IN FORT LAUDERDALE RELAXING

Okay so I had to come to Fort Lauderdale to get away.....


I'm tired and needed to escape from all the filming and Vids and shows, I really havent taken a minute to myself without promoting and promoting.

I feel alittle guilty taking this trip, all I have done is work and work and work!!! It's all I know how to do......

I'm always pushing myself to go further in life, and even though being a Porn Star has alot of drawbacks(stigma, petty people, shallowness of it bah bah)alot of good things come out of porn as well......Friendships!!!

I have made alot of friends, alot!!!!When I'm back home, I tend to stay in the house and sit on the computer or I'm at the gym, I really don't go out and try connect at clubs or do the bar hopping thing.

So I tend to make alot of friends who work in the business because We have alot in common, call it almost a small family. Families fight!!Friends fight!!Whatever!! So in a nutshell, to my friend who I was fighting with. Dog, you still my homie bro!! That's it(they know who they are)

Now about friendships, I try to help out all my friends as much as I can, and sometimes I'm not told the whole story(I have to cut through the bullshit sometimes), if ur my friend I'm going to take your side regardless... all I ask is that ur truthful with Me. Tell Me the whole story, and We can fix the problem together!! That sounds crazy I guess, but I'm not in a relationship at the moment so all I have is Friends so I will go to bat for them every single time.

Finally I have a chance to think......Im sitting in 86 degree weather just relaxing..........

But it gives Me time to think, I get lost inside of my head sometimes.....

I want to write one more post after this, and lock myself away!!! One whole day to myself to do nothing but either sleep or stare at a wall for 2 hours...No internet, No TV, no gym, no protien drinks, just laying on a bed and having my mind open for new energy!!!

The year is at an end(close)and I have done alot this year!!! Just this one day of nothing but thoughts will do Me good!!

Next year is going to be a crazy year for Me.....

U guys have no clue on WHAT IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN!!