I made a promise to myself......
That promise was, I was going to be honest with myself and the people around me. There will be no PC talk coming from me at all, I will tell it like it is.
I have had my share of problems in this Industry, and I tackle each problem head on. If I don't like someone, I'm not going to smile and act like I enjoy their company when cameras are around(Fake bullshit). I said I wasn't going to attack people on my blog anymore, and I will hold to that promise. But.......
Recently had an interesting chat with another porn performer, I will name the performer later. In this chat, he made it perfectly clear that I wasn't his type. I accepted the rejection and tried to move on.... But there was an attitude and smug behavior to his responses.
To be honest, I was like "Your so cute I could just squeeze your ass all day" and his response was "Thanks for compliment, but Ur not my type" I was like okay??? So I said "Thats cool man, I was just flirting with you anyway" and his response "Yeah, but Ur not my type and I don't flirt with people who are not my type" Hmmmm??? kinda of harsh. I said "Well everybody flirts man, doesn't mean that I want to sleep with ya" and his response "Well you said I was cute so I wanted to make sure that U understand that your not my type, so your feelings don't get hurt. And why flirt???That would just be leading you" Ummm yeah, I took the rejection hard but there was something deeper going on and I couldn't let it go.
I talked to this performer last night and confirmed what I was already thinking.
Here is the actual Convo off Facebook(I copied and pasted):
good to see you take a fucking white cock up ur ass douche
its what I like...
its no secret that I'm not into black men
its fine man u just made my hit list
gasp oh no
and i love the smug attitude towards me as well
god this is going to be good
I'm just not sorry for not being into black guys
now i will run withthis
and ur disdain will be on front page
dude its not a secret
so smile in my face when u meet me and the camera are rolling cause
don't worry I will
cause i dont play PC bro
u can play it and i will expose it
my exact words were, I'm not sorry that I'm not into black men
the way u said it
stop cleaning it up
u made it perfectly clear what u meant
i have it copied and pasted
so what about jews?
not it wasnt
I don't distinguish people by their beliefs
just by the color of their skin
What sense does that make??
sorry black guys don't turn me on
u never been with a black guy
and stop cleaning it up man
I can't tell what someone believes by the way they look
no u just base it on simple color of skin
and this was ur statement
"I'm just not sorry for not being into black guys"
that was ur statement
10:38pm read above that's what just what I said it was
no it wasn't
I'm not sorry that I'm not into black men
ur missing the word "just"
it was that added "just" ur missing
don't see how that changes what I said
it changes it dramatically
ur putting extra emphasis
Im just not sorry for not being into black guys
now ur just reading into things what u want to
go ahead write away
i dont have to read into anything
ur just making urself look bad is all
i would have respected u more if u were str8up
but ur one of those guys that smiles in front of the camera and plays along but it won't be at my expense......
That is fake and phony, I will not stand for that bullshit. Don't act like my friend if Ur not!!!! Don't try to play PC around Me because I will expose you time after time!!! And if asked that question "Have you ever encountered a model that wouldn't work with you because you were African American???" I will name names, and go up and down the list(There are many).
From there the chat just gets ugly, sexual preference is what it is. What really pissed me off??? If I saw this person at an event they were going to put on the fake smile and try to act like my friend when cameras are around.
Sorry buddy I don't play those games!!!
Say what you want, "I'm over acting" "Playing the Victim again" "Preference is preference" "Ur just mad because he rejected you" I'm sure the opinions will vary, but I don't associate with people who have those views. And just knowing that your going to throw on the fake face because "People are around" and you want to be PC. That just puts me over the top, and I just can't let that happen.
Is my ego bruised??? Of course it is. Knowing that someone won't work with you even when they are getting paid to, because of the color of Ur skin??. That situation will fuck with your ego badly. At this stage of my career, I made a name for myself and still encounter bullshit like this???
People can use that sexual preference all the way to the grave. But this is the Porn Industry, its a job!!!! And should be treated just like any other job out there. The fucking is staged and framed for filming, tops are taking boner pills to get hard. There are bright lights in Ur face(between your legs, overhead)its just a higher level of acting. The top has the hardest job, We have to remain hard through out the scene. I have done many scenes where I wasn't sexual attracted to my Co star, but this is a job and I treat it as such.
If straight guys can do scenes with gay guys, and take a dick up the ass for money. Why can't a gay boy who is a bottom, take a black dick up his ass for money??? I would think it would be harder for the straight guy???Right????
So the whole preference argument doesn't work when your a porn star bottom. All U have to do is lay there and take a dick up your ass. Black/White/Latino/Asian, dick is dick as long as its hitting that prostate right, your really not going to care about the color of the dick that is going in.
If it feels good, that's all that should matter..........