Integrity, this is one of the words that is very important to me(Honesty, Trust, Determination are the others)
I had to write this post............
I carry so many secrets inside of my head, sometimes I think its going to explode. People call me a Big Mouth(in emails never in person LOL)and I say to myself "People have no clue about the things I have done and seen" Let me just give you(readers of this blog)a clue about some of the secrets I keep inside of my head:
As an Escort, I have been hired by 10 Movie stars(A list ones), 6 well known Movie stars(D list ones), 15 TV stars(from shows, E.R., The Pretender, Heroes, Lost, Wings, 24, Weeds, bah bah bah)4 Reality TV stars, 3 Pro Basketball players, 2 Football players, 3 Baseball players, 5 Musicians(2 were Grammy winners, 1 won American Music Award) 100's of Husbands cheating on Wives, Doctors, Lawyers, Policemen, the list goes on and on....
As an Escort if I didn't have any Integrity I would have Blackmailed each Huge star.....but I didn't......... I figure, What goes around, Comes around.....Karma is a fucking Bitch!! I'm just not that type of person who needs to USE somebody to get ahead......
I have seen Porn Stars drugged out of their minds, Barebacking, stealing, just over and over some nasty stuff...... But I don't put it on my blog. I'm not a snitch!!! I like to see every single model in this business make money, I don't want one single model to lose money, so I'm very careful not to give away secrets that People tell me. And I have been told SOME really crazy stuff!!!!
I have worked hard on every single scene that I was in, when I see a model that I'm in a scene with confused or left out, I brought them into the Action because I didn't want them lost in the shot!! I have been shitted on(literally)by other models I have worked with, and I didn't come on my blog and exposed them. I worked with one model that had cold sores on his Lips, and instead of stopping the filming(I was given the choice) and not work with the model, I pressed on and worked around the problem. I have met so many models that were so ignorant saying "No offense to you Diesel, but I'm not into Black guys at all" Yet when U read interviews about the model....they have no type, they are into different Races and Sizes and ages....when I know for a Fact that is a bunch of bullshit!!! Do I call them out??? Nope.
We know this is the Entertainment business....Ur not suppose to trust anybody!!! I was promised so many things in this business, to later be lied to and deceived, its been hard. U don't know who to trust....
I have always been myself....Direct, Blunt and I always speak from my Heart. I guess that is the reason why this blog became so popular......
I hate to be lied to, its one of those things that pushes me over the top. I'm a grown man, talk to me like a grown man. I have had people lie directly to my face. If U respect Me, then tell me the honest truth Good or Bad!!!
Maybe I'm different from other Porn Stars, My Mother supports Me highly and so does the rest of My family. They know What I do so I have nothing to hide. I don't have to come up with stories or lies. I live my Life like an open book on this site and the whole world gets to see the Train Wreck in action.
I usually Name names when I deem it Right!! But at the same time I protect People because I really believe that the Porn Industry in some ways is like a Large Family. U see the same people at events time to time, some people U run into at an event One day, U might be working with the Next day. This Industry is very small, the pool of models are shared by everybody, so your going to run into people U know all the time.
What alot of these Newer models don't understand is, I know so many people in this Industry, often I'm asked for my advice about models. Yes that is right!!! I will get a phone call from some Studios looking to cast certain models in their films..... Something like "Hey Diesel this is________ at __________ I was wondering have u heard about this model ________ we are casting for a film and was thinking about hiring him. What do ya think about_________???"
I give an honest opinion, I like People Who are real, even if U don't like Me but Ur honest with Me, I will give ya Press. I rather be around a person who doesn't hide the fact that they don't like Me, rather then a Person that smiles in your Face while stabbing you in back when your not around. HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT!!
When I'm asked my honest opinion I give it, I don't have to put up some fake front or talk PC.. I give my honest opinion!!
Just be real!!! Everybody can see through that guy who is fake!!!!
And If U can't be real with yourself, How can U expect anybody else to take ya serious?????
It's refreshing to be around People that don't have to lie, or put up some fake front!!
So this goes out to the USERS, FAKES, POSERS........
As soon as people get to see the real you, and U know they will. What do you have to give??? Nobody can trust ya because Ur a Liar. And nobody likes a USER!!! worst of the bunch. All they do is take and take and give nothing back!! And Posers don't last, because they are not real they are only pretending.
Real recognizes Real!!!