THANKS MOMMY WASHINGTON, ZAC, NAKEDSWORD FANS EVERBODY!!!

Okay, everybody knows that I write this blog on the fly, and I can come out and Vent and Vent!!! But I seem to be forgetting the Fans of the Blog and the Fans of Diesel Washington....

THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE THAT SUPPORTED ME!!!!

I needed a Big reality check this weekend and it was given to me. Granted I said my peace about things and things that I didnt like......

To My Man Ricky Sinz U rock Bro... I was out of line at some of the things that I said and I can be a Man and Say Sorry!!!Yeah I was Jealous...I will admit that!!! But at the same time, We are Friends...and I shouldnt get all Bitchy about Some Award...

To NAKEDSWORD...Wow I came off as such an Asshole in the Last Couple of Days about Shit and I was Pissed that night at Awards and at the After Party!! I tried to Cover Up what I was feeling..... But I guess I didnt do a Good Job of it! I usually have Fun and like to talk and Hangout with People... but I was just out of it!! To Paul from Nakedsword....Ur a cute motherfucker!!! In my Anger, I didnt keep my Eyes open to what was going on around Me... BUT TO NAKEDSWORD, GAYPORNBLOG, JC ADAMS, STARRFUCKER! At any other Events that come up, I will be the usual Funny Guy that loves to talk and hangout with the People.

Mommy Washington(yes my Mother reads my blog)I love ya!!! U were the One that kept me Sane when I was So Mad at Awards....U took Me back to the Hotel and had a Long Sit Down talk with Me about controlling My anger and just letting Go!!! U are My Mother, and I felt like I let ya down...... I brought ya to San Fran expecting to See Ur Son win an Award, and I felt embarrassed and let down that I didn't... But U said U were Proud of Me, and that I tried hard!!! And what was more important that as an African American We need to keep working harder and harder and Use this Setback as a Stepping Stone to Work Harder because Denzel Washington was in the Movie Business for years and years before He won his Oscar... And that is So true!!! I love ya Mom!!! Without Ur support in My Life...I dont know What I would do....Esp since becoming a Porn star...There are many Porn Stars who hide the work that they are doing... And U supported Me so much that U came with Me to the Awards because U Love Me and Support Me. God I LOVE YA MOM!!!!

To Zac(San Fran Bitch boy)Now when I went to the After Party I came with My Boy Zac...most of the Industry was there and didnt know Who I brought to the Party....His name is Zac, he's 5'7 about 130lbs and Italian(He was the one with White Baseball Cap on Who I was holding Hands the Whole Night with)He's 24yr and he doesn't do Porn...Well not yet!! I could see the Look that People had on their Face when they saw Diesel and Zac holding hands and walking around the club... I know How U Gay Boys are and will talk and talk....... He was My Rock!!! He listened to Me Complain and Complain about the Awards, but He insisted that I go to the After Party and Show My face...... At first I didnt want to Go.. But Zac was the One that Said "U should Go, Show ur Face and show some Grace" I kept him Close to My Side because I didnt want to Say anything Stupid at the After Party.... And I enjoy Zac's company.... After the Party We went back to Hotel... I was still Upset about the Awards, Zac says "If Ur still Mad, Take Out Ur Anger on Me, Im here to Support Ya!!!So do What U need to do to get pass this" So I cuddled with Zac and fell asleep.....

Then in the Morning..... I Destroyed His hole over and over and over till the point He had to shove Ice in his Ass to Dull the Pain... Then I continued to Fuck and Fuck him until I pushed my Cock so Deep into His Ass, He started pissing on himself with every Hard pounding Stroke...I guess I was hitting something inside of His Ass causing Him to Piss.... And I didnt Mind that he was pissing on Me and Himself.... after all its a Hotel...they are used to cleaning up some Weird stuff...I hope they dont charge my Credit card for the Pissy Bed(LOL)

To the Fans....Hey We didnt Win this Time, but there will be other Awards right??? Thanks to all the Support emails and comments that Came in(Hundres of Emails) Im starting to realize that Awards dont make the Man...and that I need to keep pushing and pushing because I do have supporters that Care.... And that means alot to me.... In my anger, I forget about the Fans that do Care and Do have My back.. For that I want to Say Thanks!!!

Even Haters that usually send me hate email about retiring and getting out of the business, they still send Hate email.....but the tone has changed alittle.. even the haters seem to think even though they Hate Me, do recogize that I brought something New to the Industry and I was Overlooked.

To Damien Crosse.... my BFF(he was watching the Live Feed of the Awards, rooting for me) He called Me all the way from Spain to give me His support!!! I LOVE YA BRO!!! And all the Kind Words that U told Me, really helped me get over this Crap!!! I miss ya Bro!!! Ur My Right Hand Man, Ur the person that I could really talk to about this Mess and Ur Call helped me out so much!! Miss Ya Bro!!

So there U have it, I came out and Vented and Vented about Bullshitt...... but came back online to Let the Supporters Know that I will not give up this Fight!!!


TO BE HONEST THE REAL REASON WHY I WAS SO UPSET ABOUT THE AWARDS!!! I WANTED TO BE THE FIRST AFRICAN AMERICAN TO CRACK THE GLASS CEILING AT THE AWARDS. NO AFRICAN AMERICAN PERFORMER WON A PERFORMER AWARD THERE YET!!!

THE HALL OF FAME INDUCTED SOME AFRICAN AMERICANS BUT THERE HASNT BEEN AN AFRICAN AMERICAN AWARDED A PERFORMER AWARD SINCE THE START OF THE AWARDS....

Doing History...Yeah Matthew Rush won some awards.... Dred Scott won some awards!!! but no Performer Award has been handed to an African American yet!!! I guess I have to work harder.... I can create all the New Moves I want to but still cant break through that ceiling, I guess I will have to work so Hard this year that there is no denying Me an Award for Next Year!!!

I figured this was going to happen so I have my back up.... Have You People seen Playbook??? Asylum???? Redlight???? those are enough to get me nominated next year!!!
But the Movie I did with Barrett Long and Chi Chi will bring down the House!!!

And I still have more movies that Im keeping Quiet!! Until the time is right!!!! U havent heard the Last of Me....

Now U really Pissed Me Off!!!