Tuesday, June 08, 2010

I GOT SOMETHING TO SAY

Man....

Things have changed with the performers nowadays....

Since there is a generation gap, I can't relate to the performers coming up. I'm from the old school...

I had to come up the hard way and work my Ass off to get to level that I'm at. It seems that all you have to be is good looking, big dicked, or fresh faced and you will get booked over and over. Case in point, Jason Crystal aka Jason Kay aka circuit porn star that hit all the studios and did it in such a way it was like "Yeah I'm going all out" And he actually used the fact that companies were looking for fresh faces against them. Hair color change and everything!! True story....

But the bigger issue.....Using motherfuckers in this business.

I so get tired of hearing, that some readers don't blame the younger performers for using people. Well when you use someone to either further Ur career or to gain more press or exposure it will come back in the form of bad karma. It bite me once or twice and I learned from it and moved on. The performers will realize what they have done later down the road...

We all remember Kameron Scott... We had our words and finally after all that bullshit! Kameron came to realize that he made some mistakes and even apologized to Me(it took a couple of months)and I wish him well... We lost this one buddy(Best Duo)but I told you when We first talked...I told you We would be nominated!! LOL But alas no win.

There have been other models that have come and go and What Happened to their Careers??? Gone dead and buried!! Not trying to say that to be mean I'm just being honest. They were short sighted and used Me for the two month plan, just two months. I was helping them to plan a Career, but they were only thinking about themselves in the short run. Fast and Furious is the pace that porn has, you come out the gate and work for this company and that company, before long Ur Career has ran its course. Where do you go from there??

In the latest installment, I was trying to groom yet another model. I gave him a quick prep talk, he told Me what direction he wanted his career to go and I mapped out a two month plan. Fast forward to Chi town, he fucked up!! End of story!! What I find funny is that he is using the 2 month plan I set out for him. The "funny part" is that he is using it wrong. He wants to be all edgy and shit but he's moving at light speed and not allowing his audience to grow with him. No more advice from Me, he will figure out for himself, if not he will be another porn star whose career is done at the age of 20(Sad but true) Then he will have to reinvent himself and change body types bah bah bah in any case the road will be hard for you. Ur choice Know it all!! I tried...

I read the emails...

Why do people have a problem with Me, putting myself on blast??" Yes I speak about everything!! That is what I do!! I don't care What it makes Me look like.. I'm a human being and I have my own issues. But you know what??? That gives me a personality wheter you like it or not. Does it make Me look bad that I speak about Someone using Me for exposure or press? Maybe?? but I think it makes the people who used Me look even worse...

The impression that I like to give is that I like to help out models in this business, which is the truth. I can't help every body and some people just want to use you for all they can get. Blood suckers!! This is where the generation gap comes into play,

I was raised into the game, that loyalty was everything!! You didn't snitch on people!! When people did a favor for you, you had to return that favor back. You don't stab people in the back. You had to pay our dues and work your way to the top. And I learned the hard way....

The most important, You don't bite the hand that feeds you!! Oh how I learned this first hand, I made some ugly remarks about Titan, on my Cover placement on the Telescope DVD. And I broke that loyalty that models should have with their company. But!!! At the same time, I took the lemons that were given to Me and made lemonade. Me being the P.R. monster that I am, I twisted the story and not only got Press for the Movie but I brought attention to the scenes of the Movies and even though I broke that loyalty code I brought alot of attention to the DVD and it sold like Wildfire. I dont recommend performers break that loyalty with their companies like I did, it makes you look bad I was lucky to realize what I did and I put the spin to the story that made everybody happy.

Moving on....I really don't see the IT factor that some of these performers have. Sure they are cute and have hot asses!! But it seems the Porn stars today are the Boy Next Door types(Not all), I guess people got tired of the Overly muscled jock types and wanted something closer to attainable rather than the Unattainable Fantasy Man. So in some ways I feel like that the Legendary Colt types(Large, Massive) have went out of fashion in some ways. But I'm hoping that the Industry returns to former days of glory of the muscle men.

The game has changed now, some of these performers come into this with this false sense of entitlement. Its like I'm coming through!! Or I run this Town!!! You run what??? Nobody knows you!!! What hard work did you put in to deserve any attention in the first place??? I want to say this to some people that may not understand!! The Era of the Porn Star is dead!!!

True Porn Stars had the box covers, Mag covers(they don't exist anymore), endorsement deals, birthday cards, Dildoes and Calendars. They went on tour, performed at the biggest shows and turned it out. Not so much anymore!! No offense to anybody I just see the boys in underwear dancing on boxes walking around in the club with the look "I'm so Hot look at Me" kinda of thing. Gone are the days when the Porn Star headlined the show and was given the main showcase. That was the Era of porn to Me, so in some ways I feel like that Old Man. I have worked the Black Parties, Folsom Fairs, Magnitudes, IMLs, Las Vegas Gigs, Hustlaballs those were the big Gigs!!

Nowadays you get on a bar, shake Ur Ass and do the DVD giveaway thing. Times have changed and the recession has hit Us all. I'm a throw back to the time of Debauchery and Glam of the porn star. Everybody wanted to be Us, and do the things that We did. We walked into a club and heads would turn, and We were the ones that got the party started!! I still remember my first event, it was Hustlaball Las Vegas 06 and I remember first seeing Matthew Rush...

He walked into the room and eyes were all on him, He would work the room and then go into Vip and you would be left there standing saying "Wow that was Matthew Rush" and you wish you could get inside VIP and party with the Porn Stars. They would be in VIP drinking champagne and holding court. I was so eager to have my own spotlight and be the next star!!

I would stand outside of the ropes of Vip(before I got into Porn)watching Matthew Rush mingle with all the big names. Chi Chi would be in her booth and the porn stars would be crawling all over her, trying to get her attention hoping to be casted in her next movie!! Then in one big herd they would move on to the next club/bar, limos(car service)they would be all Glammed up and I wanted to live that lifestyle. It was Sex, Drugs and Rock and Roll!! Rockstar style.

We would do the Gigs where We were flown in, all expenses paid. Sitting in a five star hotel being treated like a Rock Star!! We were making $1000- $3000 for performing a Live sex or dancing as the Main Act. Those days are gone!!

Alot of the new performers will never experience that feeling of being a Rock star. They think getting some drink tickets, and sitting in Vip is doing the Rock Star thing. Its not fuck heads!! I realize those days are long gone, and I have to deal with it. But I remember those days!! So when I see these new guys running around carrying on and selling themselves to get work I'm like Wow!!

I mean really selling themselves, offering sexual favors to get casted in roles. WTF???? I hear all the stories from the Studio heads themselves and I just laugh and laugh. I love to see the Couch casting in its finest form right in front Me. I will leave out the names, but I'm sitting with a well known group of owners and they are holding court. We are talking about the state of the Industry, talking about business(Why am I there?? In my mind I'm just model but people seem to think different)and here come all the models. They do the whole Introduction, Kiss Ass thing, and even bring their friends who are interested in doing porn over as well(good pimping)but then I see the models flirt and grab and touch this and that thing. Taking off clothes showing off their bodies thing. And I'm like, ummm okay??? Your offering yourself sexually to the Company owners so they can use you in a role, where they will be making money off of you at same time??. I'm confused?? U might as well become an Escort that way you make money out of the deal at least!! And its less work!! But go ahead if that floats your boat!!

I remember when I wrote that post that said I would give you press if you give up Ur ass for Me. Now I was joking when I wrote that post cause I thought it was funny. But in reality, I was approached by so many models willing to give Me their Ass for the press, I had to take that shit serious. Really?? I mean these were models that were not attracted to Me but would have taken the dick for alittle bit of press to further their careers. Are people that hungry for fame and success??? Yes they are!!!

I have become a target for all the up and coming young performers. You have no clue how many emails I get per day from young performers willing to do anything to get that push. And the performers are getting crafty today, they will tell you anything to get their way. It seems the performers use the Flattering comments, and Ass kissing on Me. And you know what??? I'm a weak motherfucker!!! I fall for it!! I see these guys having a hard time to get noticed or need that little backing to push them ahead of the crowd. The performers are not dumb they want to align themselves with a bigger star and learn as much as they can. I know this and I still put my backing behind them cause I had it hard and had to work for everything!!And I hate to see someone else struggle as I did.

I'm not going to lie, I'm attracted to some of these models and they play the role of innocent to get what they want. But I don't get it if your going to USE someone then get as much as you can out of them. The models that used Me all they got was small change, or some bullshit experience, but that is nothing compared to the Big Prize at the end of tunnel.

I was talking about it with friends, and they were telling Me that the only reason I'm mad is because He didn't USE Me all the way. And there is some truth in that, if your going use someone, get everything you can out of them. So maybe I'm upset that he went for the small change rather than the big prize.

What was We talking about in the first place?? Oh I remember..... The generation gap. I just come from a different time when people did things different I guess. So long story short I have to get used to the way things are now and adapt I guess.

But respect is something that will never change with Me, you have to earn my respect its not given to you for just being cute and hot. So as long as I am into the game I will keep working hard and getting that respect from my peers time after time. I don't respect USERS OR HATERS!!!

So to the young performers, you don't have to have sex with Studio heads to get work. If your going to use someone then USE them for everything they got!!! And lastly the Era of the Porn star is over!!! I remember the glory days and some of these models will never be the stars they claim to be because they lack Personality, Style and that IT factor!!

That is just being real!!!!

4 comments:

Jason said...

Wow,
I always appreciate your honesty and straightforwardness. That why people pay the money we do for your work. You have establish a connection with us we know your work as Diesel but we also know a little of Terrence. The porn stars of today are not interested in connecting with their audeince

ToddyEnglish said...

I've learned more about porn and the industry from this blog than I ever have anywhere else. I love your honesty and straight forwardness. Quite refreshing!
Cheers!

meatlman said...

You show signs of brilliance my brotha. Like the way you clawed your way to the top of "There" game. Then once you got the power you did your thing for the brethern. You keep me coming back to your blog every now and again and I love how you express your inner self in words. You can literally feel your emotions through the words. You are right to go into PR or at least some branding position.

Anonymous said...

Hello T....I guess the $$$$ is before tax..??...Rgds...Laurie