DRAMA, EGO, WORDS SPEAK LOUDER THAN ACTIONS

Drama, Ego, Words speak louder than actions.......


Drama

People always say "Diesel there is always drama with you" or "Drama always seems to follow you". Hmmm???? What is wrong with those statements above?

Diesel drama filled??? In reality, all the drama that happens with Diesel is contained on a blog where he rants about his life and the things that happen to him on this porno ride. Or that drama is on display on a twitter account, where people read my tweets when I have a Twitter melt down. So the only drama you hear about, happens online or on twitter. I talked to a few models in the business, and its always been the same thing, they say "Diesel your known for always getting into some kind of drama" and I say "Really???" Who told you I was all about drama??? and it's always the same thing:

I read on theSword about the drama you got into...

I read on your blog about the drama....

I read on Unzipped about the drama

I read on this blog or that blog....

So what I'm trying to say is, I known for my drama on blogs that people write about me. And where do the bloggers get their info from???

ME

Surprised??? I write the stories that the bloggers pick up, and report on! I'm the one that controls what info is being released about Diesel. You hear it from my blog, and other bloggers report it. I read on Diesel Washington's blog that this happened or that happened.

On one hand, people respect my honesty and love the fact that I'm upfront about things in my life. Then on the flip side, people are tired of hearing about the drama always going on in Diesel's life. So its confusing to me, do I stop being upfront and honest and withhold the experiences that I think can help other people?? Write that happy go lucky blog where everything is perfect and right in life?? Or I stick to the stories where I express myself, and share experiences that happened to Diesel(wheter bad or good)that really give you(the reader)an insight into the real life of a porn star??

Drama to Me, is something life threatening, involving the police, affects your family, messes with your money, or a situation that is life changing in a bad way.

When I write about things on my blog, I don't think they are drama!! I write rants, complaints, and bitch about things that bug me. I wouldn't call it drama. Differences I have with models/studios/sites are just that...

Differences in opinions, Disagreements, I speak about the things that bug and annoy me. I make observations about porn, people and things that happen in or out of the business. They are called Rants!!!

Drama is if I saw any of the haters that annoy me, and I get into a physical/verbal fight with them. Then get on my blog and say I kicked this models ass because he was talking trash about me. Then that would be drama....

So bitching and complaining on a Internet blog, is not drama. Drama is a word you use for serious issues!! Not for rants, Come on people!!!

I never understood that...

Ego

I have always said I had an Ego and it gets me into trouble sometimes, and sometimes my pride gets me into trouble as well. All porn stars have egos, I don't care how down to earth you think a performer is there is always an Ego there. You can't be a porn star without an ego, it either comes off as confidence or arrogance. I'm cocky and confident some people like that and some people don't. We all like having our Ego stroked from time to time. I can admit that openly, some models play that humble card, but behind closed doors some of them are Egomaniacs. We all want our names in lights, or to be the cover model, the headliner, the porn IT boy, most popular. So I'm not the only model to have ego, and def won't be the last either.


Words speak louder than actions(I thought it was the other way around??)

Words speak louder than actions, that has been the story of my career. My actions have shown, that I'm a good performer, promote safe sex, a good live performer, and I stay on top of my game in this business by continuing to put out hot scenes that sell. My youtubes are funny or entertaining and people like seeing them. At events I tend to be on the quiet side, and when most people meet me in person for the first time, they finally understand that Diesel Washington is a character onscreen and a writing persona that I assume when I write these posts.

My words however, that is a nightmare! When people read my blog, they come away with these notions that I'm an asshole, self centered, trouble maker and drama filled. People who have never met me already have an impression of me without even knowing me, they already prejudged me by a post of rants on a Internet blog.

Again people do not have the full picture of who the person is behind the character. I think I'm unfairly judged by people who think they know me by reading this blog. You people don't know me, you never had a lunch with me you never had a sit down talk with me. You never walked a mile in my shoes...

For gods sake you don't even know my real name......

So could you make a judgement about me when U don't know me.? Yes I have done the same thing I prejudge people sometimes. I get the wrong impression of some of the stars myself, so I usually ask reliable sources "Have you ever met this model and is he an asshole??? and then I make my judgements. I then go a step further and approach the model myself to get a feeling for the model. If I falsely judged a model, I will tell him directly "You know at first I thought you were an asshole, upon meeting you I find that not to be the case" "Sorry I thought you were an asshole man" I hate talking about people behind their back, I really do. Anything I say behind someones back, I try to tell them in person wheter good or bad. I hate rumors!!

But back to me...

I have heard tons of rumors about me(none of it true)and people listened to the rumors instead of going to source to find the truth for themselves. I try to be truthful as possible because I don't want to get caught in any lies. I'm tired of the lies and I'm tired of the games.

So I wish that people who never met me in their life, keep their perceptions of me in check until they meet me. I could careless if you like or hate me, but at least get the full story before you make that decision.


Lastly, do some people not like me because I'm upfront and honest about my feelings and express those feelings???? When I speak about the harsh truth, does that turn off some people?

So if I turn into a follower, ass kisser, act dumb and naive, stop causing waves, and sit there with my mouth shut like a good little boy. Throw my ideals out the window, allow myself to be used time after time. Write a happy go lucky blog where the world is perfect.

Would I work more??? probably.....

But fuck that....

I rather sell my dick for $250, whore and whore until I save up enough money to start my own business.

Hmmmm???

I got that cock for sale baby...LOL