over and over, trying not to repeat former mistakes. I'm a work in progress like everybody else, its just human nature to want to improve or make better or quicker or faster, to improve on an old idea whatever. We all want the best things in life, that is why We go through the struggle and what We fight for.
I'm still getting used to the fact that my life has changed so dramatically!! I made the decision to go into porn and I stick behind that decision!! At the same time, there is no going back(with anything really)my work is out there and my images are all over the internet. That is another reason why I'm so open on my blog, Geez people have seem me naked and engaging in sex acts. My sex life is open to the public, and regardless I wil be judged(Good or Bad) for the rest of my life because of it. So the idea of this doing this blog was a no brainer for Me. I have a complete diary of my climb to porn fame(with some unwritten chapters soon to come)and the stories continue because I'm not done yet!! This blog probably makes Me look like Hot Mess!!! Whatever!! As much as I want a private life that will not happen until I retire.
When my time is up!! I can go back to eating Wendy's and fast food. Back to having something that resembles a private life. Not having to blog or feel slave to a computer. Not having to promote myself constantly, or having to stay ahead of the pack(Live shows, Performances)I want to be in shape but not having to push so hard to be Huge, ripped and porn ready. Then I can truly fall in love, I won't have to share myself with anybody. A real committed relationship!!
Even when that happens, I have to live with the fact that I have done porn.
Whatever stigmas I encounter I will meet them head on!! I'm proud of my work, and I'm happy that I can contribute and make an impact on this Industry!!
I'm not planning on retiring anytime soon, so lets move on shall We?
It seems the biggest topic of lately, is Transgendered Porn.
Shemale Porn(its an old term)Transgender Sex on film, Transgendered Porn all the above. Hmmm? I'm not familiar with the Transgendered porn industry, it's porn and has its audience I know.
It's not Straight porn, but some of the models that are hired(Non transgendered) do consider themselves heterosexual. They only top when performing with a transgendered model, and the transgendered model is selling the illusion of being a woman(with added bonus). So would these so called heterosexual models, consider themselves to be "TransPlay4Pay"(I made that up)in this situation???
Transgendered Porn also hire gay porn stars, to star in movies as well. Are these gay porn stars considered "TransPlay4Pay" models as well. It's not Gay porn, because the models are not Gay they are Transgendered individuals.
I'm thinking Transgendered porn is its own genre, and has it's own market separate from Gay or Str8, but this genre of work can employ both Gay and Str8 models at the same time.
The bottom line of the subject is that it's just models performing, and its still work and it has it's own market!! Tranny porn has been around for a long time, and it seems to be gaining in popularity these days. Good to see another market expanding itself, and it gives more opportunities for models to work.
I would love for People to comment on this subject, I promise I will publish all the comments. Because I find this subject interesting, it's open for debate. So leave those comments people.
I hope the terms I used were correct, because I don't want to offend anybody!!
That seems that is all I can do nowadays:
I get hate email from some of the African American community because I dont solely date my own race. I get hate email because I date outside my race. I get hate email from older guys saying I only date younger guys. I get hate email from heavier guys saying I only date thinner guys. I get hate email from Bodybuilders saying I only date thinner guys. I get sad emails from women saying "It's ashame that you only do guys and not girls"
It never stops, and at this point I really don't give a shit!! I'm going to date whoever I want!! So deal with it people!!
I'm tired, I will write more later....