I will never make anybody happy........
Sure I have the support of alot of Fans, and alot of People support Me.
But when did I become the Responsible Guy???? Throughout my career I was looked at as the responsible guy. When I worked at Titan, I was the guy that everybody could count on. Alot of scenes would have turned out completely different if I wasn't the responsible guy. I was the one that brought intensity to some of the scenes, when guys were just going through the motions. Gave up my body to make the scenes interesting and different....I didn't get paid more money for doing that!!
I took on the weight of the Black Community, by trying to represent a Man of Color that can work in this Industry and can become successful. Then at the same time, People in my own community called Me an Uncle Tom and Sell out!!
I'm the responsible Porn star and Escort that gets checked out once a month(not once every three months)I sit in the Department of Health and Mental, waiting for test results. I get checked for Gonorrhea, Chlamydia, HIV, Syphilis, Hepatitis, Herpes, bah bah. Every month I get stuck in the arm and my blood drawn for tests because that is being responsible. But at the same time, I hear other models scared to go get checked out and some don't get checked at all, they only go when their dick starts dripping or they have a discharge!!
I talk open and honest on my blog, so Fans can understand What Diesel is all about. I offer a glimpse into my life that is honest and real, and its all for free!!! But in return, I get bashed by emails saying I'm dirty and ugly, and people stalk Me. Other blogs and websites just rip Me apart for speaking my mind.
I worked hard in every scene that I was in, trying to bring something new to the table. I created new sexual positions, and just worked my ass off. But younger guys who just show up on set and go through the motions, get more work than Me and is used over and over while turning in lackluster scenes time after time
I created this persona of Diesel Washington being Large and in charge. Cocky confident the No holds barred kinda of Top!! Which became popular. Then times changed and people were put off by the Cocky nature which was only a character!! People identified with the character so strongly, that the model playing Diesel Washington was viewed as an Asshole and Loud mouth when in reality I'm Sweatheart with a Big Heart
I won Performer of the Year, Best Porn star blog, Hottest cut cock, Best Fetish escort and Best Escort website. Then Winning Hard Choice award for Most Passionate Sex scene. But at the same time never finding a relationship that works, and having people who wont date Me because I do porn
The New positions(Bully, Motorcycle, Cannonball)was just to do something different for porn and I thought it was being creative. I had long said that each bottom that I have worked with deserves more credit for the positions then I do because it takes two people to create that illusion. Reading the blogs, people thought I was humiliating the bottoms and trying to be make them look bad. Or show how Bossy I can be.
I'm often misunderstood and People will think what they want of Me. I can't change that.
I don't know all the answers, never claimed to know everything but I know enough. I'm tired of other performers getting a "Pass" because of their age, experience, and knowledge of the business. They are allowed to make mistakes because they are a Newbies and have limited experience. Veterans as myself when We make mistakes, instead of getting a "Pass" we are told "You should have known better!!" Not Fair not fair!!
I didn't ask to be a role model, but all of the sudden, models were asking Me questions about the business. They wanted advice and direction and this business is hard.
When I started to go in another direction, filming behind the scenes and interviews I thought it would be a change of pace for Me. I always wanted to be behind the camera for a change, at first it was cool to interview people. But people started putting two and two together and I was getting emails from models asking when their interviews are going up. And then they wanted Me to start linking their blogs and rentboy profiles to the Vids and at first I was happy to do. I'm getting more requests from Models wanting to be interviewed by Me. Ummm Guys I'm not getting paid for this so ur going to have to wait until I finish editing other Vids.
Where was I going with this blog????
I needed time for myself, I didn't want to be a role model.....
Finally I got a chance to let loose and be that Party guy that can have Fun!!!!
But again it's time to go back to business.
I had to respond to all the people that were emailing Me saying that I need to be responsible. I need to be a role model for other models coming into the game
FUCK THAT!!! so last week was my time to let loose and be a fucking mess instead of the Guy that always has to be pushing and pushing to climb that ladder!!!
SOME SLUT ONCE TOLD ME IN ANGER TO GO GET LOST IN UR HEAD!!!
I did and I'm back
GUESS WHO IS BACK???