RELEASE.......

Off the neg energy....

I have to give a body update!!

I'm in the best shape of my life(I say that alot)but seriously I have lost the fat around stomach to the point, when I look in the mirror I'm somewhat pleased!!

I'm very hard on myself, when it comes to my Career and Brand. I take this very seriously but at the same time I have to make fun of myself sometimes......

All this negative energy these past couple of months has forced me into the gym like a motherfucker!! I was pretty lean at GayVns but I didn't have the muscle mass that I wanted!!

2months of hitting the gym hard, I gained my size back while maintaining the definition that I wanted. Thinking about pulling out the the old camera and posting some new body pics of myself.

Hmmm? Reading those sentences above makes me want to say....

Self absorbed much??? I admit it!! Sometimes I have to call out myself because I have to do this whole "narcissistic routine" that all porn stars do. You know the...

"Hey look at my hot body"

"Hey fans check out my rock hard bod"

and the classic

"I was bored so I pulled out my camera and took some pics for you"

Throughout my career I was never the type of porn star who posts tons of naked pics of themselves(I will post the action shots, and clothed stills)I can count how butt pics I put online (4)as far as cock pics????Not many!! I guess that is kinda weird?? I'm a porn star and I don't post many cock pics.

Hmmm? when I look through my blog I see mostly text with Vids/Pics/polls all mixed in. I wanted to be known mostly for my written posts, then come the Pics, then come the Vids, and then comes the polls bah bah bah

I'm a blogger and a writer(no really..LOL)I got over that "I'm pretty phase" a long long time ago.....

I think I'm a smart cookie, I got more working for me than a decent body and decent cock.

I'm not your average porn star. Moving on...



I keep biting my tongue with each post, I wanted to reveal some exciting news. But waiting for the right time. I love the fans so I will hint some good news.

I'm getting in super shape for a reason.....

I'm not going to tell you for what, but lets say people will be surprised!! Surprise Surprise!!

The Haters will be even more pissed off, and we all know I love pissing them off.

I kept quiet about projects coming up because I want people to lose their minds!! Sometimes the key of this business, is waiting for the right moment to strike! I'm learning the business more and more with each passing day.

Lets play the Diesel Washington game:

I always plan an attack, some attacks come quick and sharp, and some are played out months maybe even a year(I go deep)after the fact. I wait for the opening that I'm looking for and put the plan into action.

I have learned you just have to stand back sometimes and let the cards fall as they may. In other words, I can't be the Top dog all the time sometimes you have to see what other people bring to the table.

I sit in the background, watching and studying trends, models performances, promotion and campaigns of certain Models/Studios/Sites. When it comes to the models I see if they bring a stronger game(Scene/Live performance/Personality) than me, if they do, then I have to work harder to compete. If they bring mediocre to the game, I let them stew for a bit......

When you sit in the background, you find out who really are your friends. When your the "golden boy" you can not do wrong, everybody wants to be seen with you or around you. Golden boys come and go(look I made a funny)there is a new one every min in this business. Everybody wants to be the "Now" thing!! I want the fame now!! I want money now!!! I want to rule the world now!!

A Superstar(okay I'm being cocky I admit it)doesn't live in the "Now" we live in the future. But to live in the future you have to study the past, I look at the past to stop from making future mistakes!!(Does that make sense??)I'm almost five years in this game, and since day one all I have done is think about the future.

The future.......

I control my own future, I control my career, I control my image now. I don't look at my gay porn career as a sprint, I think of it like a marathon. Anybody can come out of the starting gate strong. New young fresh faced models have all the glory at first, the seasoned vets with their own "Brand" stay around forever!! They have their own signature positions, style, look, voice, filming style, and interview style so they can add their name to anything and it will sell because consumers know the brand.

I'm a leader not a follower, I'm a natural born Aries!! I live by the slogan:

I'm in control, when most are out of control, or looking for control, that is why alot of people in control don't like me, because THEY can not control me.

Think about that...